Yes, I have a confession to make. It brings tears to my eyes to fully realize that I let myself sink to that level. Why would I allow this to happen? How did it happen? When did it even start?

As I look back, it started innocently enough, as most things do. Most of us give into temptation of some form, from time to time. I really did it big!  My love, my temptation, my knight in shining armor was my biggest enemy if truth be known. How said it is to realize this after so much damage has been done.  I let my infatuation rule my life and now I'm trying to undo the damage this affair has done.

What enticed me to this point? What was so luring I couldn't refuse? Hostess, anything Hostess. My love for cupcakes, Twinkies, Snow Balls, and all other sweets became my love. Always there when I needed comfort, it made me feel secure during lonely times. When I was stressed, you would find me with my love in one form or another. 

Now, I have begun a new healthier life and left those things behind that led to my obesity and health problems. I look at those items now as poison. They robbed me of so much. I allowed myself to use these foods just like drugs. I Angela, (raising right hand) am a food junky.

I am determined to have better health. To be more energetic, feel better, look better. That is the biggest gift I can give myself and my journey has already begun. I had lap RNY just 3 1/2 weeks ago and have lost a total (including pre-op) of 33 pounds. For me, that is great! I am very happy with my progress and so happy that I had the courage to have this surgery.

I will be having my gallbladder removed on March 8th. I had a gallbladder attack this week and spent several hours in the ER. I'm lucky it wasn't infected, but it needs to come out. Fortunately, it can be scheduled instead of done as emergency surgery. Hopefully, after this I'll be feeling much better.

Life is good. I feel encouraged, motivated, and thankful. I feel very blessed to have been given this tool of WLS. I know there are people that are unable to get surgery and that makes me really sad. So I will use my tool to the best of my ability and be appreciative of this gift.

I hope life is treating you good too.