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Well after all the testing was complete i got to meet him... He tells ya how it is and what could take place and how he plans on doing your surg.His staff is great they know what they are doing and they do everything to please you. THey treat you like a person not just a person who is paying their paycheck. They have all the answers and if they dont have an answer they will work to get it. His new office # is: 1-252-758-2224

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I had my LBL, Breast lift and the inner thigh lift done with Long Island Plastic Surgical Group in Long Island NY on Oct 28th 2005, the Inner Thigh Lift was done April of 2006. Dr Brewer was my Surgeon and i feel that he did an AWSOME JOB. If you go to there web page (LIPSG.COM) you will also see that they have been on the Discovery Channel for there work.
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  • Dogs - I have a pomeranian named Ginger
  • Musical Performance - I was in a Jazz Group in College in Illinois
  • Cars - my grand am died.... now i have a 2001 MUSTANG ...and i fit in it ...lol
  • Walking - I cant wait to run again !!!!
  • Military - My SUPERMAN is in the USMC.... and we aint gettin out either...lol
  • Auto Racing - Dale JR all the way....& my brother he races too.
  • 4-Wheelers - I like to just go out and get muddy..lol
  • Nursing - I am a Certified Nursing Assistant of 7 years
  • Children - I have one baby girl that clocked in at 10 lbs at birth
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  • Comment by cowgirlup on 12/2/06 3:56 am
    Sending your thoughts and prayers during this very difficult time in your life. May all the people who love and support you help you thru this time in your life. Love, Cybill
  • Comment by KATHY B. on 12/1/06 4:50 pm
    dear amanda, sending you lots of prayers and hugs. my family has just been through this, and there is nothing i can say to help, but know your mom still loves you. we all love you on here, so if you need a friend to cry on, just mail me. hugs---kath b.
  • Comment by Melissa Mermaid on 12/1/06 3:17 pm
    Sending you love, hugs and good thoughts as you face this difficult time. I'm so sorry for your loss and pray you find the strength to get through it all. Good luck and God bless.
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3 YRS post op...
on September 10, 2007 7:52 am
I had Lap- Gastric Bypass on 09-09-004. I am not going to sit here and tell you that the whole process was a breeze. Compaired to most I have been VERY lucky. I have followed my surgeons orders not to a T but at least 90%. In 3 yrs i have lost over 220 lbs and thats including yhe plastics that i had done. Every day i am greatful to be able to move, to be able to have my family near and to know that i am 10 times more healtier then i was. This surgery isnt about looking great or fitting into smaller clothes. Its about getting healthy. I didnt have a goal wt in the beginning and today i still dont. I know that i am healthy by the way i feel. I guess what i am saying is dont push so hard that you feel unhealthy, bc that can happen. I still have a image problem. I look in the mirros and think "Oversized Stuffed COW". THe people around me know that i have this problem and they help me out. I still dont like to shop for clothes... I just never liked doing that. Does that make me weird??? I dont think so. I buy what i need and thats it. If you look in my closet you will see 3 pairs of jeans, 3 pairs of shorts and about 12-15 shirts. But also if you look deep you will see my pre surgery outfit. That is my reminder. I really dont discuss the surgery with anyone anymore. I think i am out of that stage. I know my limits and i keep them.  

I have overcame many obsticales since surgery. One of my biggest supporters past away 10 months ago and it has taken me awhile to sort things out. I can tell you that i am not 100% on my way of thinking about that yet. But i am working on it. I am starting to realize that even though my passed past away in her sleep that she is still cheering me on. She is still pushing me to succeed. I think that its bc of the closeness that we had and still have today. I have changed my college degree to Nursing granted i am taking 2 classes a semester & i know that i can get through it, its just going to take longer then most. My "superman" is still deployed since Jan 07, and he is/was to come back Jan 08, But the talk is now sometime betwn Jan-April 08. The stress is better then it was. But its still hard. My baby girl just turned 4 and the law requires her to go to school. Heres my dilema, she has always been attached to my hip and just letting her go hurts, But she loves school and its giving me time to go to the gym and have adult time. I never knew that I missed that.  

I had someone write me a couple months back, they asked "If you could could change anything from your life would you?" I have thought about this long and hard and i dont think that i would change anything. Not even the Elephant Pregnant yrs that was my fat yrs. Those days made me stronger they made me realize how blessed that i am today. And because of those yrs i wouldnt not be who i am today. 

