Letter to my Fat on January 31, 2007 7:09 pm
Dear Fat,
You have been such a comfort to me over the years, but now that I have begun to heal myself I realize you have over stayed your welcome. I do know that I invited you and leaned on you to comfort and protect me. I found out that our relationship is not healthy and it must come to an end. You take more from me than you give, you cause me to be heavy which caused my joints pain. You cause me to think bad thoughts about myself and make me some times want to hurt myself. It is because of you that I feel people judge me regarding my size before getting to know me. I think it is you that makes me eat more sometimes – because I’m already fat so what does it matter if I keep eating. Because of you I have to pay more for clothes – big clothes cost more. I have trouble with chairs that have arms, movie theater seats and airplane seats. Did you know your killing me – you put strain on my heart and body. I’m more likely to get certain diseases because of our relationship. You are so connected to me I know leaving won’t be easy for you or me. But it has to happen you have to go! There is no choice in the matter. I don’t like to look at you so I avoid photos and sometimes mirrors – you blur my thinking. I should hate you with all my soul, but how can I hate something that is indeed part of me. I don’t hate you – you’re just not healthy for me. When you leave I will not miss you I can promise that! Basically I feel like you’re a force of evil in my life both physically and mentally. I want to be freed from you. It is time for change you need to find a new place to live because my body is no longer for rent. I am reclaiming me away from you.
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Consult Complete on January 31, 2007 10:51 am
I believe the planets have alined in my favor. My consult was a breeze - sounds like my insurance is one of the better ones when it comes to WLS. I have my pysch eval Feb 12 - after that the paperwork will be submitted to the insurance company - I was told I could possibly have a surgery date as early as March - I was expecting a long drawn out battle that would take months but Tracy at Dr. C office seems to think this won't take much time at all.
I guess I'm really lucky my insurance company changed Jan 1 from Humana to UHC. Tracy said that Humana requires a 6month supervised diet. Looks like the change in insurance came at just the right time.
After my meeting today - I'm so excited I just can't stop smileing. Have I really found the solution to my weight problems? I know you have to use it as a tool and do my fair share of the work exercise and eat proper nutrition. I really do see a light at the end of the tunnel and the start of a new healthy life - I can't belive it.
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first appt on January 24, 2007 10:53 am
I made my first appt today to start the process Jan 31. I'm excited and nervous all at the same time. This is me taking the first step over the bridge - I can't wait to reach the other side - I know this will not be a short journey but aleast it has a start.
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I've Started on January 22, 2007 9:05 pm
My husband and a co-worker have been at me to look into this so I'm starting. On Jan 18 I went to a seminar on Lap-Band - It looks like this might just be for me. Today I called my insurance company to find out about coverage. They will cover it! :) Now to find a doctor and submit the paperwork for approval. I'm thinking about contacting Dr. Trace Curry it looks like he will be covered under my insurance. Everyone here that I have seen seems to have good to great things to say about him - so I guess the next step is to call tomorrow to make the first appt.
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