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Well it has been a long time since I was here.  Its been over 3 years since I had the DS and to date Ive lost a total of 309lbs.  Ive lost 30lbs since Feb this year.  My weight has been pretty stable.  Im sitting at 225lbs. I was considering having the DS again but my boyfriend is highly against it. He doesnt understand that Im still not happy with myself.  I had a tummy tuck in August of 2010, they removed 12lbs of skin ... I feel better but they made my belly button look like a half butt *sigh* its okay I am planning on more cosmetic surgery this next year.  I met a really great guy on the internet. We will be together 2 years Nov 21st.  Im happy with him and hes working on getting his visa so he can stay here fulltime, he is from Aussie (Im in California) so hes only able to live here 6 months out of the year without the visa and its been fine that way but we are both ready for him to be here fulltime.  Its late right now so Im going to go to bed but will log on tomorrow and upload photos and update a bit more.  I have been missing the great people that helped me for so long on this site

4 months out and my labs are all normal ... except for my thyroid.  We are working on adjusting my medications and this is to be expected with weightloss or gain. 

I have changed a lot ... my outter appearance.  I never have had short hair and now I do, it is wonderful and I love it. 

I went out to eat lunch yesterday and I really honestly have not eaten out in a restaruant for  6yrs or so because I never could fit in the booths and it just made me really stressed out to have to think I had to go some where and not know if I could fit or not ... well yesterday we went out and as soon as we got in the the place I saw booths and paniced ... yep I did.  My friend Kerri was like its okay ... guess the look of terror landed across my face haha anyways I quickly calmed myself and said why not try it and low and behold I fit with room to spare! I cannot even remember the last time I fit in a damn booth!  I also wear my seatbelt daily now ... every vehicle I have gotten in to the belts fit (well except for my friends back seat!) so that is a plus as well.  I pretty much can eat whatever I want without problems but I notice lately that I have been having WAY too much fast food ... that was my down fall ... not over eating but eating out, so I am freaking out a bit about that.  I am dowm 93lbs since March 19th 2008 ... I have not really lost any weight in 3 weeks and that worries me ... I just need to quit with the burgers ... I dont even eat the damn fries!!! its the BURGERSSSSSSSSSSSSSS lol.  So I am good health wise and feel great.

My mom has breast cancer and has just finished chemo ... boy did she get really sick with one of the chemo treatments .. it looked as if someone took scalding hot water and poured it down her arms ... they were red and raw ... it was horrible.  She ended up in the hospital for 4 nights with low blood cell counts ... like 1. somethings ... very very bad!!!  Her arms and hands are pretty much healed up ... her finger nails are black and nasty looking and she has no hair.  My poor momma ... I look at her and think how beautiful she was and I see how the cancer and chemo has taken its toll on her ... its very sad.  She is still bald as can be but her spirits are good.  She goes in July 30th for a double mastectomy (I probably spelt that wrong) and the original plan was to do reconstructive surgery at the same time, now however, she is going to be doing radiation so the doctos want her to wait a year for reconstructive surgery and it is freaking mom out.  She says my stepdad is going to trade her in ... they have been married damn near 25yrs ... there is noway he would do that and I think she is talking crazy but Im not in her shoes and I cant say I wouldnt feel the same way.  I am however excited that this is almost over for her.  I do not fear her surgery but I fear the mental state it may put her in afterwards.  That is a huge thing to have your breast removed.  My mother has always been very big breasted (as in an i cup) so its huge.

Hell I have rambled enough for one day.  I was on here and seen I hadnt updated for awhile so figured Id ramble a bit.  You can keep checking back I am going to try to keep my shit updated.

4/3/2008

Well Im just 2 weeks out from surgery and couldnt feel better.  I have lost 19lbs thus far  and have no bad side effects so far! (knock on wood).  I feel very blessed to have been able to have this surgery, after waiting for about 5 years.  I really thought it would be harder then it is but I am glad its not.  I started driving again yesterday and boy oh boy was that fun!  I love to get out of the house and I missed my truck dearly.  I can pretty much eat whatever I want.  I tend to stay away from carbs and sugar.  Well this is it for now but I will update with progress reports and such as time goes by,