Beth A.
I'm Worn
Jan 29, 2013
Hello old friends...it's been forever since I've written anything on here, for many reasons, not the least of which is that I have put on so much of my weight and for so long have simply felt like a failure. I know I'm not, but that old negative self-talk just seems to creep in when you least expect it and I heard it for so long that it's easy to fall back into that line of thinking. I know many of you understand---unfortunately.
Well, the good news is this: I AM DOING SOMETHING ABOUT IT. I don't have a weight loss goal in mind...it's nothing like that. I've just come to realize that my life has so much excess....and apparently, others feel the same way. Jen Hatmaker has written a wonderful book titled "7: An Experimental Mutiny Against Excess". Google it...it's so insanely smart and simple at the same time. Month one deals with--what else--food. The author chose seven foods to eat for thirty days, only seven, eliminating all others. I have challenged myself to do the same. Today begins the challenge for me, and I will be eating only chicken, cheese, apples, bananas, green beans, rice, and whole wheat bread. I will commit to this, and to journaling my ups and downs here. If you're a praying person, please pray that God will work through me and in me during this time as I surrender to Him, and that I will LISTEN.
I heard a song last week on the radio...these are the lyrics...it's by Tenth Avenue North, and called "Worn".
I’m Tired I’m worn
My heart is heavy
From the work it takes
To keep on breathing
I’ve made mistakes
I’ve let my hope fail
My soul feels crushed
By the weight of this world
And I know that you can give me rest
So I cry out with all that I have left
Let me see redemption win
Let me know the struggle ends
That you can mend a heart
That’s frail and torn
I wanna know a song can rise
From the ashes of a broken life
And all that’s dead inside can be reborn
Cause I’m worn
I know I need to lift my eyes up
But I'm too weak
Life just won’t let up
And I know that you can give me rest
So I cry out with all that I have left
Let me see redemption win
Let me know the struggle ends
That you can mend a heart
That’s frail and torn
I wanna know a song can rise
From the ashes of a broken life
And all that’s dead inside can be reborn
Cause I’m worn
My prayers are wearing thin
Yeah, I’m worn
Even before the day begins
Yeah, I’m worn
I’ve lost my will to fight
I’m worn
So, heaven come and flood my eyes
Let me see redemption win
Let me know the struggle ends
That you can mend a heart
That’s frail and torn
I wanna know a song can rise
From the ashes of a broken life
And all that’s dead inside can be reborn
Cause all that’s dead inside will be reborn
Though I’m worn
Yeah I’m worn
Love to all---
bga