If you a re a person just starting out on your new Journey all i can say is please just dont do it half way. A person needs to be in there full mind, work hard and shoot for there dreams even when the odds are against you. Dont think that just by comparing yourself that is how you will end up. BC sometimes it can be a let down. This surgery is always going to have goals, hopes and dreams. Youu just cant have the surgery and *POOF* your live will be great. That's not how it works. It takes a lot of hard work and determination.So, Strive for what you want for the rest of your life!!!
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Back from holiday trip
on January 1, 2007 6:42 pm
So i got back on Friday night late from our annual holiday trip... 2800 mile road trip. When we got to Ilinois I found out that my daddy was in the hospital. His sugar shy rocketed to over 400 and he had blood infection from his back surgery. He finally got out the day before we left illinois. BUT we had a great time. Even though i told the family while i was there that i was going shopping... Well i didnt go shopping i went to the ER. I knew that something was wrong and with dad being in the hospital i didnt want to worry anyone. I found out that i have Pnemonia and Bronchitis.... Yea for me. After that we went to Ohio to see Supermans family which was nice but i was soo drained bc i still had not told anyone that i had went to the ER. So i fought to not tell them. After we were on the road i finally told Superman that i had went to the ER in Illinois. Of course he knew something was wrong. We also got word while on our trip that superman is going to Iraq for a yr or longer... Not the 6 months like we thought. This week i am trying to get things ready for him to go. I dont want him to go but its his job and i support him all the way. As for christmas I tried to have a good time, But it just wasnt the same. I went and put an Angel on my mommas grave and i talked to her and broke down bc i still miss her. But i am doing better. I know that she is better off in heaven. My brother and i actully got along really well. I mean we actully bonded. When i was growing up i was like the black sheep in the family and i hated that he always knew my whereabouts and i basically told him to go to ... well you know. I cant believe that it took momma passing for us to actully bond. I know know that he respects me. My other brother said that he had had a dream about momma faking her death just to get us all closer and that she was really alive. I know bad dream but her death has really brought us four closer. LOL its funny while daddy was in the hospital everyone looked to me to know the medical things. Whisch really boosted my confidence. Normally we always looked to momma for that bc she was the nurse in the family. I have decided that i am going to start classes on the 8th. I had read in my mommas journal that she always wanted me to succeed and i fell like i have let her down in the succeeding part. I mean i had the chances for college and i thru it away. So now i have something to prove.  K well i am off to bed since i still have the pnemonia and bronchitis its really taking a toll on me.
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Just a lil one...
on December 13, 2006 3:16 pm
I know that everyone here is really caring and i have found that most is pretty worried about me. I am sorry to make you all worry. So just to let you all know Friday the 15th Superman, SuperGirl and I (plus the family dog) is leaving to do our yearly "holiday Trip" Its normally about 2800 miles long... But we do it every year. So more then likely you wont be hearing from me til after the 1st of the yr. Take care
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Its a new day
on December 12, 2006 8:05 am
So last night was the first night that i have actully slept since all this happened. So to me that is a big plus. Supergirl has been carrying around a small bible that is Supermans. She has been sleeping with it since we got back home. She informed us last night that nannie(my momma) reads to her at night. And that there is another angel that is with nannie. She said she doesnt know who it is but she is old, heavyset, and short grey hair. Which sounds like my mommas mom. I really do believe what she is saying bc things like that happens. So now i know that momma is watching over her, and thats the best news that i have heard since mommas passing. When i posted yesterday i had re-read what i wrote i wish that i could had told some other things that have always happened to me bc that would clear up the craziness that made people think i was .... a nut. But i am not ready to put that on the internet for everyone to read. Bc when i do do tell people they tend to think i a weirdo. Or at least judge me. I know that i have some things to figure out. Which is very common. As for college that is up for my dad to decide. What i mean there is that if he needs me to come home to take care of him then college will be put on hold. If i dont go to take care of him then i will resume college as planned. You see apparently mom had set up for him to have knee surgery the first of the year. So thats why this will be his decision...LOL So today is a new day.
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I dont want to think...
on December 11, 2006 9:55 am
With so much that has happened I have found that... I dont wanna eat... i dont wanna sleep and i dont want company.  i am running out of things to do to keep me busy. This is sooo hard. I feel like i have had more then half my heart ripped out of me. I want things back how they use to be. I want to find some peace in all this but i cant. Just when i thought i was done crying ... I start in again. I am not the happy go lucky gal that i once was. i dont do makeup bc its a waste. Superman is making me get dressed and making me get out of the house, making me eat and drink!!! I mean whats the point of eating??? I am so stressed that it just comes out the other end. I have lost 12 lbs in a wk and a half. And honestly i could care less. We leave on Friday for our holiday trip to see family and what am i to do??? Slap a smile on my face and pretend that i am alright?? The last time i talked to my momma was in early November and she said that i better use my college money for school and now i dont know but i am thinking that if i do continue with my plan of college that i will not do to good bc of my stress level. But if i dont go to college in january i am gonna feel as though i let her down. I have tried to post to others problems here on OH and i find myself deleting what i write. I cant give out advice when i feel like this. I know i need couseling but i just dont wanna be on depressants which they will put me on. So here i am... i feel like i dont want to exsist and i am positive that if i didnt have SUperman or SuperGirl that i would had already ended me. That and thinking that if i did do that that Momma would be waitin on me to kick my a double q...LOL So thats not a option...EVER. So dont think that i am even thinking about doing that. I did recieve a card from a OH member... Which shocked the heck outta me. It was a sympathy card. I cried when i read it. I have been recieving so many Christmas cards and i have been letting Supergirl open them... LOL she loves getting mail!!!! K i gotta go i am sure i can wash some clean clothes to pass the time.
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I have been battling my weight problem since before my teen yrs and now i am 24 yrs old. I played all sports swam for 6-7 hours a day when i was growing up. And still found myself at even bigger sizes then all my peers. My freshman yr of HS i weighed in at 228 by my junior yr i was 300+. I was always told that you have a cute face you just need to stop eating so much. In 2002 i decided that i was joining the military i lost 117 lbs in 7 months. I then found that my husband and i were pregnant. I gained 78 lbs in 18 wks (they said it was water) so they put me on Lasix ( a water pill) i weighed 327 lbs by the time i gave birth. When i left the Hospital i weighed in at 266 lbs i actually thought that my luck was kicking in 7 months later and a beautiful baby girl clocking in at 10 lbs at birth....I now weigh 335 lbs. I don’t want this surg bc i don’t like people staring at me or bc i am the big one on a plane...All i need this Surg for is so i can pick up my little girl without having a difficulty time breathing. I want to be there when my baby has a baby. I want to be able to be proud to have a picture of my child and me. I don’t want any taken bc i don’t want her to see me or remember me this way.

