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Checking In on August 28, 2008 3:52 pm
I did so well all month long until just this past week and a half. I don't know if its just stress from work or what but you would think junk food is going out of fashion. I just can't get a handle on it. I know this is just a short detour off the road. I'll get back on course here soon.
I'm very happy with my results so far at Fast Track in 9 weeks I've lost 36.5 inches. So no big deal the weight isn't coming off I'm still loosing those inches. My clothes fit different and body parts are lifting. Another sign of success for me with Fast Track is I'm up to 10 minutes on the elliptical machine when I first started using it I could only do about a minute and a half. I have also added resistance to my stair climber. All signs of progress in the right direction.
I'm trying so hard not to beat myself up over the last week and remind myself that even "normal" eaters have a bad week or two and then get back on track so I guess I can call myself normal only if my mind could wrap around that fact and stop calling myself names and dishing out guilt.
I am a different person than I was this time last year and I will be a different person next year at this time its all part of the process. Growing mentally and shrinking physically. Some days I'm kind to myself and like what I see and other days I'm meaner to myself than my worst enemy could be and despise what I see.
Food is still my drug of choice. Sad I eat, Mad I eat, Stressed I eat, Happy I eat, Bored I eat. I still need to find something that makes me feel as good as food makes me feel. (at least in the moment). Sad I could journal, Mad I could journal or do some physical activity, Stressed I could journal but I need something for at work when I don't have the time to be able to journal or walk away from my desk and lately praying isn't working. Happy I need to focus the engery on something fun instead of food. Bored get up and do something with my hands that doesn't involve food. Something is too vague I need a plan specifics. Go for a walk, scrapbook, read, clean.
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Checking In on July 28, 2008 6:35 pm
Well had my second measurments taken at fast track I'm down another 5.5 inches and lost 3.5 lbs. I'm am so happy with these results if I was able I would do back hand springs.
The other thing really helping me right now is that I've started to track my food over at dailyplate.com. Now that I can better look at what I'm eating and knowing that I have to log it helps kinda keep things in check. I still have my carb happy days but I also have some really great days too and it feels so good to see the progress.
My unfill did help I do have restriction as long as I'm not eating soft calories. Depending on the food thou some times I can still eat more than a cup at a time but for the most part it is less than a cup.
Now my next task is to tackle my eating out issue. I don't want the food to go to waste and I don't do well with reheated foods so I drink with my meal so I can eat more of the food. It tastes so good and its often hard for me to stop. I would ask that the server not even bring me a drink but they keep pesting you until there is a least a glass of water on the table drives me nuts and then when they bring me a refil without even asking sometimes I'll have a glass and a half of liquid in front of me before we leave. I guess if I limit the number of times we eat out to maybe twice a month it might not be too bad. Or I just need to get over myself and learn to throw food out. Its going to waist or waste one way or another and I really don't want to add inches so I should just let it add pounds to their trash. That's another thing if you don't eat all of your meal they think something is wrong with it and won't leave you alone about it over and over again is everything alright. Why can't they just leave me alone and if I need something or have an issue I'll let you know. Hey maybe I should just be up front about it, I have gotten bolder - I know it would drive hubby crazy but I would get what I needed.
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Unfill on June 23, 2008 5:39 am
Well had my first unfill today. Turns out I was too tight. I had been having a lot of acid reflux and trouble swallowing my pills. So we will see what happens. I just always thought if you were too tight you would have a lot of PB episodes and sliming and I didn't have any of that just the reflux but I have been drinking with meals and eating a lot of soft calories so that doesn't help matters much.
On a good note I've joined Fast Track I go 3X a week and love it. I get measured this friday I can't weight to see how much in inches I've lost. Right now I'm trying so hard not to focus on the number on the scale but the other numbers for motivation. Such as the speed and miles walked on the treadmill. The number of steps on the stepper and then the number of inches lost.
One of the numbers I do need to focus on is the measurements on my food. Get back to weighing and measureing what I'm eating. Keeping track so I can see exactly where I stand right now. Good things I've noticed I use a salad plate instead of a big plate and some nights I can't finish what I put on there. When I go out to dinner where I would have eaten my dinner and then wanted more I have some left and seem to walk away from it.
I am still turning to my favorite comfort foods (ice cream, chocolate and chips) too much but no matter what I've still made progress. I'm happy with my weight loss and no matter how long it takes it will happen in due time just like the decision to have the surgery.
It has been a journey that I'm so happy to have been on and look forward to what the furture holds not only in my weight loss track but just in life in general I'm feeling better about myself and where I am in the world and I have God to thank for that.
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A New Way to Look at Losing Weight on June 14, 2008 12:22 pm
I wish I could take credit for writting this but its Taken from June 2 Fast Track Gazette
I have to keep telling myself that it's not a diet. A diet is something you do for a short period of time in order to get a result that doesn't last, and you end up worse off than before. No, no . . . this is not a diet.
