hey all I know its been forever since I post anything but after weightloss surgery life really gets going its gets to a full run I am relaxing right now I just cleaned the house and did some crafts and enjoyed time w the kids even I am now 140 lbs size 7-8 jeans med shirts I love clothes I love dressing up I love life thank you everyone for all your support Thank you for being my friwends if you need me if anyone needs me just email me I will respond ohsosoweetjessa@gmail.com

 So now that I am a 100 lbs down today I have to look at my next goal to make it to to wonderland blows my mind I am 37 lbs away from that goal . This hasn't been easy for all of those who think this is the easy way out no really it isn't it take emotional control it takes self control it takes patience it takes pain and it takes love for your self , If you are ready to work on you then by all means get going on this journey if you are not looking to make your self happy and healthy figure out why before you start there is no going back they cant reverse my operation but I am fine w that at this point ...Congrats to all of you for caring about your self enough to research that's the first step next is leaping because this is not a lil jump this is the biggest change to your body ..It took time to get fat and the tool takes all your yrs of self hate and makes you focus on you plain and simple this is about you and don't let anyone get you off your high horse make your goals and love it!

Well I wont bore you with the whole surgery story it happened it wasn't a lot of fun as you all know it isn't going to be if you have questions I will answer them all ...What I am excited about it its 5 days since surgery and I am down to 313 that's 5 lbs in 5 days even after surgery weight gain I am blown away there is a few things I am learning like listen to what your told DO NOT eat and drink at same time this includes JELLO do not drink before you eat Jello and wait till after you eat at least a half and hr before you drink again serious the pain really isn't worth it drink drink drink yes the feeling you don't know is full ...its a diffrent full then we r used to its a full like omg I ate 2 or 3 plates at the all you can eat and now I feel it in my throat and chest but all you did was drink liquids and you feel this way ..I know this will get better but for the first time in my life I am EXCITED for cream of wheat's yes EXCITED that full feeling but last for longer i am thinking it will last longer but take less then liquid to be full ...Ill let you know its in a couple days YAY ....wish these days would pass faster so I can start working out on my bow flex and really work on this hidden body under all this we will call it protection I am protecting the hidden body from any damage till I'm ready to use it lol ....write me ill answer any questions 

 I am sitting here realizing that in 2 days I start a very strict diet for the rest of my life I am new going to enjoy these foods and I am finding myself eating my fav foods I jumped on the scale to be acurate on this web site of my progress and was stunned to see in like 2 days I have gained 2 pounds I didint think I was really over doing it but as I sat hear eating a turkey hungrey mjan thinking oh yeah turkey potatoes and cranberrys what more could I ask for and looked down at the pound of food and knew it was too much ...I am removing most of my stomack Im almost 2 weeks till surgery date and I need to wake up and change real quick or im going to mess this up like everything else plz make me strong plz make me get off my ass and work out on the bow flex that I havent touched in 2 months whats wrong w me why dont I do what I know has to be done to live . I know my life is counting on me to change but aparently I must hate myself anyone have a clue why I am doing this why am I eating when right now I need to lose to get to my goals ?