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Its now April 6th 2004 and I am Scheduled for a surg consult (finally)
With Doctor Harris in Wilmington on May 11 2004. It took what it seemed
like forever to find a Phychologist in Jacksonville NC... and never did
find one that would take Medicaid or self pay. So I called and talked
to Dr. Harris's Nurse and she was very helpful. Yee haw i am on my way
to becoming a loser

Yahooooooo it is april the 19th and i just called the dr office and
someone called and canceled there appointment on april 21st so they gave
it to me and i dont have to wait til may 11th ...... yes i know i sound
a little overly exited but i really want to lose alll this
weight...scratch that i just wanna move like i use too i dont care about how small
i will be. i will be happy with what i was before i got pregnant and
then i was 228lbs yeah it would be nice to be 199 no lower then 170 i
just wanna be able to keep up with my family even if it meanS crawlin with
my baby on the floor. well i gotta go talk to ya all later...manders

Otay it is now the 27th of April and I have done 1 diet class and i
finish up my Psych Elvaluation tomarrow and then I will be done and then i
will be waiting on my surg date. It seems to be going on a fast
pace...and now that i have said that it will probley slow down. Well my baby
girl just woke later...manders

 

May 3rd....I am a little hot right now....my Dr back in Illinois says
that they have 30 days to fax out my records of my weight and i told
them that i needed it by the 6th so that way it would be there on the 7th
for my pre op appt. The lady said that if she had time that she might
get it faxed by then...i wanted to reach through that phone and well
grab her little chicken throut...ahhh. So then i thought that my parents
could go pick them up and mail them to me overnight so i called her back
and being very polite she says NO again(I am thinking i am trying to
spare you some work and still i get NO) and hangs up. Oh yeah on top of
that i quit smoking 1 month ago and now i am thinking one more pack wont
kill me... But i promised my little girl(that is only 8 1/2 months old)
that ma-ma wont smoke anymore. And i am not going to let her down. I
have even thought of flying home just to get those records myself. Yeah i
am talking like a weirdo but that is just me venting.

MAy 7th 2004- Well as of today i am out of the race to becoming a loser
bc of me if you wanna call it smoking i cant have surg til oct/nov. Oh
i was so mad. I cried all the way from Wilmington to Jacksonville. I
cant believe it i quit smoking a month ago and i am being punished it
seems. But i did have some good news i had lost 2 lbs in a wk but the
blizzard that is melting everywhere probley isnt helping either...adam took
me out for ice cream. Oh and my records from Illinois showed up ...not
on time but they showed up. I always seem to get kicked hard when i get
knocked down. Well i will type again when i know something or i feel
the need....Manders

May 18th... well i was feeling like i was being punished for quiting
smoking so i called another doc and his nurse told me that beings all my
tests are done that i could have surg within a month.....i was like
yippeee so i go pick up all my paperwork from Wilmington on Friday and go
to a Appointment at Greenville June 1st. I cant wait.... all i need is
approval for surg thats it.....Manda

