My story - well, like most, I have been overweight for as long as I can remember (before 5 yrs of age).  I have tried most every diet out there and no luck.  I entertained WLS a 2 yrs ago, but I was not at a place where I thought it was right for me....denial.  So here I am 26 lbs heavier.  

Recently I got very paranoid that my weight was going to kill me.  I was afraid that now that I had the family I was once told I could never have I was going to die and someone else was goign to get my joy of loving them.  I want them to have a healthy, active mommy and I want them to have the best childhood memories - water parks, hikes, sporting events, festivals, etc. It scared the bejeebies out of me when it hit me that my weight could kill me.  I had a hard time sleeping.  That was it!  I am going to do something about it.  So I called MMPC and got into their orientation that following weekend.  

I was going for the Lap Band, but after hearing about the sleeve, I thought that was a better choice for my needs.  I had good appointments with the internist and Dr Baker.  They both agreed that the sleeve would be a good choice.  The behaviorist appointment was a little weird - speed therapy - but he said as long as my therapist didn't have any objections I had his approval too.  All I had to do was the sleep study!  Piece of cake.....boy was I wrong.  It wasn't so much fun at the time, but now that I look back, it could have been worse.

Then there was the you have a date!! OOPS, no you don't.  My insurance didn't need pre-authorization, but the billing area wanted one.  Then they said they didn't need one.  But  I still waiting almost until they got the written statement that it would be covered.

Surgery time!  I wore my halo for those 11 days on the pre-op diet.  I lost 13 lbs.  I wasn't nervous or worried about the surgery.  I didn't not expect to wake up in that much discomfort.  Nausea - not pain.  I never had any pain - other than when my pants rubbed on my incision sights.  The nausea was enough for me to go "Oh, God...What did I do??"  It was bad enough to keep me in the hospital another day but it left fairly quickly.

Eating and drinking - now that I am 10 weeks out - have been a work in progress.   I have some issues with speed and that probably contributes to most of the discomfort.  I do not have any desire to eat.  Morning things seem to be a bit more - not painful - but a little discomfort.  Like swallowing something sideways....KWIM?  But it isn't bad, unless I eat too much.  Foamies! Ugggh!  And Urps.  The only way I can get rid of them is to vomit. 

I am a slow loser.  If you read my blog - I try to do well.  I am not sneaking this or that.   Yes I had a weak moment once and had a tiny baby Twix.  I didn't eat more than one and I didn't gain all my weight back.  That was part of the appeal of this surgery is that I could have a guilted pleasure once in a while without messing everything up.  It was also good to know if I was going to dump ahead of time.  I am not a sweets person, so it wouldn't have botheredme if I had, but at least this way I can have a bite of my kids birthday cakes and be OK.

I am unemotional about my sleeve and surgery.  Don't know why.  Maybe it isn't important enough to focus on.  Maybe I just haven't hit that stage since I am losing slower.  Regardless - I do not have any remorse.  I would do it again!