Had my one year check up today though I'm 14 months out. Things look great. Doc said I will know at my two year mark at about what I am going to "settle" out to. Then I go back to work at a pot luck lunch and stuffed myself....pretty much ate all afternoon. Now I did make it to the gym yesterday and today but I just felt like I was hungry. What is it that I am wanting? I don't want to fail but I wanted to graze. I know I have to keep myself busy somehow. I am at home with my kids now and want to continue to graze this evening. Where do people find their wills to keep on track? I had been doing it. Should I put my fat picture on the refrigerator? Do I call a friend for help like in AA? Do I chew gum? I am trying these things.
For breakfast I had one egg, lean ham, and some cheese...140 calories
For lunch over about 2 hours or so I had, two bowls of green beans with country ham (i brought the beans in hope of being good)
, several pieces of cheese (lost count) with wheat crackers, another cheese dip recipe with wheat crackers, 2 tortilla chips with sausage/cheese dip, spinach dip on celery-3 pieces, few veggies with ranch, and some fruit(pineapple, grapes, cantaloupe). I did avoid all deserts unless you count the fruit...who knows the calories
/it was like I was trying to be carb conscious and then just track...i felt so weak
For Dinner 1 slice of deli flat with 1 tbsp peanut butter and 1/2 banana, ate another tbsp of peanut butter with rest of banana without bread, 4 regular reduced fat crackers with 2% cheese, slice of ham wrapped around a pickle. around 460 calories
I know what I have to do. I am hopipng this is just a random day of weakness and that the exercise helped me some with the intake. I don't want to beat myself up but I don't want to create bad behaviors. I know I have felt this way in the past.
Has anyone tried the 5 day pouch test? I am going to post a discussion. I feel like I need intervention. Please excuse me for sounding crazy today....