 

June 5th 2004---yes i know i have not been here for awhile and i am so
sorry. K well i met with a new doc well his nurse anyway in greenville
on the 1st and we are starting from scratch bc the clinic didnot like
the test results that had already been done. Oh and for those of you
that have Medicaid You have to wait until your youngest child is a yr old
to summit the request for surg. And your labs can be no older then 3
months old prior to your childs 1st bday. I called the people that made
the decisions on whether or not you are approved for it. I was on hold
for almost an hr but i got thru. So anyway that is just a update. Anyway
We are starting the labs and all the poking and probing and yucking
tasting things so that way when my baby girl turns 1 yr in August all they
have to do is summit. Well if ya'll have any questions email me i try
to send back info but sometimes the messages that i recieve dont have a
email to send back so just put that in your message when ya send it
talk to ya later....Manda

July 8th- WOW its really been a long time since i have updated...I have
COMPLETED all of my pre op tessting on the 7th...I called today and
made my appt with kerry to see the surgeon Which is the 20th of july. I am
all cleared to have the surg. I just have to wait for my baby girls
bday next month on the 11th to send in all the info to Insurance. I cant
wait to have surg. Anyway its been a little rough today my back knees
feet and all just hurt i am guessing its my arthrisis acting up. The docs
had to change my meds bc insurance would not pay for it, So they put me
on something else that isnt working as well. Well until the 20th i wont
kknow much more...Also i got got back my report from the EGD. come to
find out i have a stomach disease, and its called Gastroparesis, What it
does it makes it so you cant digest food. So basically the food sits in
the stomach until it turns to liquid or is rotten and it will then
leave my body. Apparently they said that the reason for me so heavy all my
life was bc of this disease. So i feel like i was cheated out of my
childhood. All the names that i was called all the times i had a tear run
down my face was bc of this disease.... how nice. Manda

July 14th- Well i just had to update...BC vicki one of the helpers at
OH.com just made my page really pretty and I want to thank her for it...
This week i avery and i have been busy little beavers...lol. We went to
the gym yesterday and and thankfully it wasnt too crowded. So I got to
workout for the first time in like 3 months but that evening i came
down with a cold or something bc i was just blahhh. Adam my wonderful
hubby let me take a nap and i even got to go to bed early. But i still woke
up with the headache...it wont leave me. Well all i guess til Monday
the 20th i wont know anymore.

July 20th-- Well i had my consult with Dr Mann and he was so ready to
schedule the surg that he kept repeating himself about scheduling.
Anyway i have been cleared or pre approved from all the doctors and tests
all i have to wait for is them to send my package to Medicaid on Averys
bday... Wow she really is getting ready to be a yr old...(cryin) As soon
as i get that call they will give me a SURG DATE. but until then i am
just waiting....I will post more when i know more...Manda

July 27th- Well I recieved some bad news my momma is in the hospitial.
She has a growth on her face and the doctors have yet to determin if it
is cancer or not. In a way i wont be surprised if it is... Cancer runs
in the family. I just wish i could be there with her. So i just keep
checkin in with family to find if they have heard any news. I am still
waitin for Averys 1st bday. Well i guess i will keep this profile updated
just in case i need to breakdown....Manda

July 30th- Well i sort of just need to talk...As most all know i
married a USMC in 2002 then in 2003 we were kinda pushed out bc of no boat
spaces were availible....so we had to get out we have been trying to get
into the USAF ever since. We have waited almost a yr but the doors for
prior service is closed for another yr and a half. So we have been
kicked down again. But there is always the Army...Man i did not want to go
into the Army but we need the insurance and adam misses the military.
So we are going today to sign the papers for the Army... I just have
always had bad thoughts of the Army due to my Aunts hubby... I hate that i
think that way just bc of him so i am trying to look past that...how am
i going to do this i dont know. The military is the military and i am
all for that....too bad the Army cant change there name??? Then i have
this other thought how do i become a ARMY WIFE when all I know is A
MARINE WIFE???? I know nothing about the Army ...The Marines i know
about...i have tried to read on "What a Army Wife IS?" and i try real hard to
understand but i just seem to grasp it. I love my hubby and i will
stand by him and i will follow him where ever the military puts us i just
have this hurdle that i have to get over...and i just dont know how
too??? Also the USMC is considered the best of the best....i Hear very
little about what the Army is. Anyone reading this please dont get mad or
angry at me... these are just my thoughts and i just needed to let them
out.

