Hey I believe these meetings are very important if you are having issues with the surgery or are feeling out of sorts. So by all means get yourself some help. Nothing in the world can help you if you don't help yourself, ya dig? I so applaud anyone who takes the necessary steps in the right direction toward inner healing. This weightloss shit ain't no joke baby.  Trust and believe that right thurr!!

I went to my first post op meeting. Yeah I haven't been to a support group meeting since before I had surgery and it was pleasant this time. I think I would benefit from the topic based meetings moreso than the open forum ones. I love that patients that are more than 4 years out are still coming to the meetings, that is probably why they are still successful. They are keeping this ish in check and not just letting it slide by the wayside. Good ish man, really. I'm glad a couple of folks asked me to go cause you know I ain't the one to sit around and listen to a bunch of whiny azz folk complain and not take the advice given. It's like shut up already geesh. This time though it was all good and I might possibly go back. I'm not as put off as I was pre-op but then again I'm in a different state of mind as well. It was all good tonight.

Well Happy Birthday to me baby!! I'm so grateful to God for allowing me to see another day. I'm 42 today *April 2* and I feel awesome!! I'm soooo much healthier than I was a year ago, mind, body and spirit. There is no greater gift that I could have given myself. I am so very appreciative to have had the chance to have GBS and I want to work this thang to the limit. I'm back exercising at the pool and I'm even jumping rope *a lil bit*. It's hard but it's damn worth it. I'm damn worth it!! Ya heard?!?

To all the newbies, oldies, pre-ops and no-ops you can do it!! Lean on the everlasting word of God and there is no way you can fail. 

The journey, oh yeah it's on and poppin'!!!!

I want it to be Spring like right now!!!! I am so ready to shed all these layers of clothes and coats and gloves and hats. I want the sun shining every.single.day!!! No more snow please God. I know we are a whining and complaing group of folks down here on earth but  um it's been a nice long winter and a sista is so ready for some warmth.  

Also this would help tremendously with the gas bill too. Oh man almost $400.00 this month, yeah for real. That's $400.00 I could be spending on some clothes, shoes and purses. 

Oh YEAH!! I am in love with shopping again and it is probably going to be my transfer addiction. As I said before I just need some dollars to go with this newfound or should I say re-found love!!!! 

I had an appointment  with my gastric bypass surgeon and he is consistent baby. I got there at noon and at 12:15 I was in my damn car on the way home. That's how quick it was and I betcha he charged me big bucks for that right?!? Whatev man. 

I'm doing good, really, really good. I have so much energy now and it feels awesome as hell. I know hell ain't supposed to be awesome is it? SO that is a total oxymoron huh? Just like when someone says it's cold as hell outside. Well hell is supposed to be hot so whatup wit dat saying????

Back to feeling good. My leg is healing up really well. I only have a little opening in the wound. So I don't have to pack it anymore, I just use a large bandage that I bought from the store and I'm able to stand for long periods of time. The only thing is the outrageous swelling of the leg and foot. It's lymphatics I know. They say it may be like this for the rest of my life because I was heavy for such a long time that I compromised my lymphatic system. THAT SUCKS!!! 

I try not to sweat it because the tumor is gone and I'm overjoyed that I can walk now and do just about everything again. I mean hell I'm planning trips and whatnot and I haven't been on a trip in over 5 years because of that stupid tumor. So ya gurl here is lovin' life to the utmost right now!!! 

As soon as the wound completely closes I'm running straight to the pool to get my full body workout on. Fat in my body is redistributing itself and I ain't liking how it's settling, this mess gots to go!!! Quick, fast and in a hurry.

I'm down 155 pounds now. Whoo hoo baby can you say OUTSTANDING?!? I can hardly believe it but it's true and I'm so happy!!! *Big ass cheesy grin on my face*

Compliments are hard for me cause I ain't used to that shit but it's getting better and I'm still cooking and baking like a nut!! I made 2 other dishes with that turkey I cooked a couple of weeks ago. I made turkey soup that was the mofo'ing bomb!! Then the other day I made turkey pot pie with some of the breast meat, so damn delish!!! I ain't lying that food was on point!!!!

Trying a new cake recipe this weekend cause my burfday will be here in another month and I have to have me some burfday cake LOL!!! Wish me luck!

Just have to say again that I'm feeling awesome and it's all thanks to WLS and having the tumor removed!! Yeah baby life is good. 

And let the church say, Thanks be to God!!

I'm so glad that Spring is almost here. Haven't you been dying to get out of the house and not have to wear 6 layers of clothes? I absolutely love it when the sun is shining down on my brown skin. It makes me feel alive, ya know? 

So anyways I have been doing really well lately. My wound is decreasing in size and I'm back to driving and getting out and about and it feels SUPER!! I have been homebound for so damn long til I hardly ever want to be here. Well no, I can't say that all the time cause I reallly dig being comfy cozy and some days I can just lounge around and watch the food network all day long LOL!!! Just wait til it gets even nicer outside, AW DAMN!!! I'm gonna be hittin' the streets with a ferociousness. Yeah made up word fo' sho'.

I went shopping for the first time in ages and I'm in love again. Hell I just need some duckets to go with this intense love. Window shopping is the fucking pits ya dig? So I hit up The Ave and a thrift store. I scooped up a few good pieces but I am really thrilled with actually wanting to buy clothes again. It's been a minute for me.

I have been craving some turkey and dressing for the past couple of weeks so I made that for dinner today. Yep  I cooked a turkey, dressing was in the freezer from Thanksgiving, mac-n-cheese, salad, cranberry sauce and cheddar bay biscuits like they have at Red Lobster. Dessert will be the pound cake I made last weekend (which is made with Splenda) and no sugar added vanilla frozen yogurt by Blue Bunny. SO FREAKIN' AWESOME!!

You know the cool thing is I can eat all of this but only little tiny portions and  I feel totally satisfied. So this is how naturally thin people eat. I feel absolutely good, not an ounce of guilt behind my meal like I used to when I ate a meal like this. The only thing is we are so going to need a deep freezer cause I swear I freeze sooooo much food. I try to give alot away, especially when I bake but it still ends up going in the freezer cause I honestly don't want to throw food away.

One of my mom's good friends had surgery on V-day and she is doing really well.  She is drinking water like a champ. I couldn't handle water for a few weeks after surgery and food made me want to puke. Just the smell of food sent me over the edge but she is drinking her chicken broth and eating her SF popsicles and drinking water all day long. So we have another member aboard the Loserville Express y'all.

*Oh didn't I just say how I'm glad that Spring is almost here. So why the sam hell did they just announce that we are in for another snowstorm tomorrow?*  

SPRING PLEASE COME SOON!!   

The journey continues.