Surgery Eve on January 28, 2008 8:38 pm
Well, the time is almost here. I'm now hours away from beginning my transformation. Well actually, the transformation has already begun. My home scale says I've lost 13lbs. We'll see what the official scale at the hospital says tomorrow. I do know my work pants were remarkable loose in the waist today. So I know I've lost something.
On Sunday night I treated myself to a small piece of salmon with my salad. It felt good to put my teeth into meat. Then all day today I wasn't hungry. I wonder if it's from the excitement of what's to come tomorrow.
And now since it's 20-mintues until midnight and I can't drink after that... all of a sudden, I'm parched. I'm chugging water like nobody's business. Funny how the mind works.
I shaved my legs and underarms, sanded my heals, coco buttered my body, washed my hair and now I'm sparkling clean for my rebirth.
I also wrote letters to my family and had my will and health directive notarized. While I don't believe in my heart that God is ready to take me home, I don't want to assume I know what his plans are for me. And if it be that I'm to join him, I want to make sure my babies have something in my handwriting to remember me by.
I'm off to drink the last bit of water that I can before midnight. Then I'll be spending some time with the Lord and my hubby. I'll see ya'll on the loosing side. I'll post as soon as I can.
Stay prayed up ya'll!
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Five Days and Counting on January 23, 2008 4:30 pm
Wow... only five days to get through and I'll be on my way to looserville! The weight is actually starting to come off pretty fast on this liquid diet. I don' think the scale at work is very accurate, so I only take it for the difference between when I started weighing and today. It says I've lost 6lbs. in 8 days.
I told my husband today. I can't wait to not be hungry all the time. This liquid diet only keeps me full for about an hour. Then I try to drink water inbetween snacks and meals. I welcome my new pouch with open arms!
I had to swing by the grocery store today after work. I was already hungry but when the smell of that fried chicken slapped me in the face as I walked through the door, I was ready to fall out! But I stayed strong. Then as I'm getting in the truck, there's a commercial on for All You Can Eat Filet Mignon and Shrimp at Golden Corral. Are you kidding me devil? Get thee behind me.
I'm probably especially sensitive to the food stimuli since my Aunt Flow came to visit yesterday. Praise God it came now rather than in the hospital. I've heard some people's cycle starts after surgery. Maybe mine will hold off since it will have just finished.
Dear Lord Heavenly Father, I come to you right now thanking you for this journey. Through you I have accomplished something I would have never dreamed I could do. I have gone 10 days without eating meat (except for the blip I had early on!). This has been quite a challenge for me and I know through you all things are possible. So I thank you for the strength you have given me. Lord, continue to keep me strong in this journey. I need to have victory over this disease of Obesity. With you at my side, I know the victory is mine. In Jesus' name, Amen.
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Day Six - Not So Bad Now on January 19, 2008 8:45 pm
Well, I think I got over the hump. Today I hosted a baby shower for my little sister. Last night I prepared stroganoff meatballs & pasta w/ salami / muenster / cheddar & parmesan cheese. Her boss was the co-host and brought BBQ meat balls, Buffalo Chicken Dip. There was cake, icecream and sherbert punch.
I ate my cucumber, lettuce, protein drink and during cake time I had a SF carmel pudding. Drank my water and was feeling great. Came home and put away the leftovers that I cooked and was still OK. Got hungry a few hours later and made some yummy Unjury Chicken Soup, drank water and I'm good again.
I'm glad it's easier now. I've prayed on it and am more focused on why I'm on this journey. I know I have to do my part. I've got to stick to the plan now and forever if I want the results I envision.
Ok, now to the funny story. My sister came over last night with a big ole bag from Old Navy and some other stores. (She's a shop-a-holic) She pulls out these cute black and pink workout pants and work out top to match and a pair of Levi's jeans. I thought they were for her. Well turns out she picked them up for me. She said after her baby comes she's gonna need a work out partner. Ok... the top is a large, the pants are a medium and the jeans are 11's. She knew I wanted to get some clothes in my goal size so I can take a picture of me trying to get into them every month for my weight loss scrap book.