August 3rd-- Well had a bit of a scare yesterday i recieved a letter
stating that my Medicaid was bein terminated due to us being on it for a
yr... I broke down and just cried i was really mean to my hubby yellin
and all. By the time i had gotten the letter the office was closed...So
in terms of sleepin last night ...i didnt even know what sleep was. At
8 am i called Medicaid and found myself talkin to voicemail...so i
waited at 11 am today i finally got to talk to a human and she was so mean
to me... and finally after the 3rd time of telling her i dont
understand she opened my file and she was like you need to hold i will be back
so i waited like 5 min which was the longest 5 min i have ever had i
think... She gets on the phone as i am trying not to let her know that i
am crying...and she says we are so sorry its our fault we sent you the
wrong letter ...She then stated that we have Medical Coverage til
January 2005 ...So i cried even more... Now the lesson i learned from this
is...(Dont tell My hubby) When my hubby says dont worry ...he means it.
Everytime somethings like this happens he always reasures me and i blow
him off and always think the worst...K Now for some good news my momma
is out of the hospital and it was not cancerous it was a cyst that was
formed bc of her saliva glands... AND my momma and daddy are flyin in
today from illinois......yipppeeeeeee...i have not seen them since
Christmas.

Aug 13th-- Well finally they sent out the info on the 12th to insurance
so i should know something pretty soon...I just feels like it will
never get here. I am just trying to keep busy and man with a 1 yr old
everyone keeps busy...lol 

August 27th-- alrighty well i finally got to talk to Gloria in a nice
mannor and i think i pulled all her teeth for an answer...but anyway any
person on Medicaid had a 30 day wait period for your 1st submission of
ur paperwork anymore submissions after that Medicaid only has 10 days
to respond.... So i still have two more wks of waiting but now that i
know that it is normal i am k..bc i am not thinkin that something is
wrong... So i told Gloria that i would not bug her again til Sept 11th. I
am still staying on the Low Carb/High Protein diet and i am stayin off
my meds.... so yeah i am waitin am i worried about it all now NO...... I
just cant believe that it took twos of me buggin her 2 times a
day.....lol

Aug 31st--- I GOT APPROVED my date is Sept 9th which is my sisters
birthday and  my mom is also havin surg that day in illinois....i cant
believe it.... i gotta go tell the world and change my undies.... bc i
think i peed them....lol but thats otay bc i am HAVING SURGERY.......

Sept 1-- now lets start at the beginning of my day... I get up at 8 am
do some house work and it started drizzaling i had planned on goin to
the bank to drop off the paycheck and then drop avery off at the
babysitter so i could go do my final preops well apparently it started down
pouring and by the time i got her loaded and to the car the road was
flooded... me thinkin i am not goin to miss my pre ops i get in the car and
start driving thru yards to get around the water...and i was doin good
til this huge disel truck comes by bc there was so much water it picked
my car up and moved it to the middle of the road and my engine was 
flooded... still in high spirits i call my SUPERMAN and he comes to my
rescue now i am already 45 min late getin on the road... Do my SUPERMAN
tells me take the truck i will get a ride home from work well i went to
Greenville to do the last of my preops and i went to get on the scale i
was thinkin in my head the whole time that even though i have been on
this diet since aug 13th that i had gained instead of lost any...well to
my surprise i have lost 10 LBS.... i couldnt believe it so i was
floatin on air.... i go to the hosp for blood draws and come out of the hosp
and the tire on the truck was FLAT... Now any normal person would
probley be a nut case by now... so me at 338 lbs climbs under the truck and
attemps to change the tire on this Dodge ram...meanwhile there is a guy
that works at the hosp just watching after 30 min he comes over and
says i saw it go pop and then it went flat... now normally i would smart
off bc i am know to be a smartass but i needed help and so i was like ya
wanna help??? and he was like sure so we get it changed i then go to
the support group meeting DIRTY and walk in and head straight for the
bathroom where this lady is passin so much gas that it could had blown the
place up ..with the right match...lol so meeting is over and i realize
i havent eaten since this am and it was now 830p so i am drivin home
windows rolled down just singin/yellin right along with the radio...havin
a good ol time bc .... I LOST 10 LBS.

Sept 6th-- Well its Labor Day... My 1st baby got towed today to go get
fixed bc it got flooded and could not swim out she tried her best but
became ill real quick... But dont work she should be home tomarrow if
they can fix...which we are really hoppin that she gets fixed...I mean
she was born in 2001 and is paid off... Alrighty now back to me...lol I
ate my last big meal and to tell ya the truth I felt really guilty... Ya
see i really have counted all the carbs and all the protein and then
this evenin oohhhh wow i just let go and i do feel bad almost to the
point of throwin up.... Guilt can really get to you when you have really
tried real hard to do your best... Otay surg is like 2 days and some
hours left and i dont know if i need a new pych eval done but i am not
nervous or nothing. I am ready for it but its not like i can push it any
faster to get here so i just wait. So i guess that is my advice to
everyone is dont lose your mind waitin on ur surg day to get here... come on
the hard part is over ur approve and that is all that matters. I am
quit sure that i will post again before i leave at like ohh say 2 am on
the 9th .... that really stinks that i have to be at the hospital 2 hrs
away at 4 am but i am k with that... its just my SUPERMAN wont sleep i
know him too well So i am going to feel bad that he wont sleep... Can ya
tell that i am a worry wort about everyone but me... well i should
go.... Later MAnda

