AnnieWI
September 1, 2006
Aug 31, 2006
Friday, Sept 1, 2006
I went for my second urinalysis today... keeping my fingers crossed that the yeast infection is gone. Waiting from a call from the surgeon's office. While I was there at the hospital, I decided to weigh myself again on their scale. I am down 3 lbs... can't believe it! That's in a week that I'm down that. That's very good for my liver and the surgery. I guess it pays to continue to omit the starchy carbs. YYYaaaayyyyy me!
I've decided I'm gonna miss mint choc chip ice cream the most. Darn that stuff is good! Hubby went to Cold Stone recently and got some that also had fudge and fudge brownies in it and of course I had a little.... I'll never tire of that stuff. But..... GOOD BYE MINT MINT DBL CHOC BROWNIE ICE CREAM!! You aren't gonna help me lose weight, get healthy and have kids.
I went for my second urinalysis today... keeping my fingers crossed that the yeast infection is gone. Waiting from a call from the surgeon's office. While I was there at the hospital, I decided to weigh myself again on their scale. I am down 3 lbs... can't believe it! That's in a week that I'm down that. That's very good for my liver and the surgery. I guess it pays to continue to omit the starchy carbs. YYYaaaayyyyy me!
I've decided I'm gonna miss mint choc chip ice cream the most. Darn that stuff is good! Hubby went to Cold Stone recently and got some that also had fudge and fudge brownies in it and of course I had a little.... I'll never tire of that stuff. But..... GOOD BYE MINT MINT DBL CHOC BROWNIE ICE CREAM!! You aren't gonna help me lose weight, get healthy and have kids.
GOOD NEWS!!! I got my results back and I test negative for the yeast infection.... I'm GOOD TO GO for the surgery! WHAAAAHHOOOOO!!!!
I also received my order of Unjury today, I ordered the six pack of each flavor.. so I'm all set with that too. Since I know I already like the Unjury Choc and Vanilla, I may just order tubs of that soon. I'm gonna try the non-flavored and strawberry this next week.
I also ordered sample packs of protein powder and bars from BariatricEating.com and that should come soon too. I love getting things in the mail. :)
August 29, 2006
Aug 28, 2006
August 29, 2006
Ok - this morning I am feeling the anxiety and nervousness building up.... WHERE DOES THIS COME FROM? One day, like yesterday, I am fine... then bam.. I have an odd night sleeping and/or wake up feeling anxious.
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, but to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference.
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, but to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference.
Say a little prayer....... Do a little dance..... Say a little prayer..... Do a little dance.......
Ok -- I'm just trying to alleviate my anxiety in a blog sort of way. It's possibly working? Or not. But it's not making it worse at least. LOL!
My surgery day is in 13 days, 15 hours and 45 min.......... I can handle this. It's gonna be a GOOD thing that I've been waiting for, for SOOOOO LONG. I did all my research... I did all my pre-op necessities and testing.... I'm following the rules.... all will and be ok.
EVENING:
I just realized that two weeks from tonight I will have had the surgery and be in the hospital for my first night. I've never had surgery (major) before -- I've never spent the night in the hospital before.... I'm nervous.
I ate a snickers tonight... my last snickers. I'm happy about that really. Too many of those have made me the way I am today. It was the last one in the house.. didnt' know it was there... thought they were all gone but then found it in the freezer door. It sat there for two days before I ate it. Sigh. But it's gone now and I don't have to worry anymore.
Today I ate a vanilla chai protein smoothie for breakfast, 3 hot dogs with ketchup (no bread) for lunch, hamburger casserole for dinner and then the snickers. I did awesome until the candy bar.
I meet with my therapist on Thursday -- need to work with her on this head hunger stuff again. It's imperative and detrimental to my weight loss.
Ok - this morning I am feeling the anxiety and nervousness building up.... WHERE DOES THIS COME FROM? One day, like yesterday, I am fine... then bam.. I have an odd night sleeping and/or wake up feeling anxious.
