OK, SO HERE I AM ON DAY ONE OF FULL LIQUID ONLY DIET BEFORE SURGERY AND I AM DOING OK FOR NOW. I HAVE TO DRINK 4-5 SHAKES A DAY.  MY FRIEND SO GRACIOUSLY POINTED OUT TO ME THAT IT IS LEAP YEAR SO I HAVE 3 EXTRA DAYS FOR THIS DIET TO SHRINK THE LIVER. ON ONE HAND, I AM MAD AND FRUSTRATED BUT ON THE OTHER, I REALIZE THAT IT IS A LITTLE EXTRA TIME TO GET MY LIVER SHRUNKEN DOWN AS FAR AS IT CAN BEFORE MY SURGERY ON THE SIXTH. WE ASKED THE RN IF THERE WILL BE A SCRIPT FOR PAIN MEDS BUT WILL NOT GET THAT UNTIL AFTER SURGERY BECAUSE THEY DON'T KNOW WHAT I WILL TOLERATE AND WOULD HATE FOR US TO SPEND THE MONEY ON SOMETHING THAT WON'T WORK FOR ME, SO THAT MAKES SENSE TO ME. MY HUSBAND IS STILL SUPPORTIVE IN HIS OWN WAY, YET A COUPLE OF WEEKS AGO, HE ASKED ME TO MAKE HIM A COUPLE OF GRILLED CHEESE SANDWICHES. I REALLY WANTED TO MAKE ME ONE TOO BUT I DIDN'T GIVE IN TO MY STOMACH AND HEAD. MAYBE IT WAS THAT I WAS HEAD HUNGRY, I DON'T KNOW.  AFTER I HANDED HIM THE SANDWICHES I TOLD HIM THAT THEY WERE THE LAST HE WAS GETTING FOR A VERY LONG TIME.  HE THEN APOLOGISED TO ME AND SAID THAT HE WASN'T EVEN THINKING AND SAID THAT HE FELT REALLY BAD FOR ASKING ME. THE ONLY REASON HE EVEN ASKED ME IS BECAUSE HE SAYS THAT I MAKE THE BEST BETWEEN THE TWO OF US.  I FORGAVE HIM CUZ I LOVE HIM. THE NUT ASKED ME HOW MY FIRST TWO WEEKS WENT AND I SAID IT WAS A LITTLE DIFFICULT. SHE ASKED WHY AND I SAID HIM. HE TOLD HER WHAT HAPPENED AND I THINK SHE FORGAVE HIM TOO. WELL, YESTERDAY I WAS HANDED A 3 RING BINDER FILLED WITH ALL SORTS OF INFORMATION FOR  ME TO KEEP.  I AM SO HAPPY TO HAVE THAT. NOW, AFTER I SAW KATHERINE, MY NUT, WE WENT TO SEE MEGAN, THE RN AND AS A LITTLE VICTORY, SHE SAID THAT WAS I NOT ONLY THE YOUNGEST, PATIENT THEY HAVE RIGHT NOW, BUT ALSO THE HEALTHIEST!! YAY!!! WAS VERY HAPPY TO HEAR THAT.  I'M ONLY ON 7 OR 8 MEDS AND HOPEFULLY WILL NOT BE ON SOME OF THEM BY THE TIME SURGERY IS OVER AND I GET TO GO HOME. I AM SO LOOKING FORWARD TO THIS SURGERY THAT I AM GETTING SO EXCITED ABOUT IT. I AM GOING TO DO OR AT LEAST TRY TO DO EVERYTHING IN MY POWER TO DO EVERYTHING RIGHT FOR ME TO BE HEALTHY. I HAVE NO PLAN FOR BIRTH CONTROL YET BUT WILL DISCUSS IT WITH MY HUSBAND TONIGHT SO THAT WE HAVE A PLAN OF ACTION. WELL, SO FOR NOW, I AM PRETTY HAPPY WITH WHAT IS HAPPENING AND WILL BLOG MORE LATER ONCE I HAVE GONE THROUGH WTIH THE SURGERY.

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I am Autumn Jensen-Baldwin and I currently weigh 349lbs. My highest was 395. Got married when I weighed 353lbs. before adding all the weight. Was diagnosed in 2008 with type 2 diabetes, diagnosed with severe sleep apnea back in 2004 have had poor circulation since I can't remember. tried all the diets and exercise and my weight just won't come off. the surgery for me is the las resort. I want to be healthy and be around for my husband and if it is up to god then my kids or one child. I have a great support system. I have actually looked into this before getting married in 2003 and was told by my step mom that she would be more than willing to take care of me, however, my husband thinks it is his job alone to do that, but now sees that we will need my mom's help.  My mom is flying up from where she lives to help out for a couple of weeks.  My parents don''t want to bury me and I don't want them to bury me either. I am only 32 years old. I have read in here somewhere that getting the surgery will help keep you full and I agree with that. I am not doing this for vanity purposes. I want to be healthy, not super skinny and this will help me get a new life change going. I've already implemented drinking tons of water and eating in a healthy way. I have never really liked to munch on sweets. My down fall is pasta, and salty snacks, and of course portion control.  I snack on vegies mostly but will make my own popcorn every now and then with some salt. I found it is healthier to do that then get microwave popcorn with lots of butter.  Well, this is me for now. I have my surgery scheduled for March 6th. I'll blog more after my surgery with how I am feeling and so forth.