Just venting

Dec 21, 2014

I know my emotions are supposed to be up and down. Happily, I can say that I have been feeling pretty well these last few days. Hubby has been fairly supportive, and so has my family. I have been saying that I wanted to go to the dollar tree to get a little walk in and pick up a few things - not a long trip, just to get out of the house. Hubby was ok with that. Today, when I mentioned it again, he said he didn't want to be going to the store everyday and that I should have told him what I needed yesterday. Well, yesterday, I did tell him that I wanted to go to the dollar tree. He was ok with that yesterday, but today he was like " what do you need there??" I wanted to get a gift for his dad and look for popsicle makers. Also, Today I needed more Lactaid milk - why does this stuff go bad so quickly??? Anyhow, he got slightly upset, and said that he couldn't wait until I can do stuff for myself. It has only been 5 days since surgery and I am still in pain. Running out of pain meds and all anyone can say is take tylenol. Tylenol doesn't help me. I have tried it many times for different types of pain with no luck. Pain gives me panic attacks. I was hoping that my hubby would be understanding a little bit more. I told him I will get in the car and go get what I need myself. In fact, I am going to ask my mom to come down - I want to get out of the house and check out the Christmas-y lights and stores. I wanted to do that with my husband, but he is not willing to do so. I am trying to understand his point of view, but I only see selfishness. I do most of the things around the house the majority of the time so I kind of expect a bit of help for maybe 2 weeks. He was supposed to take care of the cats - feed them (nope, I've been doing that) and clean the litter box (yes, he has done that). However, I'll call someone else who won't mind so much to take me to the store.  - Just feeling like I'm "in the way."

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