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, but to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference.
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, but to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference.
Say a little prayer....... Do a little dance..... Say a little prayer..... Do a little dance.......
Ok -- I'm just trying to alleviate my anxiety in a blog sort of way. It's possibly working? Or not. But it's not making it worse at least. LOL!
My surgery day is in 13 days, 15 hours and 45 min.......... I can handle this. It's gonna be a GOOD thing that I've been waiting for, for SOOOOO LONG. I did all my research... I did all my pre-op necessities and testing.... I'm following the rules.... all will and be ok.
EVENING:
I just realized that two weeks from tonight I will have had the surgery and be in the hospital for my first night. I've never had surgery (major) before -- I've never spent the night in the hospital before.... I'm nervous.
I ate a snickers tonight... my last snickers. I'm happy about that really. Too many of those have made me the way I am today. It was the last one in the house.. didnt' know it was there... thought they were all gone but then found it in the freezer door. It sat there for two days before I ate it. Sigh. But it's gone now and I don't have to worry anymore.
Today I ate a vanilla chai protein smoothie for breakfast, 3 hot dogs with ketchup (no bread) for lunch, hamburger casserole for dinner and then the snickers. I did awesome until the candy bar.
I meet with my therapist on Thursday -- need to work with her on this head hunger stuff again. It's imperative and detrimental to my weight loss.
August 27, 2006
Aug 26, 2006
August 27, 2006
I learned I have a yeast infection, put on meds for it. Two pills, 3 days apart. I then will be retested this Friday to make sure it's gone. I hope and pray to God that it's gone and taken care of. I don't want the surgery to be post-poned. I've been waiting so long for this.
I've also been feeling more nervous now that the surgery is getting closer. I need to chill a bit and not think about some of the stuff and just prepare myself for the months after. I need to keep busy with my hobbies and stuff.
Today was a perfect example of what boredom can do to you with regards to food, anxiety and a bit of bitchiness.
I learned I have a yeast infection, put on meds for it. Two pills, 3 days apart. I then will be retested this Friday to make sure it's gone. I hope and pray to God that it's gone and taken care of. I don't want the surgery to be post-poned. I've been waiting so long for this.
I've also been feeling more nervous now that the surgery is getting closer. I need to chill a bit and not think about some of the stuff and just prepare myself for the months after. I need to keep busy with my hobbies and stuff.
Today was a perfect example of what boredom can do to you with regards to food, anxiety and a bit of bitchiness.
August 25, 2006
Aug 24, 2006
August 25, 2006
Yesterday I had my pre-op testing. I'm glad it's over with but oh so glad I had to have it done.
Blood Work
Urinary Test
Chest Xrays with and without the Barium (yuck)
Ultrasound
Pulmonary Testing - breathing/lung tests
Nutirtion/Dietician - reviewed the obvious for before and after surgery
Exercise Trainer - reviewed the obvious, introduced stretches & exercises
Program Director - reviewed what will happen day of the surgery and after
It was a long day since I had to be there at 7am until almost 5pm with a little break mid-day.
I then weighed myself and was happy to learn I didnt' gain weight since the last time (months ago) that I weighed myself. Whew! Thank heavens. I'm gonna get lighter yet too, hoping to lose 10lbs before surgery. Please God help me with the Head hunger!!
Then last night I went to my first local support group. There were only three of us there... plus my spouse and another's spouse. It was small, short and sweet. I'm hoping the next one I go to will have more people. It was the last one of the month so most everyone had already been to one earlier. There are around 6 or 7 times that are available to all patients. One thing that was odd to me is that you have to pay for them.... $10 each.
I'm anxious for the surgery to be done and over with still. I am supposed to have the lap RNY and am afraid that I'll have to have open in the end. I was assured that it's likely there will be no issues or problems in having the lap, but I'm allowing my anxiety to get the best of me I suppose.
