First and possibly my last blog post here. Just thought I would let the world know what my progress, or lack thereof, had been since signing up here. 

A few days after signing up here the Surgeon's office called me and explained that my insurance would not pay for any type of weight loss surgery. If I was going to have surgery, they said, I would have to pay out of pocket. They suggested that I get a personal loan. You know the bank hands those out like candy at Halloween! 

So the bank said no. The insurance said no. My bank account laughed at me. 

Then I stepped on the scale tonight to find that I now weigh 401 LBS. 

I had always said that I would rather die than to reach 400 LBS. Looks like I failed at that too. 

I have tried every diet known to mankind. I have spent most of my life trying to loose weight. I have starved myself for years with no luck. You see, my whole family is big. My parents, my grandparents, even my siblings. We all have the battle of the bulge. Or in my case the battle of the whale. 

So what am I to do? I cannot afford the surgery. The bank won't loan me the money. My insurance would rather see me dead. So I guess I am out of options. 

That is where I am. Depressed and out of options. 

When do I get to give up and let nature take its course? (Sadly, that is not an option and I know it.)

PS. Just so you all know, I am too much of a coward to kill myself. Not to mention that I could not do that to my family. Sadly, if I keep gaining weight, I will die. But I seem to be the only one in the world concerned about that little fact.