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(365/295/170)
Wow.  It feels SO surreal to be able to write my weight as 2-anything and not be lying about it.  Only 125 pounds to goal.  Only, hahaha.
So I met my first goal I set for myself, and I'm pretty excited about that.  I wanted to be under 300 before I left for my friend's wedding tomorrow, and imagine my excitment when the scale said 295 this morning.  So I'm not quite 3 months out yet, and I'm down 70 pounds.  Not too shabby I'd say.  Wish I could lose another 70 in the next 3 months, but I know that won't happen.  Still, wishful thinking.  I don't go back to see my surgeon until August 18th.  I haven't set a goal for that far away yet.  I *did* decide that my next goal should be 25 more pounds by the 4th of July.  So 275, here I come!  I guess I only have 20 more to go really.  So let reevaluate my current weight loss.  I think by August 18th I should be able to lose another 50 pounds.  That would make me down 120 pounds since surgery at a little under 6 months.  I could be happy about that. 
Sometimes I really feel like I'm not doing well.  Odd to say that.  I've never lost 70 pounds in three months before.  But, I dont ALWAYS measure my food out anymore, I eyeball it most of the time.  Irreguardless, I never keep eating if I feel full, and most of the time I don't think I even get my full 4 oz in.  I *HAVE* been pretty slack on my vitamins lately though, and I'm currently kicking my ass back into gear with those.  I have to keep telling myself "those are NOT an option, you HAVE to take them."  I continue to do awesome at getting fluids in, but not so good at protein.  Sometimes, just to THINK about eating meat makes me feel nauseated, so I get the bulk of my protein from cheese and beans, which in then makes me constipated.  One thing that TOTALLY nauseates me that I used to LOVE before is pizza.  I can't stand to watch a commerical on TV, and I darn sure don't wanna be in the same room as it is.  I used to think," who doesnt like pizza?"  Now that answer is me. 
There are a lot of places in Kansas City that I miss to eat at.  The only one I'll be visiting while I'm there is my favorite restaurant of all time, Jalapenos mexican restaurant.  I *LOVE* mexican food, and it makes me sad that I can't tollerate flour tortillas or chicken anymore, but maybe someday I will enjoy those foods again.  For now, I've found that I can tollerate about half of a crispy taco.  While there I think I'll be having some beans, maybe a little rice, and some salsa- yum yum!  THe sub shop, Jersey Boyz, that I love is out of the question, along with new bao shing, the chinese lantern, RC's steakhouse...  But that's okay as long as I get me some salsa!
Hubby and I are planning to FINALLY go for our honeymoon to Vegas in October.  The prospect of fitting in the seat makes it all worth it. I'm already down 40 pounds from where I was when I got married, and in 15 pounds I'll weigh what I weighed when I met my husband.  There are not enough enchiladas or chimichangas in the world that could be worth giving that up.

(365/300/170)
Well, had my twelve week follow up with Dr. Caccuci today.  She said I'm doing great.  I had REALLY wanted to be under 300 by my next appointment, but the scale kept hovingering from 299.7-300.4. Grrrr!  But both her and the nurse told me I couldn't beat myself up for that because I've lost 65 pounds in 2 and a half months.  My next appointment isn't until August 18th.  That's a long time.  I'm going to go up there once a month just to see if I can weigh maybe.  Actually I am thinking about treating myself to a new digital scale of my own soon for getting back into the 200s.
I am leaving in a few days to be in my best friend's wedding in Kansas City.  It will be good to be "home" again.  Sadly there are so many YUMMY places to go there that I miss that I will miss out on while we are there.  But at least I've been advanced to the next eating program, so I can now have raw veggies, rice, pasta... those are great improvments, along with getting carbonated beverages back!  I'm going to go get myself a Diet Cherry Vanilla Dr. Pepper later, oh how I've been craving one these months!  The dietician said I could have protein bars now, and that I COULD have been eating them since 6 weeks out.  Too bad no one told me that, I hate milk!  So Time to set a new goal I think.  I'd like to lose 25 pounds by the fourth of July.  I can do this!!!

(365/312/170)
Went and saw Dr. Cacucci yesterday for a small lump I found in my tummy.  She said it's still too small to know just what it is yet, and that we will check it more at my regular checkup which is on the 19th.  The good news is I got to weigh, and on my 2 month anniversary, I'm down 53 pounds.  I still can't tell, but, oh well.  I feel horrible most of the time after I eat, so I've been having a lot of fruit smoothies (man I love smoothie king).  My husband ordered pizza the other night.  Normally I would have sat there drooling at it wishing I could have a big gooey slice, and then steal a pepperoni off a piece and be done.  Now just to look at it about makes me ill.  I never feel like eating anymore, but Dr. C says if I don't start eating more I'll never feel any better.  Never thought I'd have a Dr. tell me to eat MORE.