I wish... That has been the story of my life.  I wish all the weight I had gained would just fall right off.  Now, though, with my tool, it is coming of.  It is coming off slowly then I would like but it is coming off.  Why?  I know why... because I drink (*gasps*) Juice.  100 percent pressed from apples... apple juice.  I CANT CANT drink artificially sweetened drinks.  They make me gag.  And I am having a hard hard time just drinking water... It tastes SO SO different after surgery.  Food?  The good thing is I have  a love hate relationship with food.  I would love to eat ANYTHING WITH TASTE.  But 90 percent of it, I know, wont agree with me.  And chicken... I love chicken... But my body will not tolerate it.  So I eat because I have to.  What I can eat though is very very limited.  I love cheese but that too has grown pretty old. 
So... I am happy.  It is coming off slower than I imagined.  On the other hand I have yet to lose 57 pounds in 2.5 months without starving myself.  I agree with NatalieW's post from today... To God Be the Glory! 

Some of my  OH friends are wondering where I am in my journey... Thanks for keeping in touch... Havent been approved... but havent been denied either.  Have been going back and forth with the insurance company... She wants more information to prove I have been fat for more than two years... i wish I could mail her every picture I have since birth to show that.  But some of you are like me.. Since I am reasonably healthy and since  I have moved so much I dont have a long term PCP relationship.... errrr..... right now I have no PCP.  So I have been calling her and not getting her and she has been calling me... and not gettting me.  I just want her to tell me what I can give her, that I havent given her, to satisfy her that I have been obese long enough for the insurance company to feel satisfied.... So even though I am jittery.... I am still hanging in there....
You got a suggestion for me then shoot it this way!!!!
Thanks....
Stay tuned....

Have you ever thought about how life would change for you if only....?...?....?...

As I continue to wait for approval my heart pounds and beats really really fast as I think about it.  What if I am denied?  What next... So I continue to wait... and worry.... and hope..... with my fingers and toes crossed....To come SOO close...
Like I told a new friend on this site:  I can stay clear headed and think of next steps for her because of her denial.  And I hope she is there for me and clear headed if I am denied.  

mmmm....
To God be the Glory...

Until next time... Tears    or relief