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Did i mention how slow the canadian health care system is... I still have yet to hear back from my pcp.  it has been a week and i still do not have an appointment for a CT scan! It is so frustrating, not only am i left here wondering whats going on with my liver, but my date for my surgery is going to continue to be pushed back! :( which makes me really sad ! All of this problems with my liver, my surgery all of it makes me sad, and angry! I hope someone gets back to me soon about the CT scan it would make me really happy ...

thats all i have for now ...

well i had my PATs done on the 10th ... all went pretty well.

I had my blood work done first the room was very crowded and there was a women there complaining about the surgery and everyone in the room I think wanted to tell her to shut her trap! she kept going on and on and complaining about barix (although she was there for reconstructive surgery) she had a nursing assisstant fired apparently when she was in for surgery a year before... very cranky lady...
anywho so I was giving blood just fine when I got that hot burning feeling in my legs, the feeling you get just before your going to pass right out... so i kept telling the nurse this is how i'm feeling If someone doesn't talk to me and take my mind off of it i'm going to pass out.. thankfully my mom was there are was able to ease me out of it... I was surprised that this happened I was not afraid or bothered by the  test itself.. I guess I could have been the fact that I only had 3 hours of sleep the night before and not being able to eat anything etc etc... lol so after that all was good

I had the ultra sound of my gall bladder and liver ... no gallstones and my liver only has like 2 little thin strips of fat in it so i was relieved with this information because i would not be able to have the surgery open for any reason unless he was having serious complications as i have to return to school as soon as I can.  So as far as the nurse and the on call physician were concerned i should have no problems with havin the surgery done LAP! I am very nervous and excited.  I was interested to learn about how we as gastric bypass patients are to read labels and that some sugar is good sugar and some is bad. so even though it may say 25g of sugar I may be able to eat it still.  

My dad has not said anything about the surgery since that night... which i am jsut going to have to accept this ..i am sure that once he sees my progress etc that he will be more supportive.  My mom is going to come with me on the day of the surgery for sure... Cody (my boyfriend) wanted to come but I told him I would rather he came on thursday, that way my mom could have a break and I would be a little more in tune with things the next day.  so he is coming and staying with me all day then my mom is going to come in the afternoon .. .hopefully with my dad as well.  I have everything organized with school I just hope i will be able to get back soon, as I have so many things to take care of :)

ok so i finally told my dad that I was having surgery and when  it was going to be and such... what a horrible evening! i could not have imagined it going any worse than it did.  i knew i had to tell him... I still live at home and it was his buisness to know. well he completely did not want to hear what i had to say .. and he basically called me a failure at everything i do. and if i could just put my mind to it that diet and excercise would work.  he also incljuded that i was a lazy person and that if i got off my butt and actually did something that i would loose weight.... so after one of the worst emotional roller coster rides of my life .. i basically told him... this is my date i don't need his assistance i only wanted him to support my decision in which his answer was ... do what ever you want blah blah blah.....i have not spoken with him on this issue since then and niether has my mom ( imean she has not spoken with him on this issue) So i have pre op tomorrow thankfully my mom is willing to take me or i would have to go by myself and although i am going to do this with or with out his support it really hurts knowing he wont be there for me... my only hope is that he will change his mind by next week and at least come to be there for me if nothing else.  Other than him everyone else is for the most part suporting me.  My brother jsut says to me its my decision and he will support me in anything i choose to do .. my boyfriend supports my decision, my mom is kind of on the fence with my dad not agreeing with the surgery it is kind of hard for her to support me and go against him .. and she also feels that excercise and diet are the way to go but never being over weight to the extent that i have she cannot and neither can anyone else in my immediate house hold understand what it is like to be this way and to have the daily struggles at this weight!

so off to pre op tomorrow ... i am completely anxious and scared of everyhthing and i can only hope and pray everything will go smoothly..