Its a way of life. A life change. Something different. I think we are often too hard on ourselves. I think we get disappointed in ourselves. We get frustrated because after a lot of hard work, the scale doesn't move, or the inches don't come off.
So we go to what we know best. Food. The more guilt, more frustration, more disappoointment.
But I've come to realize something. If this isn't a diet . . . and it's a way of life then it's okay. It's okay to have a bad week on the scale, because its not the end of the world. Next week will come . . .and then the next. If this is about life change, then I must look at this as a marathon and not a sprint.
I didn't get fat overnight. No, I got fat after years and years of neglect and overeating, lack of exercise, being tired and a myriad of other excuses. Therefore I can't expect to lose tis weight over night. And I won't lose it next week and I won't lose it next month.
But I will lose it. Why?? Because I'm not on a DIET!! I'm changing my lifestyle. I know that while I may have a bad week on the scale or even a bad month, next year. I will not be the person I was. I will be healthier. I don't know what that means on the scale, but I don't think it matters either. If this is my way of life, then I will be healthier. I know it.
So if I mess up and have a donut or a piece of cake, or a slice of pizza now and then, its okay. I'm not going to drown myself in guilt, nor am I going to drown myself in food. I'm just going to enjoy life. That might mean eating great for a month then eating not so great for a day or two. But I'm going to enjoy life knowing that I am making decisions that will make me happier, healthier person in the future.
I'm not going to look in the mirror and get disappointed because I don't look how I want to now. It will come. But it will take a while. And you know . . . that's okay. I'm changing. When the changes come and are visible . . thats great, but it's okay if I don't see them yet. I just know that everyday I'm going to make better decisions.
Remember . . THIS IS NOT A DIET!! This is a life change. A new way to life your life. Enjoy it.
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Wrong Direction on May 30, 2008 4:50 am
My scale is going in the wrong direction. I'm just not motivated any more. Back up to 239.2. I need to find those new goals to motivated me again. I don't want to put it all back on. I've gotta lay off the junk foods they taste so darn good I just can't stay away. Its a struggle for sure.
I've just been feeling crumby on the metal level and my way to cope is to turn to food. I still have not found a source to soothe me the way food does. I've also fallen back into old thinking I'll eat this now and work harder later. I know that doesn't work because that is what got me to where I needed surgery in the first place. I'm so aware of what I'm doing yet I don't stop - I really think I'm afraid to loose the rest of the weight. My weight helps hide me from reality. I've gotta find something to focus on, something positive, something that feels as good as food tastes.
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I did it! on May 16, 2008 5:47 am
Weighed in this morning 233.4 back down to my lowest. Sometimes I think attending the support groups and just dumping the excuses lifts off some of the weight. I'm motivated again to get back on track.
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What am I doing? on May 5, 2008 6:39 am
I have fallen far from the tree. I always weigh myself on Mondays to see what damage I've done over the weekend. I'm up to 240 thats 4lbs in two days. I really need to just buckle down and do this thing the right way. I am so eating around my band. Not following the rules. If I'm not careful I'll gain too much back. I know how to do this so why don't I do it - something I need to sit and think about long and hard.
Today is a new day to start fresh. I can do this!
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My Story
Back Story:
My weight gain began right around the same time of the on set of puberty also around that time is when my father past away. However I look back at the photos and I do not believe I had a weight problem but everyone told me I did and kept trying to put me on diets. To make things worse in 9th and 10th grade kids made fun of me for being big – they actually mooed when I would walk down the hallway. Around the age of 15 my mother and I joined nutri system I don’t remember how much I weighed before but after we were done I was down to 135lbs I was also a size 10. People started to ask me if I was sick because I just was too thin. Once I went off eating their pre-packaged food I started to gain weight again. I continued to eat and gain and lose sometimes. I tried different methods of loosing weight my own created diets, which only worked for a short period of time. I tried weight watchers for three months and lost 4lbs. I attempted Atkins and just couldn’t stick to it. I attend Overeaters Anonymous meetings I just couldn’t find myself to commit to it. I tried a supervised diet that restricted all types of flour and sugar – that was the most difficult diet I had ever tried I believe I lasted about 4 months or so and lost 50lbs, it was difficult because I had to eat at certain times and eating out was not an option. I felt very trapped by that diet. I’ve tried a couple different miscellaneous diets since then which only last a short time then I go back to old ways. At one point I even tried hypnosis. I know: If you always do what you've always done, you'll always get what you've always got. So here I am trying what I hope will be the final change to make things right.