So now to the funny part. Today before the shower my eight year old daughter and I were wondering if I could get into the clothes. So she and I head to my bathroom and start putting on the top. It was so tight I could barely get it down around my breasts. She had to pull the top out and down while shoving my breast up! It was hillarious. We were both in tears laughing. The pants barely got up and were hanging off my butt.
My hubby captured the "look" in pictures. I can laugh about it now because I know I won't be this way much longer. I'm not going to post the pictures on the web until I have the after pictures to put by their side. So stay tuned!
Be blessed!
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I Cheated On My ... on January 16, 2008 6:59 pm
... Liquid Protein Diet. I'm supposed to be on this diet for two weeks before surgery and today is day three. I was doing good until today. I came home from work early and Hubby had prepared dinner for the kids. General Cho's Chicken, Basmati Rice and Broccoli. The smell was KILLING a sister and I was starving. I headed to my cabinet, broke out a can of broth, spiced it up with cayenne pepper and garlic powder, cut myself some cucumbers and had my dinner.
After I ate that I went to my room to perm my baby's hair. After that I had a protein shake, a chocolate SF pudding and some SF applesauce. And do you know my tummy was still hungry.
I broke down when I was putting the left overs away. The chicken smelled so good. So when no one was looking I popped a piece in my mouth. My goodness it was good. But I feel sooo horribly guilty.
I know I need to do this to shrink my liver. And I know the one piece of chicken isn't going to kill me. But what's it say about me if I can't make it three full days. Am I going to be able to do this after surgery?
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Day Two of the Liquid Journey on January 15, 2008 6:43 pm
Quick post to document. Today had presurgical visit to give blood and sign consent forms. Got my handy dandy breathing spirometer to practice on. She wants me to remember how high I can get the ball so that post surgery I can remember what normal looked like. Also picked up my leave of absence paperwork.
My sugar free DaVinci syrups came in the mail today. Carmel and White Chocolate. I had the carmel with vanilla Unjury and skim milk. Mmm mmm Good.  It was delicious. Even my daughter loved it. Now I'm gonna have to go get some Vanilla. I only bought two cans of chocolate and one can of plain. Tomorrow I'm going to try White Chocolate in my decaf coffee and in plain yogurt.
Stay prayed up ya'll! 
Waterloggeed on January 14, 2008 6:36 pm
Today was day one of my presurgery liquid diet. Bottom line - I'm HUNGRY! And no, it's not head hunger. This is the real deal. So I cheated... well not really. I'm having a cup of Lipton Onion Soup with the onions drained out and no protein added. This following my dinner of beef broth, added protein, V8 Splash and sugar free jello. Yum.
My body is really getting cleaned out. I have went #1 every hour on the hour since 10am this morning. My skin should look like silk by the end of the week. And my urine isn't even yellow anymore. It's clear.
Did I mention I'm HUNGRY? i know this will last a few days and my tummy will get used to being empty most of the time. But darn, getting there can't come soon enough.
FIFTEEN DAYS UNTIL SURGERY!
Tommorrow is my preop testing with the hospital. I have no idea what they are going to test. I'm sure it'll be a treat! Will post about it tomorrow.
Dear Heavenly Father, I come to you now with a simple prayer. Lord give me the strength to overcome this hunger and soar through this liquid preop diet. I know once my tool is in place, the stomache hunger will end and the head hunger will begin. But right now Lord, I need you to interceed and release me from this hunger. I thank you Lord in advance for your many blessings. In Your Son Jesus' name. Amen
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Drumrole Please... on January 10, 2008 4:05 pm
I have a date. My surgery will be on Tuesday, January 29th. Only 19-days away. Well actually 18-days since today is almost over. So, I've been wanting this for three years... and now I'm just a few short weeks away. It's kind of surreal. I don't know if it's quite hit me yet. I think it will feel more real tomorrow at my dietician one-on-one and visit with the surgeon. Hubby is going with me to visit the doctor. This weekend I'm going to go shopping for some post surgery essentials. Perhaps that too will make it more real. Stay tuned. | Leave a comment.
