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Wow, it has been a long time since I updated.  Bill ended our relationship in November...so Christmas was difficult this year...I got drunk to get through it...but I did get through it.  I am currently in the midst of leaving the home we shared.  We moved into a beautiful new 5br bi-level..but a house is just a house...it isn't a home.  So, I am moving out on my own, with my new client next Sunday.  We are moving into a 2br main floor of a house...it isn't the greatest place, but I will make it nice with my decorating skills...the rent is affordable...until I get through with this bankruptcy it will have to surfice!
Hmm...well...going to see Dr Joya again in April...how cool is that!!!  One of my new guy friends...kinda boyfriend... is having the surgery and asked me to go with him...I am soooo there!!!  Almost a 3 year anniversary reunion...That just rocks!
My social life is pretty busy these days...the above mentioned man, is amazing...wonderful, kind, funny, hard worker...caring, considerate...and genuine...I care very much for him...He is however, just in the beginning stages of breaking off a relationship...so we have agreed to keep things cool until his ex can accept things as they are, (they work together,)....so me...well...I have been doing a lot of dating...usually really nice men...only met one real weird guy...there is something to be said about listening to your gut...I didn't with this one guy...and he talked to my boobs the whole conversation..and it was a quick one...couldn't wait to get out of that coffee shop, lol!  I have seen a couple of men, a couple of times, but it is the above mentioned man that I am developing feelings for...Funny, when we first met, I knew we would become fast friends, but I honestly never imagined I would feel "that" way about him...He is a big man...but I don't even see that now...I see his soul...not his shell...something I had wished people would have seen me for..I still wish for that, but unfortunately, it seems...people are much more attracted to the shell...and some never get past that...it is sad the way the human animal works!  He has tho...I am sure of it...which does kind of put a screw into my one year alone plan...but then I really wonder if God has that in his plan for me..He surely wouldn't hand these men to me for no reason...I simply hope that this reason is not for the soul purpose of getting him through, and educating him on, living with a sleeve.
My son Kyle had his sleeve done here...I am not very impressed with the doctor that did it....He used a 50 bougie..and I swear, size does so matter...Kyle is really struggling...I never have!!!  I mean I struggled to get the weight off...but I have had no issues in the form of regain or even wanting much in the way of cravings, or food issues...I really do honestly feel like I am living a "normal" persons life now...
Life is so different for me now...sure, I have struggles...still have some emotional crap that I have to deal with...but it is so much easier to see life in a positive way..and negativity is a rarity with me now...I am always looking for the lesson in every situation that I experience..this in turn, builds a stronger, more positive me...I am a happy person today...and happiness is not something to achieve, it is something to live...it is counting your blessings everyday...and I do...every day!!!