Letter to my fat January 2007:
Dear Fat,
You have been such a comfort to me over the years, but now that I have begun to heal myself I realize you have over stayed your welcome. I do know that I invited you and leaned on you to comfort and protect me. I found out that our relationship is not healthy and it must come to an end. You take more from me than you give, you cause me to be heavy which caused my joints pain. You cause me to think bad thoughts about myself and make me some times want to hurt myself. It is because of you that I feel people judge me regarding my size before getting to know me. I think it is you that makes me eat more sometimes – because I’m already fat so what does it matter if I keep eating. Because of you I have to pay more for clothes – big clothes cost more. I have trouble with chairs that have arms, movie theater seats and airplane seats. Did you know your killing me – you put strain on my heart and body. I’m more likely to get certain diseases because of our relationship. You are so connected to me I know leaving won’t be easy for you or me. But it has to happen you have to go! There is no choice in the matter. I don’t like to look at you so I avoid photos and sometimes mirrors – you blur my thinking. I should hate you with all my soul, but how can I hate something that is indeed part of me. I don’t hate you – you’re just not healthy for me. When you leave I will not miss you I can promise that! Basically I feel like you’re a force of evil in my life both physically and mentally. I want to be freed from you. It is time for change you need to find a new place to live because my body is no longer for rent. I am reclaiming me away from you.
Letter to my fat August 2007:
Dear Fat,
I can’t believe I’m about to say this but I’m starting to miss you, however I do not want you to return. I miss you in the way you miss that guy that first broke your heart. You never really get over him but you know it’s over and not healthy to dwell on. I used to be able to blame you for anything that went wrong in my life – its ok – I’m fat. Well I’ve now lost about 50lbs of you; I’m starting to feel like I can no longer blame being fat for my problems. Now I know I’m still considered fat and I still have a lot more of you to kick to the curb before I’ll even consider myself thin. However I have found that I can no longer hide behind you. My mind is changing along with my body. I never realized how much I blamed on being fat. Someone didn’t like me, I didn’t get the job, someone looked at me funny, someone got mad at me – it wasn’t me it was because I was fat. Well I have found out that is not true at all – it is me and that is really hard to deal with. I have to learn to accept that I can not please everyone and everything will not go my way all the time and that has nothing to do with weight and you know what its OK because it is part of my learning process. So not only have I had to relearn how to eat but I also have to relearn how to respond to things. The fat me turned to food for everything. The not as fat me still turns to food but not as much and as time goes by I will turn to food less and less, until I have found new ways to cope with emotions and stress. Now that my identity is no longer the fat chick I’m not really sure who I am or just how I fit into the world. I’m on a rediscovery journey. I have really great days and I have really bad days – I found out that this makes me normal. How do you know who you are when you feel like your identity has been taken away? I feel naked without my fat exposed to the world – just me no excuses. That’s so scary. On the days when I really miss you I remind myself that you are not healthy for me. That our breakup is going to be the best thing I’ve ever done in my life. Getting rid of you is getting me physically healthy and dealing with what you stood for in my life will help get me mentally healthy. So now that some of your bags are backed and have moved out I need to figure out who I am without you and get the rest of your stuff out.
My Time Line:
2007
Jan 18 – Attended Informational Seminar
Jan 31 – Consult with Dr. Curry’s Office
Feb 12 – Pysch Eval
Feb 14 – Paperwork submitted to insurance company
Mar 1 – I’m Approved!!
Mar 8 – Nutrition Class
Mar 20 – Pre Admission Testing
Mar 30 – Surgery Date
Apr 5 - Surgery Follow Up
Apr 26 - First Fill - 1.5cc
May 24 - Second Fill - 0.5cc
Jun 7 - Third Fill - 0.5cc
Jul 11 - Fourth Fill - 0.2cc
Sep 5 - Fifth Fill - 0.2cc
Oct 3 - Sixth fill - 0.2cc
Nov 7 - seventh fill - 0.3cc
2008
Mar 1 - eighth fill - 0.4cc
Mar 30 - 1 year anniversary
Apr 28 - ninth fill - 0.1cc
Jun 23 - first unfill - 0.2cc
Dec 2006 - 310
Jan 2007 - 304.8
Feb 2007 - 297.5
Mar 2007 - 283.4 - Surgery
Apr 2007 - 270.8
May 2007 - 273.0
Jun 2007 - 263.0
Jul 2007 - 257.8
Aug 2007 - 254.6
Sep 2007 - 250.6
Oct 2007 - 246.2
Nov 2007 - 244.2
Dec 2007 - 246.2
Jan 2008 - 240.6
Feb 2008 - 238.6
Mar 2008 - 234.8
Apr 2008 - 236.4
May 2008 - 239.2
Jun 2008 - 237.8
Jul 2008 - 234.0
Aug 2008 - 235.4
Sep 2008 - 236.4
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Fast Track Results in Inches
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6/7/08
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6/27/08
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7/28/08
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8/18/08
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Weight Loss (lbs)
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+1
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-3.5
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+1
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Upper Back
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40.5
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40
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40
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39
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Upper Arm
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15
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13.25
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13
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13
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Waist
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40
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38.5
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38.5
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29
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Abdomen
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55
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53
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52
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48.5
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Hips
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54
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52.5
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52
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51.75
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Upper Thigh
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31
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29.25
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29
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30
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Lower Thigh
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26.5
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23
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22
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23
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Calf
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17
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17.25
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16.75
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16
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Total Lost
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-19
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-5.5
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-11.75
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