to God be the Glory - APPROVED on January 8, 2008 2:49 pm
The phone call came today while I was at work and in a meeting. I had my phone on silent and saw the number. My heart raced and I knew I couldn't answer it. Had I been sitting next to the door I probably would have jumped up and acted like it was an emergency (which it was for me!). To my delight the voice mail logo came on the screen. That next half an hour wait was pure tourture. When that meeting was over I darted out of there and picked up my voicemail as I was heading back to my office. The insurance case worker's message said she reviewed my file and would like to discuss it with me and to call her back. I did, and got her voice mail. I had another meeting and told her I wouldn't be back to my desk until noon. As soon as I was out of that meeting I called again... voice mail again. I called back every fifteen minutes for the next hour. Then at 1:00pm, she picked up and said those magical words, "Natalie I have reviewed your file and I have approved you for the lap RnY!" I just said, "Thank you Jesus! ... you have no idea how happy you've made me today." She said this was the best part of her job. I've been on cloud nine all day and couldn't wait to get home to post this on my profile and the boards. I called my husband immediately and he shouted for joy too. He knows how desperately I need and want this. I called my mom and my sister. And then I called my two work friends who have both had the procedure. Oh dear Heavenly Father. I come to You now thanking You for this gift and all of the other gifts You have so graciously showered upon me. Words cannot express the joy filled in my heart knowing You have held me in high esteem and granted this sinners greatest desire. I'm humbled at Your grace and mercy. I'm proclaim to You now I will make You proud and give testamony to Your love. I will walk in Your spirit with a new body, a new temple that glorifies Your name. To the most high, my Lord and Saviour - Amen. | Leave a comment.
And the Wait Begins on January 4, 2008 4:46 pm
It's official, the insurance company has my file and will begin their review. They have fourteen days to get back to me. I'm excited to know that it's in their hands. I'll be waiting to hear those magical words, "You've been approved." Dear Heavenly Father. This entire process is in Your hands. If You see fit for me to receive this blessing at this time, I will know soon. I pray the person reviewing my file is filled with Your spirit and will make a favorable decision. I know through You all things are possible and all blessing come forth through You. I humbly ask for Your mercy and Your grace. In Your son Jesus' name. Amen. | Leave a comment.
My Sense of Urgency Obviously Isn't Their Sense of... on January 2, 2008 7:38 pm
Today is Wednesday, January 2nd., the day my insurance company should be reviewing my clinical from the surgeon. I called Anthem first thing this morning and no answer so I leave a message. She calls back at 3:30pm. I ask if they have my file. She says no. So I immediately call the surgeon's insurance lady. Keeping in mind that I need to be nice so they'll be nice back and get 'er done, I sweetly remind her that my new insurance kicked in yesterday and she's clear to send my paperwork to the insurance company. I again give her the ID and plan numbers that were in my fax last month. I ask her if she'll be sending those today. She says probably not today. I asked her if she thinks it would be done in the next day or two. She says yes. So I'll be calling her on Friday morning to find out if she's sent them over. A little disappointed about this couple of day set back. Just felt like the insurance company could have already started reviewing my file. I'll be praying tonight that she sends my stuff first thing in the morning. Pray for me too.
Psalms 51:10 - Isaiah 43:18-19 on January 1, 2008 8:53 pm
2007 is behind us now. 2008 is here and full of promise. My husband preached last night at our Watch Night Service. His message was, "So Fresh and So Clean." His message centered around the 51st. Psalm verse 10 where David is repenting to the Lord and asking for a clean heart and a renewed spirit. This cleaning and renewing is needed in order to fully appreciate, experience and receive the many blessing He has for us. Moving into the New Year with an unclean heart will allow doubt, fear, depression, anxiety, etc. to creep into your life and block all of God's goodness. I prayed David's prayer - Clean my heart dear Lord and renew my spirit. Take me back to the day I first gave myself to you. Fill me with the vigor and excitement from that day. Prepare me Lord for those blessings you already have earmarked especially for me. I come now, ready to receive this and so much more, in your Son Jesus' name. Amen.
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