Yesterday I had my pre-op testing. I'm glad it's over with but oh so glad I had to have it done.
Blood Work
Urinary Test
Chest Xrays with and without the Barium (yuck)
Ultrasound
Pulmonary Testing - breathing/lung tests
Nutirtion/Dietician - reviewed the obvious for before and after surgery
Exercise Trainer - reviewed the obvious, introduced stretches & exercises
Program Director - reviewed what will happen day of the surgery and after
It was a long day since I had to be there at 7am until almost 5pm with a little break mid-day.
I then weighed myself and was happy to learn I didnt' gain weight since the last time (months ago) that I weighed myself. Whew! Thank heavens. I'm gonna get lighter yet too, hoping to lose 10lbs before surgery. Please God help me with the Head hunger!!
Then last night I went to my first local support group. There were only three of us there... plus my spouse and another's spouse. It was small, short and sweet. I'm hoping the next one I go to will have more people. It was the last one of the month so most everyone had already been to one earlier. There are around 6 or 7 times that are available to all patients. One thing that was odd to me is that you have to pay for them.... $10 each.
I'm anxious for the surgery to be done and over with still. I am supposed to have the lap RNY and am afraid that I'll have to have open in the end. I was assured that it's likely there will be no issues or problems in having the lap, but I'm allowing my anxiety to get the best of me I suppose.
August 23, 2006
Aug 22, 2006
August 23, 2006
I go in tomorrow for all day testing and meetings with the hospital and surgeon's staff. I'm excited, I'll learn more on their procedures and what more they expect of me. I have a list of q's written down and am anxious to get past all the testing.
I'm soooo ready to have this surgery - I'm still scared but feeling more optimistic and strong. Pleaseeeeee let this continue! I had a good weekend, spent time with my Mom and my in-laws. Some of the things that my Mother in law said about some of her preperations for testing and surgery (when she had breast cancer) made me feel better. She said that she was calm and everything went fine. I'm sort of taking that and internalizing it for myself.
I'm doing pretty good on the pre-op diet too. I still crave sugar but am doing better. I really want to continue losing weight before the surgery. I have 19 days to lose, keeping my fingers crossed.
I go in tomorrow for all day testing and meetings with the hospital and surgeon's staff. I'm excited, I'll learn more on their procedures and what more they expect of me. I have a list of q's written down and am anxious to get past all the testing.
I'm soooo ready to have this surgery - I'm still scared but feeling more optimistic and strong. Pleaseeeeee let this continue! I had a good weekend, spent time with my Mom and my in-laws. Some of the things that my Mother in law said about some of her preperations for testing and surgery (when she had breast cancer) made me feel better. She said that she was calm and everything went fine. I'm sort of taking that and internalizing it for myself.
I'm doing pretty good on the pre-op diet too. I still crave sugar but am doing better. I really want to continue losing weight before the surgery. I have 19 days to lose, keeping my fingers crossed.
August 18, 2006
Aug 17, 2006
August 18, 2006
I've come to the conclusion that I don't want to eat the crap I've been eating for so long, it's not worth it and not helping me.
The last few days I've had the "Last Supper Syndrome" so to speak.. eating Japanese one night, German the next then Mexican last night. I feel ill just thinking about it. I stayed true (mostly) to my pre-op diet but am still feeling like I busted out. I'm going to visit family this weekend.. it will be hard to stay on track but I'm determined to. I want to ensure I get to have the Lap surgery and not have them suddenly have to do open because I didnt' lose anything during this month prior to the surgery. I've been waiting for this surgery for so long, I'm not going to mess it up.
I've been telling people that I finally got a date and even told some people that I am surprised at telling. I was planning on just keeping it to a minimum of close friends and a few family members. I'm happy that I told the people that I did though. Feels like some sort of release and helps with the anxiety of it all.
I've come to the conclusion that I don't want to eat the crap I've been eating for so long, it's not worth it and not helping me.
