You never know who has experiences common to yours.  I received words of encouragement from two individuals who said they shared common experiences similar to mine.  One:  being timid going to the doctor because of my weight and Two:  Being very very selective about telling others about the surgery.  My good friend, who knows I am trying to have the surgery (and I told her only because I needed someone to pick me up from the hospital) and I had a falling out (someting ridiculous that wasnt my fault so pride wont let me fix).  So... if I get approved (and I am PRAYING I AM... ) then that is something else that I would have to worry about.  But if I get approved then I will find a way to work it out.... Two more weeks before submission... I have my fingers crossed... my toes crossed... my eyes crossed... You get the picture! 

Ok.  I have decided to start chronicling my own journey because I have interacted with several great people who are trying to get me through this journey.  I am learning so much from them and others on their journeys.    i am an extremely private person... so only one friend knows that i am doing this.  I am severely overweight...  and have battled being overweight my entire life but have not been sick so I have not gone to the doctor much in my life.  So I am extremely scared about what happens when my paperwork is submitted to the insurance company next month!   I dont have a documented history of being overweight and dont have a long term PCP.   But we will see how it goes.  If it is rejected.... well I guess i will cross that bridge when I get to it.