Wow..  a year a 3 months later.. 

Life has changed and stayed that same.. I look different, I feel different.. but.. I'm still the same. I am proud of my accomplishments.  30-40 pounds left and I am after my goal. To think, October of 2009, I was well over 300 pounds. Today, 201.3. My goodness, God is good.  It's amazing. I'm sorry, I'm rambling on but I can't help but think about how far along I have come through God's grace. 


I remembered what I looked like before and look at me now.. Thank You Lord..




Size 14/16! Can you believe it.

I know.. I know..  I haven't posted here in so long and I need to get back into the swing of things.

It's about to be 5 months. It is unbelievable how things change in that amount of time.  People change towards you when they see that you've changed.  The people that hate on your are more obvious now than they've ever been in life. Men that would never had anything to do with you before, are suddenly turning their heads  But.. honestly, that's not even my focus. People are going to talk about you.. People aren't going to like you.. Others are going to love you.  Ok.. so that's just my vent..  Moving right along..

I checked the scale today.  ** drum roll please **  and the number is...  232!  I am overwhelmed by this number and the short amount of time it took to get there.  The day of my surgery, I was 314. That's 82 pounds. Didja hear what I said... 82 pounds in 5 months!!!!  My God!  All things are not going wrong in my life... that is definitely a right.  I bought new jeans the other day. What size do you ask?  Size 20. I don't think I have saw a size 20 anything since college maybe.  My shirts are also now an 18/20. I am just excited by this.

God is good all the time.. and all the time.. God is good! 

I just wanted to check with everyone.  Be Blessed in you life and your wl journey. We are all in this together.

Wow.. I'm a little late, but happy new year everyone!!!  I hope everyone is happy and blessed.

It's been a while since I have been here.  Mainly because even though I should not, I seem to still get discouraged about my weight at times...   It's odd how my weight stalls out for about 3 weeks and then moves.... stalls some more and then move.. but nevertheless.. I AM BLESSED! 

But I am half way to my goal and that's more then something to be excited about.  When I started this process on May 1st, I weighed in at 338. The morning of my surgery, I was 314. As of this morning, 251! 87 pounds since May 1st and a whopping 63 of them are post op!  Again I say.. I am BLESSED.   My BMI is finally under 40.  I was surprised.  I still have a lot of work to do but I am feeling so much better about me and I am actually starting to feel beautiful again. 

I, also have to admit that I haven't been working out quite as much as I should be..   I need to get my @ss in gear.... not to make excuses for myself but it's tough with my schedule.  I work from 9pm to 7am..  Spend an hour in traffic...  Pick Ari & Kayla up from the sitters... Drop Ari off at school..   Make it home at about 8:30 am..  Get Kayla breakfast...  and spend time with her..   Wondering when I sleep? lol So am I!!  It's tough.. but that's the life of being a single parent..  I am certainly open to suggestions about how to get a work out in more. I know that I need to and honestly, it's not laziness... It's lack of time/energy/hours or minutes in the day...  Things will get better...

Anyhow, here's a few updated pics. I'd still like to think I'm doing pretty good.  :) 

This... Was my wake up call..  My weight loss has been at a stall for about 3 weeks or so.. and I was getting discourage...   Until I went out one night... and compared my before and after...  WOW! 

Man oh man.... That's pretty much all I can say about this first month.

Let's start with the good news.
1) I'm alive! 

2) I'm blessed!

3) The day of my surgery, I weighed in at a whopping 314 pounds. As of today, the scale says 278.5. I can't help but be excited about a 35 pound weight loss in a month (even if a good portion of it is water weight, I will take what I can get!)


Now... the bad news... or bad things.. however you wanna look at...

1) Ended up staying in the Hospital one day extra after surgery because of nausea and unable to keep water down.

2) 2 days of dumping... not a good time..

3) Ended up back in the ER.. DEFINITELY not a good time..

4) Still extremely dehydrated...  ( I had soft pretty skin once.. lol)

5) No energy..  all I do is sleep... and go to work..  I feel like my kids are seriously getting neglected.

6) After being post op for 4 weeks.... was still unable to keep food down...

7) Good and Bad....   Found out that I had a stricture (which would explain why I wasn't able to keep food down)  but my surgeon did an endoscopy and corrected the stricture yesterday... so I "should" be able to eat now and get some energy and get hydrated.

Now... my bads list is longer than my goods... but.. I am still alive.. I'm still blessed and I'm still down 35 pounds...  Which means I'm still happy.. 

Moral of the story...  Don't let the bad things get you down... It's a process and no one ever said it would be easy! You are still alive.. and you are still blessed... and you are still however many pounds lighter then what you were the day of your surgery. Be thankful and give God praise for all that he has done and everything that he intends to do for you!