Well, tomorrow it will be three weeks since I was sleeved. I am doing pretty good now. I get tired by the end of the day but other than that I feel pretty good. Now I can say when I am eating sometimes I get to feeling pretty icky feeling but it passes fairly quickly. I know I am probably eating too much and that is why it hurts but if I don't keep eating I don't eat much of anything and then I start to feel hungry, (probably head hunger, thinking I just did not eat enough). I am not sure what to do about it. I think I will email my nutritionist. I am also trying to get in more protein. If I stopped when I start to feel bad I wouldn't eat hardly anything. So, any way, My incisions don't hurt. I have been using my peddler at home and then I walked at work yesterday and did the stationary bike and did an upper body workout with a new friend I made at my new job. It felt really good. I totally enjoyed it! I am weighing on Sundays so last Sunday I had lost 19 pounds in 17 days. My husband is under a ton of stress right now and doesn't like me working. I worry about him. He works late and we don't see each other very much. The stress of the new job and the issues with the farm/my husband, hasn't made this transition any easier. I have been tempted to eat and with the Easter candy everywhere, can we say, not easy. But so far, so good. I know this is my new life and I am ready to embrace it, with all of the head issues I know I will face! God will be there for me! God will be my crutch and my strength. I want to turn to Him when I have head hunger. I am very tired tonight so I guess I will go now and go to bed. GN OH.

I had my surgery 2 days ago, on Wednesday. I was suprised at the amount of pain I had and how sleepy I was. I was out a good portion of the day on Wednesday. I learned soon that not only did I have the sleeve done but hiatal hernia repair as well.  I have 6 incision sites ranging in size from 2 inches to 1/2 inch. I have been very sore and I have really struggled with learning to drink with smaller, less frequent swallows. I am very tired. I want to rest but I have forced myself to stay up and just rest a small amount. I have been vigilent with my incentive spirometry and leg exercised to help prevent complications. I don't think it has really hit me yet. I am just going through the motions. I think maybe in a week or two it'll all sink in. I have been drinking my liquids and having one protien shake a day so far. My tummy itches. I think I will go to bed early tonight.

One more day... this time tomorrow we will be arriving at the hospital to get checked in. Wow! I can't believe it's here. I have been going through this for so long or so it seems. I know 6 month really is a short time in the sceme of a life time but the last 6 months have been torturous. Making the decision to have surgery has not been an easy one. Now that is here, I am nervous, sad, scared, excited and worried. I am a worrier by nature so it does not suprise me that I am so worried and nervous. I just want this to go well. I got MRSA with my knee surgery and it has ruined my life. I pray that this surgery will help that. I just don't want to have any complications. I trust my surgeon and the facility. I trust God! Today will be clear liquids only. Tomorrow I will wake up from surgery a changed person... changed forever. I can do this. I want to get thin and feel better! I want to get off all of this blood pressure and  cardiac medicine. I want my knee and my back to feel better! I want to play with my kids again. I want to feel like I am living life again and not just going through the motions. I pray God will help me! I pray God will guide me. I pray the Holy Spirit will rest upon me and give me peace.

Surgery is scheduled for one week from today. I am so very nervous. I am excited and ready, but I wonder what it will be like learning to eat and drink with my new pouch. I want this to work and I want to change my eating habits for life! I don't ever want to get fat again. The past few days I have been working with the family cutting down large trees and working in the garden. I am so sore and out of shape every part of my body hurts. I want so very much to get in shape and be thin. I feel this is an answer to prayer. I know God has opened this door. I am ready to start my life over with a renewed purpose and dedication. Now I nervously wait as the days go bye leading to transformation day!

Went to the Dr. yesterday and I have lost the weight I needed to to be able have my surgery. My 6 months are up and once we have insurance approval. Everything is ready to send off to insurance. I have my pre-surgery diet class next week! My patient advocate nurse said we should hear something in a couple of weeks and then we can move forward with scheduling. She penciled me in on March 29 because I told her my birthday is on the 28th and it would make a GREAT birthday present. I am SOOOOOOOO Excited. It is finally here. I have finally wrapped my mind around it and emotionally dealt with some of my issues. It has been a long road of processing and decision making for me. I have struggled with this decision and emotionally struggled with the idea of having to make all of the changes. It was a real wake-up call when I was first weighed and realized I was 110 pounds overweight and almost morbidly obese. Then came the realization that with my knee, my back, and my congenital heart defect I will never be able to get the weight off without the surgery. The Lord has walked with me through this process.
Yesterday was so liberating and exciting to know that I am here. Dr. Walton said to keep working on losing more weight until the surgery because that will only help so I will. I have finally come to peace with my new diet and lifestyle. I know I can do this. I know there will be times when I will mess up but I also know I do not ever want to feel this way or be this heavy again! I don't want to go back to eating and living like a sloth! 
I know God will be with me through this and continue to help me!!!!
WOO HOOO! I can't wait to hear I'm approved and let's go!