Sept 7th-- Well i just got the call..... my car is not goin to the
junkyard... It is costin me $186.75 to get her back... which i dont have...
So now what.... I was told it would only cost me $30 dollars... and
thats it... Well i guess i should call then and ask what is up with
that...Well i called and they said the reason for a higher price is bc if
they would had let me drive out of there then my engine would had blown...
so the said if i just pay $170 that i can have my car... So i paid it
and bc there was still water in the engine it smoked all the way home i
was so embarrassed i had people honkin at me to let me know that there
was smoke...i wonder if they knew that i wasnt blind???

Sept 8th-- Wow the 9th has came quick!!!! i started having the "Am i
doing the right thing last night?" I know that is normal, i just hate to
be a burdon... and then i started cryin bc i dot to thinkin about not
makin it, WOW my SUPERMAN was like if you dont quit i wont let ya have
the surg... I shut up real quick... i know that there is no other choice
for me... So i put the tears away and went to sleep... i slept
wonderful Avery woke up at like 1030 am and i know that i slept too long bc my
back hurts really bad... I called the family Doc to get some meds
changed to liquid and the nurse had lots of questions about the surg...she
has followed me all the way through... So I a to get some info bc there
are a lot of people wantin surg now and they dont know where to
start... SO i am goin to help them... I am the first one that my family doc
has sent out for surg and if it hadnot been for me findin my own surg
then it would had never happened... Welp i got things to do so i will post
later on towards the leavin for the hosp....

Sept 9th - SURGERY DAY!!!! here i go wish me luck 

Sept 11th- Well the day came at 4 am was suppose to start at 3 am but
we slept thru the alarm clock... Anyway we got to the hosp at 5:11a and
was escorted to get a IV and a shot in the belly and freeze my tush off
bc the gowns were cold. Anyway then took me to holding where i sat for
about an hr... I was then rolled to surg at 730a got onto the table and
when i woke my moth was really dry but i really didnt start to hurt til
about 4ish so i became close friends with my morphine and got up and
walked ...i did 3 laps and that was enough after that the phone kept
ringing bc friends and family kept callin... i am really sorry if i dont
remember the conversations...IT WAS THE DRUGS....lol So the next day i am
up and walkin by myself at 4 am. At 8 they took me for the swallow test
....Really that is a gross test....Really.... so i pass and i get my
ultrasound of my legs and i am cleared... but still no liquids til Dr
Mann says so so i waited til around 7 or 8 and he came strollin in and
said you can drink..... I LOVED THOSE WORDS... anyway all went well i came
home on the 11th....

Dec 31st 2004-- I HIT THE 100 LB LOSS TODAY

March 13th 2005-- Yikes i cant believe that it has been 6 months since
the WLS ... welp i am down a grand total of ~116 LBS and i am feeling
great i have kinda been on a stall back and forth since Dec. We have
officially moved to NY and its getting better i have made some WLS buddies
online cant seem to find anyone my age here.... but thats k. Avery is
lovin the new place it has stairs and she just thinks she is Queen of
the house.... but she aint ... bc i am that...lol SUPERMAN is still likin
his new unit but he is tired of the snow... And tomarrow we are commin
back to NC for a month bc SUPERMAN has to go to school and so we are
goin with him. I cant wait i am just sooooo excited. The skin is really
buggin me lately bc its foldin under me when i sleep and is causing some
pain. I did get an IUD on the 11th it really wasnt that painful just
felt like a pinch... they said there would be heavy bleeding ...but i am
not normal and i have yet to bleed. I am gonna die though i cant have
sex for a whole 2 wks bc thats the rules for the IUD so I might have a
stroke.... you all know me i am like a horney toad-et...lol I DO HAVE
ONE FLAW... i have been majorly slackin on my gym time as in i go once a
wk so i am going to change that.... i have a goal of losin 80-90 more
lbs by sept ... and that aint gonna happen unless i go to the gym...
...later

HOLYCOW BATMAN!!!!!! ITS OFFICIAL
ITS BEEN A WHOLE YR SINCE WLS!!!!!!