The last few days I've had the "Last Supper Syndrome" so to speak.. eating Japanese one night, German the next then Mexican last night. I feel ill just thinking about it. I stayed true (mostly) to my pre-op diet but am still feeling like I busted out. I'm going to visit family this weekend.. it will be hard to stay on track but I'm determined to. I want to ensure I get to have the Lap surgery and not have them suddenly have to do open because I didnt' lose anything during this month prior to the surgery. I've been waiting for this surgery for so long, I'm not going to mess it up.
I've been telling people that I finally got a date and even told some people that I am surprised at telling. I was planning on just keeping it to a minimum of close friends and a few family members. I'm happy that I told the people that I did though. Feels like some sort of release and helps with the anxiety of it all.
August 17, 2006
Aug 16, 2006
August 17, 2006
I received my appt schedule in the mail today. It's for all the appts I'll need to go to prior to my surgery. I have a full day of testing and meetings a week from today then a few here and there before the 12th of Sept.
I feel a bit depressed today - kind of down that I need this surgery in the first place. Don't get me wrong - I'm VERY happy to be having it done and will get it done -- just feeling a little down. My goal between now and the surgery date is to lose some weight, keep busy and follow the plan from my doctors on diet, exercise, etc...
I'll be happy when it's done and I have a few months of post - op under my belt.
I received my appt schedule in the mail today. It's for all the appts I'll need to go to prior to my surgery. I have a full day of testing and meetings a week from today then a few here and there before the 12th of Sept.
I feel a bit depressed today - kind of down that I need this surgery in the first place. Don't get me wrong - I'm VERY happy to be having it done and will get it done -- just feeling a little down. My goal between now and the surgery date is to lose some weight, keep busy and follow the plan from my doctors on diet, exercise, etc...
I'll be happy when it's done and I have a few months of post - op under my belt.
August 15, 2006
Aug 14, 2006
August 15, 2006
I received my surgery date today!! OMG!! Whaahoooooooo!! It' s the 12th of September!! I'm so excited -- but SOOO scared too! After waiting for so long, it's finally here and a reality. I need to go through all my research again and get prepared. May GOD help me through this all with grace and ease.
My husband is supportive, as is my Mom and both will be there the day of the surgery which I'm thankful for. I only told a few people that I'll be having surgery, so now I get to tell them the date. As of right now, I'm not telling many about the surgery as I'm not sure how to deal with the criticsm and such. Yes it will be there with a few people. But right now I get to concentrate on me and this major surgery and the life I'm about to lead after with and with out food.
I received my surgery date today!! OMG!! Whaahoooooooo!! It' s the 12th of September!! I'm so excited -- but SOOO scared too! After waiting for so long, it's finally here and a reality. I need to go through all my research again and get prepared. May GOD help me through this all with grace and ease.
My husband is supportive, as is my Mom and both will be there the day of the surgery which I'm thankful for. I only told a few people that I'll be having surgery, so now I get to tell them the date. As of right now, I'm not telling many about the surgery as I'm not sure how to deal with the criticsm and such. Yes it will be there with a few people. But right now I get to concentrate on me and this major surgery and the life I'm about to lead after with and with out food.
August 14, 2006
Aug 13, 2006
August 14, 2006
WOOOHOOO! I finally got the letter I was waiting for from one of my insurances. One has automatic approval and the other denied me, but that's OK. I only needed approval from one of them. The GREAT news is I get a surgery date this week! I'm really excited! Ok.. and truthfully nervous too. This will be a major life change. I'm mostly nervous about the surgery itself. It will be my first major surgery.
WOOOHOOO! I finally got the letter I was waiting for from one of my insurances. One has automatic approval and the other denied me, but that's OK. I only needed approval from one of them. The GREAT news is I get a surgery date this week! I'm really excited! Ok.. and truthfully nervous too. This will be a major life change. I'm mostly nervous about the surgery itself. It will be my first major surgery.
