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Well had my first unfill today. Turns out I was too tight. I had been having a lot of acid reflux and trouble swallowing my pills. So we will see what happens. I just always thought if you were too tight you would have a lot of PB episodes and sliming and I didn't have any of that just the reflux but I have been drinking with meals and eating a lot of soft calories so that doesn't help matters much.

On a good note I've joined Fast Track I go 3X a week and love it. I get measured this friday I can't weight to see how much in inches I've lost. Right now I'm trying so hard not to focus on the number on the scale but the other numbers for motivation. Such as the speed and miles walked on the treadmill. The number of steps on the stepper and then the number of inches lost.

One of the numbers I do need to focus on is the measurements on my food. Get back to weighing and measureing what I'm eating. Keeping track so I can see exactly where I stand right now. Good things I've noticed I use a salad plate instead of a big plate and some nights I can't finish what I put on there. When I go out to dinner where I would have eaten my dinner and then wanted more I have some left and seem to walk away from it.

I am still turning to my favorite comfort foods (ice cream, chocolate and chips) too much but no matter what I've still made progress. I'm happy with my weight loss and no matter how long it takes it will happen in due time just like the decision to have the surgery.

It has been a journey that I'm so happy to have been on and look forward to what the furture holds not only in my weight loss track but just in life in general I'm feeling better about myself and where I am in the world and I have God to thank for that.

I wish I could take credit for writting this but its Taken from June 2 Fast Track Gazette

I have to keep telling myself that it's not a diet. A diet is something you do for a short period of time in order to get a result that doesn't last, and you end up worse off than before. No, no . . . this is not a diet.

Its a way of life. A life change. Something different. I think we are often too hard on ourselves. I think we get disappointed in ourselves. We get frustrated because after a lot of hard work, the scale doesn't move, or the inches don't come off.

So we go to what we know best. Food. The more guilt, more frustration, more disappoointment.

But I've come to realize something. If this isn't a diet . . . and it's a way of life then it's okay. It's okay to have a bad week on the scale, because its not the end of the world. Next week will come . . .and then the next. If this is about life change, then I must look at this as a marathon and not a sprint.

I didn't get fat overnight. No, I got fat after years and years of neglect and overeating, lack of exercise, being tired and a myriad of other excuses. Therefore I can't expect to lose tis weight over night. And I won't lose it next week and I won't lose it next month.

But I will lose it. Why?? Because I'm not on a DIET!! I'm changing my lifestyle. I know that while I may have a bad week on the scale or even a bad month, next year. I will not be the person I was. I will be healthier. I don't know what that means on the scale, but I don't think it matters either. If this is my way of life, then I will be healthier. I know it.

So if I mess up and have a donut or a piece of cake, or a slice of pizza now and then, its okay. I'm not going to drown myself in guilt, nor am I going to drown myself in food. I'm just going to enjoy life. That might mean eating great for a month then eating not so great for a day or two. But I'm going to enjoy life knowing that I am making decisions that will make me happier, healthier person in the future.

I'm not going to look in the mirror and get disappointed because I don't look how I want to now. It will come. But it will take a while. And you know . . . that's okay. I'm changing. When the changes come and are visible . . thats great, but it's okay if I don't see them yet. I just know that everyday I'm going to make better decisions.

Remember . . THIS IS NOT A DIET!! This is a life change. A new way to life your life. Enjoy it.