Well well well hello I I wanna thank you guys again for your guys wishes I have only been peaking on the boards but its amazing that amount of well wishes and support that I get from everyone it really makes me feel good. I guess ill go into detail about my last few days because I am sure there will be a time in the future where these memories will fade away whether I would like them too or not.

SO BASICALLY SKIP AHEAD CAUSE THIS IS ALL BLABBLE for my own recollection later on in life

Thursday ( my surgery) I had to be in the hospital at 10:15 I got there and forgot my CPAP which I haven't been using because I got it like the week before surgery and its a ridiculous annoyanc and I hate it not to mention that I think it had to do with me getting 4 FOUR consecutive cold sores so whatever I didnt need that shit. BUT i got there and the took me to the room where they prep you for the pre testing I guess I have to be completely honest and tell you I was totally calm there was only one moment my eyes burned all the way up until the put me out but I had complete confidence and I just felt positive and that everything was going to be alright. So they made me put socks on and the awesome depressing robe and hooked me all up etc and I forgot to take my bra off so the nurse had to come unhook me so I could do that it was kinda funny. My surgeon came into talk to me and at that time my mom two sisters and friend katie were all waiting with me and he was surprised but probably annoyed too with everyone there but oh well be he was greeat and then the nurse came in who was stubborn and cold and kept asking me trick questions that I was calling her out on and she smirked...like what did you have for breakfast?? and i was like HAHA youuure a funny girl and shes like arnt i...but ya the anesthesiologist  had a great sense of humor and even played cursive for me as they were preparing me for surgery in the OR not much after that lights were out.

 I remember waking up in really bad horrible nauseating pain and kept whimpering which im guessing i was a nut bag cause of all the shit that was pumped with...but I kept mumbling how i was gonna puke and the one nurse told me there was nothing in me to puke and it was just nerves and to calm down and I was like BITCH IM GONNA and so they got me a try and I puked up blood and then i just kind of dosed off...they called my mom apparently around 3 30 to tell them i was out of OR and that I should be up to my room around 4:30 but I didn't get to my room until around 6 because do to stuff they gave me my sugars went crazy and they had to give me insulin to get it done..i thought it was weird because i never have had problems with sugar before but apparently its not that abnormal and I guess my asthma was acting up a lot during  surgery and that concerned them...sooo basically i got rolled up to my room and i remember thinking how i couldnt wait to see people but i just kinda wanted to lay there and be alone cause i was just all sorts but everyone poored in my room and i was so happy i had a private room because according to my mom they werent strict at me at all about having people there and there but basically all my friends brett nicole katie my two sisters stayed there till like 11 i was so sad to se my mom laying on the floor sleeping but the nurses brought her in a recliner and i kept saying thank you...i went for a walk that night and peed and it smelt funny and i was told that i was a little less then nice to some people but i think it was the drugs the next day was better then the one before but i continued to go pee and walk and pee and walk and they said i was doin great and towards the afternoon i was getting up fine by myself and then sat was fine too and i went home that morning because everything was coming back great and i felt okay and the ride home sucked it was 3 hours and i just slept and got through the bumps ok and then i just slept and would get up to pee and walked and walked and had some jello and sipped water.

NOW this is gonna be the short version for the last couple of days sense I have been home...

So I guess I am one of the lucky ones so far? KNOCK ON WOOD not that I am expecting that more pain wont pop up or anything I know anything can happy but as far as sense I have been home I have been feeling alright besides just being whipped out tired. Ive been getting around walking etc getting most of my liquids in through popsicles and water and ive been doing my soup and the protein shakes I have a had a hard time kind of chugging down not because I cant just because my taste have changed a little and I dont like it to much...I did have tomato soup and that was great...waking up in the morning and night time is the worst part as far as uncomfortable and pain goes...I actually went to walmart with my mom today to get out of the house...I begged her but I felt good enough to do it...after about an hour and a half I just got so exhausted like I swore I just played a 90 minute soccer game so I just came home and relaxed and sipped water on my couch...my mom ended up buying a scale which I am gonna leave here when I go back to Rochester for school...but curiosity killed the cat and I have lost 14 pounds sense surgery...I heard this is good and bad? Everyones jaws kind of dropped but I told them if they eat only sugar free pops and water for 3 days they are gonna lose weight too you know? I think I covered most of this? My surgery also got done Lap too which made my ecstatic and now they are itchy little bastards but what are you gonna do...I was gonna go back for my follow up apt on thursday but I told my mom to make it for Mon so hopefully I will be on the next food stage by then ha idk what stage it is but i have been craving craving craving ricotta cheese red sause and mozz cheese i cant wait till i get it! haha If anyone has any questions feel free to shoot! i am pretty much an open book when it comes to this surgery I wanna help whoever I can!

AManda