Tuesday is your day!
Just remember you
are on the journey
of a lifetime. Try
to enjoy every
minute. It may sound
weird now, but know
that you are cared
for and prayed for
here, and all too
soon this will be
but a memory and you
will be an
inspiration to
someone else. I am
waiting for you on
the losers' bench! ~
JudyAnne
HURRAY HURRAY! I weighed 129.8 this morning. That means I am less than 10 pounds from my goal weight of 120. I also have been trying the 5 day pouch test (I am on day 4) and I think it's actually working!! Lately, I felt like I could eat too much and I never felt full. So I tried the test (www.5daypouchtest.com) and after dinner tonight I felt extremely full. AAAHHH, what a relief!! My self-control is NOT good and I constantly worry that I am going to be fat again. I do have a tendency to snack and pick at food. I need to find something I can pick at all day that isn't so bad for me. Eat all day and consume very little calories -- that is my dream come true!!
Other than that, things have been going pretty well. I went to my cancer doctor today (I'm 10 years cancer free, but still go for regular check ups). They had a picture of me in my file and told me that since it didn't even look like me anymore, they were going to take another. I literally took up 1/2 the space in the picture as before. She gave me my fatty picture as a souvenir (of what, I'm not sure.) Anyway, I showed it around at work and people kept saying, "You weren't that big!!" OH BUT I WAS!! I guess I should be glad people forgot how huge I was!! I wish I could forget!! OH - I bought a new scale that measures body fat. YIKES! Depending on the time of day, sometimes I am almost 100% FAT! Well, maybe that's a little of an exaggeration, but really. What does a girl have to do for God's sake????
Okay - exciting things that have happened:
- I wore a size 4 for the first time
- I wore bikini underwear for the first time in a long time without the underwear completely disappearing
- I got down into the 120s
- I found out my insurance covers tummy tucks if they are medically necessary
- Somebody called me "Tiny"
Wow - it's 2008. The first new year in a long time that I wasn't FAT!!!! Today, I weighed in at 132.8 pounds. That means I met my doctor's goal weight. Only 12 pounds to go to reach MY goal weight. 2008 is going to be GREAT!!!!
The Good - I reached a new milestone. On Monday, I ran 4 miles!!! The bad - I am so hungry and I snack at night. I gained 2 pounds! What to do, what to do . . .
WOW! 7 months. First, I must grumble a little bit. Well, I am not losing as much per month as I would like. This month I only lost 6 pounds, and that has been the average for the last 4 months. I weighed 144.6 this morning. My lowest is 144.0. I desperately want to be 136 so I can say I am no longer overweight!!!!! I find that I am soooo hungry all the time lately. I just can eat eat eat. It makes me nervous because I still have bad habits - eating at night, picking at sweets, etc. UGH!I do not want to be fat again. Okay, enough of the neurotic stuff.
I hit the 140s today. I really want to be in the 120s, but, hey, I'm no complainer. Hopefully, if I can just stop snacking at night, I will zip through the 140s in no time. I am pretty happy, however, because I was stuck at 150 for a good 2 or 3 weeks. My scale is such a tease! Oh, I found some half naked pictures of myself, which I took as before pictures. (Me in just underwear.) I think when I'm hungry, I will go look at those. They make me pretty nauseous.
Well, my story sounds a lot like the others! I have struggled with my weight since I was in Jr. High School. I went on my first diet (complete w/ diet pills) when I was 15 years old. I have probably gained and lost 300 pounds since then!