Wow, I just realized I am now 14 months post-surgery.  Life IS grand!  No better way to describe it.  Work life, home life, social life, health life - -everything is in a good place at the moment.  Was just talking to my Sis the other day and said how happy and at peace I feel.  Sure, there are bumps in the road - - my work drives me crazy most days.  Our stock price is down the toilet which causes concerns about job security.  Unrealistic demands, limited work resources to get the job done and all that.  But it's no different than most other places I imagine right now.  

I am down 180+ lbs and the scale is still moving.  I feel more balanced in my outlook on food.  Not near perfect (what is THAT anyway?!) but much better than before.  I am still ultra conservative (by most peoples standards) in my food choices - - - MY choices -- but not feeling deprived or anything.  

Dating is exhilarating.  Seriously!  While I *am* still the same person with the same values I've always had...I am a bit different.  Different in that I am re-experiencing things now in my NON-SMO life.  I have been both fat and thin PRIOR to WLS so I do have memories of my "thin" life.  But honestly I don't think they were as good as things are now.  My head is in a better place, my values are in tact and my zest for life is in full swing.  But it's not a careless zest like it was in my thin 20's.  I do believe I have GAINED so much in this journey so far.  So while I don't EVER wish to have been fat, I do appreciate all that I have learned along the way.  

I am now looking into plastic surgery.  I personally would still like to lose a bit more but would be content right where I am as well.  Now my skin...whole 'nother story.  Looking at THAT pisses me off.  That is when I get frustrated with myself.  With the denial I held myself in for several years.  Things I think I need done...arms, legs, tummy and boobs - FOR CERTAIN.  Have a consult set up with a surgeon who is familiar with WLS patients.  Of course, this will be one of several consultations because I am scared to death of plastic surgery.  I will do my research thoroughly.  I had nauseau for WEEKS after RNY and I keep having this thought of tempting fate once with electing to have RNY.  But I know in my heart it's just something I gotta do for myself.  

Well it's off to la-la land for me right now.  

"And in the end, it's not the years in your life that count.  It's the life in your years."  

- Abraham Lincoln