It's been forever since I've posted....and I haven't been on OH as much b/c I've been SO busy with nursing school.

Things here are going great though!  Just working and schooling and working out when I can.

I went for some lab work at my pcp's office and he said all my levels were normal except my liver enzymes are still high, but the good news is...they are a lower high than they were the last time...so yipee!!

I've been experiencing some bad luck lately....on Monday my car broke down, then this morning my Computer broke.  The computer was an easy fix....the car, still not sure bout that.  I am waiting to hear from my dad on that but he said it might just be easier to buy a new car than to spend the money fixing the old one.....we'll see...

I am posting some 3 month pics....well they are technically 2.5 month pics but whatever.....:-)

I love you all and I miss you!!!  64 lbs down....it's a great thing....

I did it!  43 lbs in one month isn't too bad!  I posted new pics....

I love you guys!

First of all, I want to say that I MISS YOU GUYS!!!  I am going crazy without my internet....but I should have it all hooked up by Monday....

Anywho, onto the wows.....

I went to my surgeon today and he said I was doing WONDERFULLY!!!  I've lost 32 lbs since my last visit in his office (a little over a month ago) AND 9 inches off my hips and waist!  

THEN, mom and I went shopping for me to have some jeans to wear to school at a thrift store and....I FIT INTO size 13/14's.....first time since...uh....maybe freshman year of HIGH SCHOOL!!  I am soooooooooooo excited!!

I hope to be back on OH really soon.....I love you all!!

Well here I am...never thought it would happen to me, but it is.

I am getting more and more depressed with each passing day.  It's all I think about: in the mornings, in the afternoons, in the evenings, even in my dreams.  The other night I was talking to Jon and he asked if I wanted to go to Sonic to grab a drink, when it hit me...I can't.  I can't have anything from Sonic that I used to like....or pretty much anyplace....and I HATE it!!

I don't know what to do....I've been avoiding my family, my friends, and you guys....b/c I just don't want to talk to anyone....but I don't know how to get over this.

I know it's normal, I know most people do regret it at least once and that most people do mourn their food or whatever.....but, I honestly thought that I would be able to get by without it happening to me.  That's what I get for thinking....

It's not the "food" so much as it is, I just don't feel normal anymore....I just feel so different when I make my plate and Jon's plate....I look at them and I am so embarrassed to eat around him b/c my plate has like 2 freakin' tablespoons on it....ugh!

The other night, I broke down bawling to Jon and I told him "I'd rather be fat, be normal and able to eat/drink what I want and maybe die a few years earlier...."  Now, I don't want anyone to think that I'm contemplating suicide...b/c I'm totally NOT.  Never.  I just....ugh, I'm so sad all the time.

Then, I finally get on the scale this morning for the first time since I got home, and turns out my mom's scale was wrong.....so I haven't lost as much weight as I thought I had....(double checked with my pcp's ofc today and my scale is correct).  I've still lost a LOT of weight, don't get me wrong, but just not as much as I had thought.....

Well, I think I've rambled enough for now......anyone have any thoughts??

I love you all

Rianne

I'm going to post them here so I don't keep losing the list....

DRUGS THAT CAN DAMAGE THE POUCH:

Advil
Aleve
Amigesic
Anacin
Anaprox
Ansald
Anthra-G
Arthropan
Ascriptin
Aspirin
Asproject
Azolid
Bextra
Bufferin
Butazolidin
Celebrex
Clinorial
Darvon compounds
Disalcid
Dolobid
Erythromycin
Equagesic
Feldene
Fiorinal
Ibuprofin
Indocin
Ketoprofen
Lodine
Meclomen
Midol
Motrin
Nalfon
Naprosyn
Nayer
Orudis
Oruval
Pamprin-IB
Percodan
Ponstel
Rexolate
Tandearil
Tetracycline
Tolecin
Uracel
Vioxx (off market...not safe for anyone)
Voltaren
ALL "NSAIDS" (*see below for the Cox 2 Inhibitors)

DRUGS THAT ARE CONSIDERED SAFE:

Bendaryl
Tylenol
Dimetap
Robitussin
Safetussin
Sudafed
Triaminics (All)
Tylenol (cold products)
Tylenol Ex Strength
Gas-X
Phazyme
Imodium Ad
Colace
Dulcolax-Suppositories
Fleet Enema
Glycerin-Suppositories
Milk of Magnesia
Peri-Colace