It is so good to be home.  I got home yesterday afternoon and went straight to the foreclosure auction and we got the house we wanted!  I wish I was the one to live in it.  We are helping my son and daughter-in-law buy the house.  We got  a really good price for it.  It is really nice.

I don't know if my dad is doing better or not.  I found out that they were giving him his antidepressant that helps him sleep at 8:00 in the morning.  I have gotten that all worked out.  Wednesday he woke up and was so animated and talked up a storm.  Of course he had no idea who we were.  He would get flashes of who we were for maybe a minute.  He some how thought my mother had died and he would cry and say, "What are we going to do without mama."  My sister would point at my mom and say "here she is dad, mom is not dead."  That just seemed to upset him even more.  In the morning he told the nurses assistant that his wife had recently died.  He asked me about the furneral and if they got all of the flowere he had sent and if it was a nice funeral.  Then he would be gone and on to something else.  He thought I was his girlfriend, then his new wife.  He was flirting with me, it took me some time to realize this.  He thought my mom was my girlfriend named Mary Jo.  I don't know any one named Mary Jo.  The nurse kicked us out at 9:30.  It was sad but it was funny too.  My mom was trying so hard not to laugh at him.  He shocked me at times. I had to remember he did not know what he was doing or talking about.  I was glad that I got to see him laugh though.  I don't think I have ever seen him laugh so much at one time in my  life.  He is a retired Southern Baptist Preacher and was always so serious.

I almost forgot I lost 3 lbs while I was in Las Vegas.

This has been a rough few days.  My dad is totally out of it.  He mostly sleeps, and doesn't know who we are anymore.  On the Nurse Practitioner's advice we have called in hospice.  He is diagnosed with end stage dementia/Alzheimer's.  His eyes look empty.  When I first got here he would recognize us at times for a few minutes at a time now he doesn't and he only open his eyes for a few seconds at a time. They have said he will be gone within 6 months but I feel it will be sooner.  Normally I would be eating everything in sight but I have stuck to my eating plan very well.  Of course I feel full all the time and because of nerves my tummy hurts all the time. I feel like someone has kicked me in the stomach.  I have held up really well.  I hate to leave my dad but I am so ready to go home.  My flight leaves tomorrow around 12:30.  Thanks for listening!

This morning the number on my scale was 200.  That means I've lost 30 lbs!  I was so happy!  Tomorrow I am flying to Las Vegas for a few days.  My father is not doing well.  He is in the hospital and after that they will put him in a convalescent hospital or something.  His dementia has gotten so bad my sister can not take care of him any more. It will be a hard few days.  I am going to go to the grocery store as soon as I get settle to buy the foods I need to eat.  I am still going to do my walking while I am there. 

I can't wait to be in onederland again!

I have lived to see one month out! lol  This month has really seem to drag on and on!  I am feeling so much better and I have lost 28 lbs as of today.  My goal was 30 lbs for the first month but I am very happy to have reached 28.  I have an appointment with the surgeon on Monday.  Tonight we are going to a Mexican Resturant.  I am going to have refried beans.  I am getting sick of them but that is about all I can have to eat out yet.  Last Friday we went to Denny's and I had scrambled eggs.  They were so dry I ended up throwing them back up.  Well that is about it for now.

I am feeling better today.  I started to get very depressed.  I have changed the way I eat.  I eat something every 2 hours, and am eating more protein.  I have always been a person who needs protein.  I just felt so weak.  I think at about 3 weeks everything catches us and your body is very confused.  Today I feel like I have the twinkle back in my eye.  I walked 1 mile today, it was really nice out and I enjoy it.  I will probably try another mile latter this evening.  I am so grateful that I found this website.  Everyone has been so supportive.  When I am struggling with depression the only people who know is my family.  I trusted others and posted it on the CA forum and that took a lot for me to do.  I can tell you I was not disappointed.  Thank you to everyone!