feeling pretty good, there was definately a rough few days to start, head hunger is the worst, i am glad i am doing it because i feel like i am learning a bit about myself now instead of later when i have other things like protein to worry about.  seeing a commercial or food or smelling things gives me the most intense "tastes" in  my mouth and i have to get distracted or drink something.,  i never paid attention to how many social cues there are that make you eat. in the past i would have picked up something and eaten it, definately something to watch out for.  also had alot of impulses where i started to get up or pick up food that i never noticed before, even on the low carb diet i would have grabbed a "healthy" snack.  it makes me wonder now, how much of it i really "needed".

one thing i have found is that after day 6 constipation became and issue.  2 days and now i am finally taking some benefiber and hoping for the best, i didnt weigh myself today because i feel like a stuffed turkey!

the nausea has gone away, sadly i think that the sugar free syrups were doing it. i am back to regular milk at the moment, straight no chaser.

i feel like i am writing a diary in a remote cave where i am trying to survive.   lol  day 6, i caught a fish.........the mosquitos are killing me......

anyway, day 6 of skim milk diet.  i am down 13 pounds from day 1.  not shabby.  the first three days were the worst.  4 was rough in the evening.  really reaaly bad.  i added a some fat free broth which helped alot mentally i think.  at least after surgery we can have something that tastes different than milk.

day 5 was the best for me, i felt like i got over a hump.  today is pretty good too.  i went grocery shopping and didnt have all the cravings i would normally have walking through a store.  after a while  i reached my limit but i felt good about it.

sugar free syrups are the bomb.  i have had pumpkin pie, almond roca, coconut, strawberry etc.  only caveat is that i am starting to feel like they are messing with my blood sugar, after a few days i started feeling lightheaded and nauseous pretty quick after drinking them, the last 2 days i had plain milk and didnt seem to have the same effects.  i may try a syrups again tomorrow and  see if that is for sure the culprit.

husband and sister are doing 1 week with me for solidarity.  they have both lost 7 pounds.  week 1 is almost over, 3 more to go, i cant wait to reach the halfway point!

soo,
yesterday i felt pretty BadAss.  No problem, i felt full and empowered. 
today around 4pm i started looking at the dogs beggin strips.......lol  my husband and sister are doing tihs with me for 1 week out of solidarity.  This morning my husband bagged the trash and said the food in there even looked good.
I have stuck with it though and am carrying on. I have lost weight prior to this about 57 pounds, in a weird way i am grateful for the diet because i have gradually stepped down my old eating habits and put food where it belongs,  i feel like this is important for me mentally and i will sort out alot of the feelings i am having now before waking up from surgery. 

i have learned that
1. when i am hungry my mind thinks i need food because that is all i ever gave it.  hunger= pizza.  good lord typing the word hurts...lol  however when i am hungry and i drink milk i feel full and satisfied and i feel like i a retraining my brain as to what nourishment is!

2. liquid diets make you pee like Seabiscuit!

3. sugar/carb/fat free coffee syrups have saved my life.  i am going to cash and carry to look for more flavors!

around 9pm i started telling myself that the pasta in the fridge would be my last meal, no one would know and i would never do it again.  i pictured myself creeping to the microwave and tried to justify why i deserved a break.  so i broke down, went in the kitchen and threw it in the trash and did some dishes, got a glass of milk and signed on here,  go me!
my sister told me i should have fed it to the dogs because it would be safer...lol!

4.  i dont know why i am surprised that you can drink milk and still poop, babies do it. i think people with hemmorhoids should try it if you know what i mean!
tomorrow is day 3, people say it gets better after day 3, i will let you know if they are full of it!