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on July 31, 2006 12:00 am
07/31/2006
Where does the time go? A year ago (Aug 2nd), I got my surgery date, and knew I was going to Brazil for surgery. It's been over a year since I was laid off, and it's been six months since I left Florida. A year ago I weighed 260-something pounds. Now I'm 168.
My little wow moment recently was when a friend of mine said something about trading clothes with me & some of her friends. She's always had a cute body & wardrobe.....but it's never been possible for us to trade clothes. I may not be at goal yet (my pre-plastics goal is 130 - my eventual goal is 118), and I may never be - but I feel like I'm finally normal.
Yet I find myself sometimes depressed that there haven't been MORE differences in my life.....my love life hasn't picked up. I'm still going on just first dates, no seconds. Work is still just 'okay' - nothing spectacular. And despite the weight loss, I still feel like I look 'fat' because I'm still apple-shaped.
I thought I had come into this with pretty realistic expectations, and I'm finding out that I had secret hopes that it would fix areas of my life that hadn't turned out the way I wanted them to.....and so far, it hasn't done that.
I may seek out another counselor up here to discuss this with. Here's a pic of me taken about a month ago.
Be the first to leave a comment.My little wow moment recently was when a friend of mine said something about trading clothes with me & some of her friends. She's always had a cute body & wardrobe.....but it's never been possible for us to trade clothes. I may not be at goal yet (my pre-plastics goal is 130 - my eventual goal is 118), and I may never be - but I feel like I'm finally normal.
Yet I find myself sometimes depressed that there haven't been MORE differences in my life.....my love life hasn't picked up. I'm still going on just first dates, no seconds. Work is still just 'okay' - nothing spectacular. And despite the weight loss, I still feel like I look 'fat' because I'm still apple-shaped.
I thought I had come into this with pretty realistic expectations, and I'm finding out that I had secret hopes that it would fix areas of my life that hadn't turned out the way I wanted them to.....and so far, it hasn't done that.
I may seek out another counselor up here to discuss this with. Here's a pic of me taken about a month ago.
