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My story begins like most prior to having weigh loss surgery.  As I was in the process of going through approval for surgery my mother passed away suddenly and my life became a complete surreal existance for many months.  Prior to my mother passing I knew she supported me in my decision to have wls but was trying her best to leave the decision up to me without becoming her "nagging" self...boy do I ever miss that now.  I did move foward with my decision to have wls despite having a growing fear of going "under the knife" and not being there for my dad.  I had to take on the role of full-time Caregiver for my dad, who is the one that had heath issues for years.  In addition, I was working full-time and trying to maintain a semi-active social life outside of my daily responsibilites.  On June 8, 2010 I did have my surgery and it was a total success with no complications to date.  To say my first year was an easy one is far from true.  I struggled on a daily basis to do what I needed to do for myself and to be there for others as was expected of me.  My dad's heath worsened and we were spending more time at the hospital and nursing home.  It came to the point in which we had to make the decision for Hospice services for dad and the worst happened just 1 year and 5 days after my mother passed, my dad passed.  Not to mention it was the day after my birthday.  What a way to remeber it...waiting for the expected to happen.  I am know one year post-op and am down 113 pounds.  I am also at a very stressful time in my life in which I am unemployed, depressed and still grieving.  I never thought I would be at such a low but I tend to be a social worker first and but everyone's own needs in front of my own and finally it has caught up with myself.  I am trying to take control of my own life back and in becoming back on track with my wl journey but I need help!  That is way I am coming to OH :)

If you are on Facebook, I do have my ongoing wl journey page @ BariatricButterfly Lydia that helps me to share my story with others, gain inside, provide support and motivation to others and to share in others wl journaies as well.