The last month has been very difficult for me.  I will make no BS excuses for my behaviors.  I have consumed Girl Scout cookies, tortilla chips and other nonsense.  So this week I am working on being back on track.  I have resumed my appropriate diet and water consumption and am already feeling better. Even with the nonsence I did lose weight. I am at 188 which is great and just shows the power of the sleeve and not any power that I contributed.  I went to group thursday and did my weigh in and was pleased that I lost something but imagine what would have happened if I wasn't being so bad.  So my goal this month is to stay on track and do what I am supposed to be doing. 

Been a while since I have posted but I have been doing pretty well.  I am still having so much fun finding clothes in my closet that I loved now fit again.  Who needs to buy new at this point.  I started back to church after the first of the year.  And I am enjoying reconnecting with old friends and making new friends.  I feel so much happier and at peace when I am going to church regularly.  Started back at the gym and tanning to get in better shape and to prepare for the cruise in May.  My class for this semester in my grad program started and I have got my reading done.  So I guess the underlying point to all this is that I am moving on and getting things done.

I was kinda MIA last month.  Guess I will blame that on my job and my school but I guess I was on focus with my food intake.  I went yesterday for my follow up appointment and weigh in.  I was very happy with the results and the MD and dietary were all happy too.  My dietitian made a comment that maybe we should work on , and I quote, "slowing down the weight loss".  Of course after I finally managed to close my mouth I asked why.  I guess I must have originally told them I would like to be like 170 or so.  So I let her know that I had exercised my woman's perogative and changed my mind and my current goal is 130.  So she said continue on.  Now I am not perfect in any way.  I miss my vitamins some, miss my fluid amounts some and have not been to good with my exercise this month.  Glad the surgery is so forgiving.  But I am refocusing this month and going to try and do better in those issues.  Food wise I have been behaving.  I admitted I had a bite of stuffing and potatoes at Thanksgiving but otherwise behaved.  All were good with that. 

I went out to my storage shed this weekend and pulled out bags of old jeans and sweaters and OMG they fit.  So excited.  When I held the jeans up I thought they looked too small but I tried them on anyway and THEY FIT.  Of course they all are in good condition and look good so I have some new/old clothes to wear that fit better.  I am even wearing my favorite black sparkly sweater and black jeans today.

I have kind of been MIA the last few weeks on this site.  My doctors appointment went well and he was pleased with my progress.  I feel good and seem to be doing fine....the problem?  I am getting impatient.  I have lost a total of 44 pounds since I started this journey.  But I am so jealous of the weight that some of the others have lost.  I realize logically that there is nothing wrong with what I have done so far but when I see others so much closer to their goal I am pea green with envy.  So silly I know.  I know when you start out at a larger BMI than I you tend to lose weight much faster.  I know I didn't gain this weight overnight and neither will I lose it that way.  But I feel how I feel.