Just over 2 months out and I am down to 255...today showed 253 *eek* I'm so close to 250 I can taste it!!! My pouch is still going strong with as the pouch of steel. I haven't had any problems, yet and am okay with that. My only thing that I am trying to do is slow down when I eat. I don't have any problems and I measure out my food so I don't overeat, but I can just eat fast. I kind of wish I would have that "you over did it" feeling so I would learn. One day at a time I guess. I took my 2 month pictures and saw a difference from my heaviest and now, so I figured I would post them on here. Pretty proud of myself, although I would like to finally say goodbye to those damn size 22 jeans that I can seem to STILL fit into. I am wearing 18s and 20s comfortably, but I would just like to say hasta la vista to those freakin 22s!!!!! Feeling blessed with my gift and noticing the energy spike and activity levels go up.

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Wow, I can't believe it. Its already been a month!! I know people say it either drags or flies by and my first 4 weeks have FLOWN.My surgery went well. No complications so far. Just the ridiculous gas pains and some throbbing in my shoulders from the position they had them during the procedure. I stayed in the hospital for 1 night and ended up sleeping in the chair for most of it bc it was more comfortable. As soon as they had me up and walking I was off. I guess not many people walk as far or for as long as I did bc the nursing staff was baffled as I lapped the nursing station. The next morning after a shower I walked up to the next floor while the nurse pushed my wheelchair beside me=) Go Me! Ice cold water went down really easily so I was able to get an entire bottle down before I was discharged. Once home Mom took over Jackson duties officially. I had some AMAZING friends take care of him while mom bounced back and forth between the hospital. Flash forward a couple days and I was walking laps up and down the street with my belly band on. My followup with Dr Cronk went amazingly well. He said from the looks of things he would of never guess I would of had surgery a week earlier if he hadn't seen my scares and known better. Woot! THEN...I lost 14lbs in my first week...DOUBLE WOOT!! The pure liquid diet killed me. I just wanted to chew something!! As soon as I could eat some runny grits I was all over it. 

Flash forward today and I am 4 weeks out. Everyone says that they can see a difference in me, but I am still not seeing it. Been told its normal. Took my one month pictures and measurements tonight. I can actually see the difference between the two sets of pictures. Also, I have lost a total of 9 inches (probably plus some because we could track where mom measured my waist at).

My big trouble is making sure I am eating the proper amount of food when I eat. I haven't really gotten any sort of overfull feeling, so I feel like I'm eating too much. Pulled out the scale and am trying my best. One day at a time...right? Trying to also get back into going to the gym. Jackson has been sleeping in lately and it makes it getting to classes in the AM difficult.

Well I guess that kind of sort of catches my story up!

12 hours!! That's it...12 hours and I will be checking into Same Day Surgery!!! Tomorrow starts the first day or the rest of my life. (So epic sounding!) I am SO excited and terrified and calm...at the same time. I am very confident in the procedure. I have thought about writing letters to my husband and son, just in case, but that gets me thinking negatively and turns me into an emotion mess. I really wanted to, but I don't think I could handle the migraine I would give myself from crying through the entire process. I am puting my faith in God and know that he will watch over me and my loves tomorrow. Its because of Him that I am getting this opportunity to better my (our) future! See you all on the Loser's Bench!!!!!

Its really hitting me that I will be having surgery in a month! *wow* We just came home from Idaho and a birthday weekend with friends and family. While there I was able to talk to a couple really good friends about my wls and felt very comfortable doing so. The sad thing about the weekend is that a couple of my SUPER close friends, the ones that I wouldn't of thought twice about not seeing them didn't show up to any of our plans. Not gonna lie I was a little crushed. These are the girls that I was having a tough time telling about my news in the first place and now I won't see them until I will be 6 months post-op! This is what leads me into the disbelief. I am looking at friends blogs and pictures and their time frames for weight lost and clothing sizes. I can't believe that That can be me! I know that my family will notice a difference in my appearance around Christmas (2 months out), but not seeing anybody at home until 6 months is going to be crazy. Are they going to notice me? It just blows my mind!!! While we were gone we learned that the month we gained with DH's deployment being bumped, we are losing the time together because they are sending him to a school for the entire month. He isn't going to be here for my surgery=( I knew he was going to try to go to a training and miss the morning of my surgery, but he was going to be in town and would be there when I woke up. Now...he isn't going to be in the same state as me!. I'm hoping that he will be able to leave and meet me at the hospital the night of my surgery, but there is no reason to get my hopes up with the army. Thank God for my mom coming to help me out with DS!! Okay, now I am rambling! Just know that I am SUPER excited!!!!

Random note: I am able to talk about my current weight easier now. I think that I am accepting that I will not be 300lbs forever!!! It was nice hearing from my "little" brother that he only put me at 240 max...in my dreams AND near future=)