I am actually sitting here and I can’t believe that I ate 4
frozen cheesecakes just to pass the time last wk… or the fact that I ate
at a fast food place and then went out to eat with SUPERMAN… man I am
sooo miserable that I cant stand it. People stare at me or even if they
don’t look I know they are… I keep telling myself that I am a beautiful
gal but that never seems to work… The mirrors tell me the truth and
that is I don’t know who or what I have become. And it really sucks. I
have thought of just leaving but every place is the same… just different
situations… If I could go out and drink and it will make the pain go
away… but I don’t have enough time to drink up the rest of my life. And
Avery deserves better then that… I can’t play with her shoot to change a
diaper is a chore. I hurt all the time. Poor SUPERMAN has to play all
the rolls by himself. I don’t even sleep … I can’t keep a clean house…
and I don’t even get dressed anymore… What’s wrong with me…? I JUST
DON’T CARE BC I AM TO FAT TO LIVE THIS WAY!!!

K I guess I need to sum this up… this was me a yr and a half ago… As
you can see I HATED life and myself… the only thing that kept me even
going was my SUPER GIRL I thought so many times of just running away from
it all but I couldn’t because I would miss her and SUPERMAN so much. I
knew that I couldn’t just drop 200 lbs in one night… so I went for help
the docs told me that they were not going to put me on any diet pills…
my face dropped I sat there and cried … I didn’t even wait to hear the
rest. Avery started to get fussy and I climbed off the table and was
trying to care for her with the staring of the pcm and me huffing… I
stood up with more tears and said why can’t you see that I need help… I
haven’t held my child in 3 months bc I don’t want to lose balance and drop
her again. The doc sat there and said that’s why I do want to help
you... Have you heard of Gastric Bypass…? After that day I knew that I had
to have it... even though I had been researching it for 3 yrs. I walked
into surgery 5 months later. In those 5 months I had learned so much
about me and that I had a stomach disease and that was causing me to gain
wt bc the stomach couldn’t break food down… I weighed in at 348 lbs ..
. Now after 1 yr I have dropped 151 lbs. I can run, I can pick up my
baby and I feel like I belong in the arms of my SUPERMAN again.  My life
has really changed and its all bc of the help and the support that I
get here at OH, and my family and my 2 major supporters… SUPERMAN & Super
Girl. For the last 17 months I finally felt like I belonged to a real
family… not one that judges me or says things to hurt me… But one that
is always there… there is sooo many of you here that have helped me on
my way, there is also a few that really burned me for things, and when I
need a good swift kick in the A--, ur always there.  I will admit that
I don’t know it all about this new way of life … BUT I try my hardest…
and that’s all that we can do.

-But all in all do I think I look great…? HELL YEAH but only with
clothes on… lol
-Do I miss my old life? Nope not at all
-Do I morn the food that I will never get to eat again…? UHHH No bc I
am learning new ways to cook…
-Do I miss the stares from everyone? No, but getting whistled at was a
little odd at first...lol
-Do I miss shopping in the tent areas for clothes? NO
-Am I grateful for all that I have now?? Yes. 
-Am I healthy? To me I am … the charts still say overweight but that’s
k bc I feel great

I guess what I am getting at is this isn’t easy at all… shoot I think
the waiting for the approval was the hardest part. Would I do this all
again…. DUH in a heartbeat. K so I am also wearing a size 10 jean and a
jrs 15 shirt... so that is really a wow

***UPDATE ON PLASTIC SURGERY***

November 21st—K well I need to do some updating…LOL on Oct 26th I had
Plastic Surgery. I had an Extended TT w/ outer thigh and rear lift. Also
I had a breast lift w/ saline implants as well. The surgery itself
lasted 7.5 hours and I had no difficulties… other then being sooo cold that
I was blue when I came to in recovery. I looked like I had been in a
mummy wrapping contest but I didn’t feel a thing…lol I was only in the
hospital for 23 hrs and then I was released. After being home for 2 days
I stopped taking the vicodin that I was prescribed for pain… and was
doing very well. I had 2 JP drains in the pubic area which were a pain
and a half but I delt with them. Beings I had been wrapped with about 3
inches of cotton all the way around I really couldn’t cheat to see what
he had done… on my 1 wk check up they unbandaged me and I got to see
….. All I can say is I was still really swollen but I looked good. By my
2nd wk appt I was walking almost completely strait up. By the third wk
I could fit into my size 12 jeans… still I am very swollen. Before
surgery I was a loose size 10, so he is estimating I will be an 8 or
smaller.

Dec 14th 2005-- These are just my thoughts on PS ...

