I am obviously insulin resistant.  The scale was barely  moving.  After posting about it, and getting some great advice, I went to the doctor and got some metformin.  The SCALE IS MOVING!!!!!!!

It has been a tough 6 weeks...in the fact that I was feeling like the numbers would never get going again.  I am smaller, but still not moved in sizes.  Clothes are bagging a bit, and some that were too big for me to begin with are now not wearable.  I am hoping that within the next month or so I will need to go shopping for new clothes.

Exersize is still a challenge for me.  I don't know why I just can't fricken do it.  Ray thinks I am doing it everyday...so I need to get consistant, and do it everyday...even if it is just half an hour....EVERYDAY!

I am truely hopeful that I have found the reason for the slow weightloss.  Now, with the medication, and cosistant exersize...Things should speed up.

I have got to stop with the negative thinking.  I just keep thinking that I am the one that this is not going to work for, and that is rediculous.  Of course it doesn't help that I stepped on the scale and was up a pound and a half...back to 203 today.  I am not changing my ticker to reflect this only because Thursday is my official weigh in day.  
I am commited to upping my protein, and water this week as well as making sure that everyday I am doing some form of exersize.  I have the GD treadmill in the living room and there it sits!!!!!  Get on the fricken thing ANITA!!!  Okay, okay!!!  I say I will, but will I really?  Hmmm....How badly do I want to lose this weight anyhow?
I am stalled, well, up, but stalled!  I knew it was going to happen, but I was so hoping to be under 200 when I did.  Suck it up...You know it never comes easy for you.  Stop fricken eating every half an hour, up your protein, up your water, walk...and watch the magic happen.  It will...but it isn't magic.  It takes work...so work it!  Quit feeling sorry for yourself, be determined...you know you can do anything if you put your mind to it. 

I am getting a bit worried about the amount of food that I can eat.  I am only 16 days out and I can eat a whole fruit cup.  I thought I was only supposed to be able to eat about 1/4 cup...that is not the case for me.  I can see that this is going to take work, and dilligence.  I was so hoping I was going to be one of those people that didn't experience hunger...but I do.  I feel like I am always thinking about food.  I just really want to put it out of my mind.  I want to eat because I have to...not because I am obsessed with getting the feeling of food in my mouth.
I am now questioning whether I have had the right surgery for me.  I suppose if needed I could carry on with the DS, but I really would rather not deal with malabsorption issues.  Frick...I feel disappointed, in myself, in my surgery.  I know I need to give it more time.  I need to realize this is not going to be a walk in the park...I will have to work at it.