AGAIN--I AM ASHAMED OF MYSELF. I HAVE DRIFTED FROM WHAT THIS SURGERY HAS DONE FOR ME AND LET FOOD START TO TAKE MY LIFE BACK OVER AGAIN.  I GUESS IN A SENSE AND PRAY THAT  OF COURSE ADMITTING IS THE FIRST STEP.  I AM IN A COMMUNITY THOUGH THAT WLS IS NOT THAT PREVALENT--BUT THERE HAS BEEN RECENTLY A SUPPORT GROUP STARTED BUT DUE TO MY JOB SCHEDULE IT IS HARD FOR ME TO MAKE THE TIME TO GO.  WHAT IS ONE TO DO.  WELL I WANT TO TAKE MY LIFE BACK AGAIN--AND I THINK , NO I NO!!! I CAN DO THIS.  FOR ONE, I HAVE TO START SHARING MY EMOTIONS WITH MY BLOGS.  I THINK KEEPING ALL THIS EMOTION AND ENERGY IN IS ONE OF THE MOST GIGANTIC THINGS I AM DOING WRONG  TO MYSELF...WHICH IN TURN LEAD FOOD AS MY COMFORT ZONE.

I HAD TO LEAVE ALABAMA TO MAKE MY LIFE COMPLETE AGAIN.  I HAVE HAD SO MUCH TRADGEDY IN MY LIFE THERE THAT I NEEDED MORE TO FOCUS ON.  THAT IS WHERE MY DH AND WLS CAME TO PLAY I GUESS.  MY DH IS SUCH A GREAT MAN HE SUPPORTS ME IN ANY DECISION I MAKE INCLUDING HAVING THE WLS.  HE WAS HAPPY WITH WHO I AM AND ALWAYS IS BUT HE WANTED MOST FOR ME TO BE HAPPY...SO I HAD IT OF COURSE AS YOU MAY OR MAY NOT KNOW ON 3/2/05 WITH DR. BEAVER IN DOTHAN AL.I HAVE CAME TO FAR SINCE MY SURGERY TO LET MYSELF GO--I MEAN I WENT FROM BEING A CORRECTIONAL OFFICER FOR DOC--TO GETTING PROMOTED WHICH WAS ONE OF MY GOALS TO SEARGEANT.  NOW I WORK AS A SHERIFFS DEPUTY IN DETENTION MAKING EVEN MORE MONEY.  YOU THINK THAT WOULD MAKE ME HAPPY--WELL IT DOES OF COURSE :-) BUT I KNOW IF I PUT MY MIND AND HEART TO IT I CAN DO GREATER THINGS WITH MY LIFE.

I HAVE TO GET BACK TO MY WORK FOR NOW.  I DO FEEL HAPPY THAT I WROTE THIS. 

NEW ME?? WELL I HAVE A NEW SURGEON AS OF YESTERDAY.  I AM GOING TO BE SEEING DR. OVERCASH IN OCALA IN SEPTEMBER FOR FOLLOW UP AND WHO KNOW? 

MORE LATER WORK CALLS

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Well first and formost I am ashamed of myself....I have not posted in so long.  It is not like me to be like this but there has been so much going on over the years as you may or may not know.  

I just came from Orlando over the weekend Visiting with my friends and making new ones of course and this years OH event.  I learned alot and realized that there is still alot of me to go to get to my achieved goal but of course I will get there in due time.

Gail, Betsy...it was great to see you two again.  Next time we will have to have more time so I can go with you two back to the Goochi{SP?} shop.  I told DH about that and he said he would kill me HAHAHAHAAHAHAHAH....but it was a though.

Some pics from the event are posted here on my blog.