On Oct 26th of this yr i had PS ... Extended TT, outer thigh lift, rear
lift, breast lift w/ implants and stomach muscle tightening... Since
then most of my swelling has went down... and i am feeling really good.
But i am having some issues... i guess when i went into PS  i thought
that i was gonna be really tight and perky and well i thought that i
would be model sexy... well i was till the swellin started to go down...
Now i am havin issues with my skin once again... now that the swelling is
going down i am finding that i dont have really the really tight
tummy... its actully lose... when i sit down i have a small bulge of skin...
my boobs were great in the beginning and now they hang... the reason is
bc i was heavy for 20 yrs and my skin well its a lost cause... it has
no elasticity... so the gals droop once again... Dont get me wrong i am
greatful for my insurance to pay for the PS but i keep looking at the
mirror thinkin this is not what i had expected... I was talking to my
surgeon and he said you need to realize i just take off skin... thats
only 2% of me makin you look good... the rest is up to you.. but it isnt
up to me... bc my skin wont allow me to make it tight and perky ... so
as you can see i am having issues just like i did when i had WLS... when
i was losing wt Superman kept sayin just wait til youve lost all your
wt then you will have PS and you will be fine.. and beings he always
seems to know the outcomes i finally got it in my head that as soon as i
get PS i will look good.. now that i have had the PS i am back to the
thoughts of not looking good... granted everyday i am getting better at
acepting the new me... and its hard... its just as hard as it was a yr
ago... I just want to let ya all know that even though you think that
havin PS might be the last part of WLS ... It really isnt.. you still
have to except your new body... it may take time or it may not... but then
again you also have to maintain that newly sculpted body so you dont
get a fat roll or people dont look at you and say i cant believe that you
had PS and you have gained a roll or two back... just bc you lost the
wt and you had the PS dosent mean that ur done... it just means that a
new door has opened.

April 18th 2006-- well doc had told me last wk he was gonna try and get
more time in the OR ... well he failed... so the only thing that i am
having done on the 28th is the Inner thighplasty with a T cut
incision... so that aint to bad... he was tryin to get more time in the OR to do
another lift on my breast but the way i c it.... iwoud rather have them
redone when i get the arms and the armpit saggin stuff done... so maybe
in like 3 yrs i will have that done but after the 28th im done for
awhile... i am just tired of livin my life around surgery... its just
gettin old...lol i just have so much more to do... i have missed so much of
my daughters life bc either i couldnt pick her up due to a hernia or
fear of getting one or i was in surgery or i was recuperating...  she
will be 3 in august... and i fell that i have lost the baby yrs ... the
firsts of things... OH and she wants a baby to play with... but some need
to understand i really didnt do all this PS to look good ...yeah it was
a good incentive but i had to get rid of some medical problems... When
i was prego with Avery i had the sores the blisters the rashes and all
that with my skin and now i wont....

September 2006-- WOW someone slap me... i really have been busy.So its
been 2 yrs since WLS. K so i have had all the PS that i want except for
the bat wings and that can wait. Up until last month i was on Percosets
and i had been on them for 11 months. TRUST ME RUN IF ANYONE PUTS YA ON
THEM... I gained 20+ lbs i ate everything in site (If it wasnt nailed
down it went in me... unless if it had sugar that stuff is evil(though i
still dont purposely eat it). ANYWHO i gained up to 213 lbs... my
lowest was 179 lbs... though my 8-10 jeans still fit me .... its the boob
area...lol.  Though Superman is thrilled that i am getting bigg'uns
again. I am now back down to 199 lbs... TRUST ME losin wt after 2 yrs is NOT
easy. Its hard.. But i swear i am gonna get back down there. and maybe
even lower...lol K so i dont do sweets... SF ONLY, no soda pop, I am
just trying to stay how i know my tummy likes it. I know that i dont have
any new pics and i am sorry but right now we are all living at my
sisters til we get our new housing on base, so all our stuff is in storage.
K now things that i have been dealing with other then the wt issue. I
am still hating shopping for clothes i only do it when i have too. I
still look at myself and say OMG ur STILL A COW!!!! i still see skin
everywhere. I am still trying to accecpt that i am not 352 lbs anymore. Even
after 2 yrs you would think that i would have figured all this out...
but i am telling ya this surgery is more mental then anything.... K so
now onto the PS this is what i have had:
Lower Body Lift( TT, Outer Thigh Lift, Mini Butt lift)
Breast Augmentation(Lift and 1 size implants... FF cup to a C cup)
Inner Thigh Lift( with a T incision at the groin)

**All this took about 14 hrs of surgery, It was done in 2 seperate
surgeries. I had everything documented(rashes boils whatever) I also have a
medical condition due to my back. So the insurance company felt that it
was medically needed. The only thing that i had to pay out of pocket
for was the implants.

K so this is me after 2 yrs... am i proud... HECK YEAH!!!!! Do i feel a
lot better OH YEAH.... Shoot for the first time i think i am finally
somewhat pretty... Hows that for 2 yrs out???