ObesityHelp

So I've been exercising about 3 times a week for about 1 1/2 hours at a time.  But I still cant control my eating.  I'm just not eating the right foods.  My current weight is 247.  I'm not happy about the gain but I'm also not going to let that scale get above 250.  I just need to find some new healthy foods because I'm not preparing foods ahead of time I think that is part of the problem because so many convenious foods are junk.  I'm also eating out of boredom and loneliness.  I feel alone even when I have people around.  My soul just feels empty and I'm tyring to fill it up with food.  I really need to be careful that I don't cause my band to slip with all the food I have been eating.  I'm also drinking with food so I can eat more.  So dumb!  Food is my drug, food is my comfort.  I'm working again on getting my head around it re-reading a book I bought before surgery   Life is Hard, Food is Easy.  It is helping so far but I haven't gotten that far into it.  I just wish I lived closer to Fast~Track that way I could work out more.  I want to get some type of machine for home but I just don't want to spend the money.  I do my weights and ball and then Walking off the pounds.  I'm getting bored. I am so happy that we spring the clocks forward this weekend then it will be light out when I get home from work and I can take a walk around the neiborhood.

I just really to need to buckle down and focus again on my health and well being.  I don't want to get really big again.  I'm happy with my weight loss and I know it can take some time.   I just need to get rid of the bad habits with food.  I can do this! I am worth this!  Find my skills and motivation and get back on the band wagon.