Ashley A.

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Hey everyone...so as some of you may know I'm addicted to the scale...I weighed myself today on my electronic scale and suprisingly it said 345..I was super excited..I went to the gym today and I wanted to get measured since it had been around a month. Well they measured me and decided to weigh me..I automatically said "Oh wait, I don't know if this is going to weigh me."  I'm so used to saying that since I haven't been able to be weighed on a doctors scale in over a year..so I stepped on it and she said "Oh, yes it will honey!" lol. I was so excited. For some reason their scale said 335 lbs though so at this point..which scale do I trust? I'm just so confused. My mom said to trust the doctor scale because they are mostly used and typically the most accurate..but at the same time I'm like wtf? I've been 10 lbs less this whole time? so at this time..I'm going to just stick with the number my at home scale says because that's the one I have been using. Here are my measurements down below..Overall I lost 9 1/2 iches and somehow I managed to gain 1/2 inch in my abs..not sure how that happened..

Measurements 4/27                 Measurements 8/10          Measurements 9/14
Bust-57                                        Bust-56                                 Bust-52
Waist-59                                      Waist-57                               Waist-55
Abs-69                                          Abs-64                                  Abs-64.5
Hips-68                                        Hips-63                                 Hips-63
R Thigh-37                                   Thigh-35                               Thigh-33.5
Up R Arm-20                                Up Arm-19                            Up Arm-18.5

Today was the worst day ever. I have been so depressed. I just feel so blah..I haven't been doing well with my eating the past few days and I haven't been to the gym in almost a week. I just feel so fat and bloated..and to top it off I started my period today. Here is what made my day horrible... I work as a Cusomter Service Representative, well I get a customer that immediately asks for my rep id so I know it is going to be a horrible call, she then asks for a supervisors so here I am trying to message different supervisors to take the call while this woman is talking to me like I'm a piece of shit and worthless..so 20 minutes later I finally get a supervisor, this woman was very demanding and rude. I was so pissed because there were so many supervisors available and none of them would help me..wtf do they get paid for?? I hate bitching, I really do but today just got to me. I was so upset because this woman made me feel worthless..so I just breakdown and start sobbing..thank god for the mute button on my phone at work..it was just awful. I was so embarrassed bc I was crying over this but it was the straw that broke the camels back..I just really need a break from work..Everyone kept asking me if I was okay and all this crap..I just wanted to be left alone. I appreciate them wanting to make sure I was okay but I'm type of person if I'm sitting there crying I just need a minute to get myself together..I'm so glad I'm off tomorrow so hopefully people will forgot about my episode when I come in on Thursday. I ended up leaving work early...I'm just spent.  I've just been so emotional lately..I really think I need to maybe see a therapist or something. I really just don't know anymore. Well I'm done bitching and complaining for today...Talk to you all soon.