I have spent this morning reading the blogs and looking at the uploaded pictures of some of my OH friends and being amazed! I remember the changes I had to go through immediately after surgery - it kept me on my toes. What helps me now is reading about the experiences and seeing the progress of others.   I saw an OH members collar bone and ran to the mirror and realized, I am not there yet.  I saw another get down to the teens and I realized I have been trying to get out of the teens for a month.  I am so grateful to those who share!

As I was getting dressed to go to the gym, I realized that I still have a minimum of 40 pounds to go to get close to where I dream.  I don't want to be "skinny".  But, I am still overweight and having loss 123 pounds, I have to work not to be "satisfied".  Sure, it is a dramatic change, but I continue to be a work in progress.  There are members on OH who had surgery to get rid of the weight I am now!  I have to remember that today's weight was never acceptable... then or now!

I have to stay focused and committed. Its like birthing a baby. Even after its born, it has to learn to crawl, then walk. Funny, that babies go from liquids, to soft foods to solids.  Sort of like a gastric by pass patient, huh? Well, I am out the door to the gym.  

I am not sure what I would do if I did not have Obesity Help.com and my OH friends.  Yes, I do... I would be crying like a baby.     

I thought it was me.  I called my girlfriend in Texas who had WLS surgery a month after me.  It seemed like we were mirroring each other's behavior.  We both have been craving and fighting the urge to graze. I wanted a candy bar soooo bad.  She said her craving is for cookies and pastries.  I found out that Scoops (Fritos) does not have sugar.  But, I make myself not buy them.  She went out and bought a key lime pie and has been stealing spoonfuls.  We both had been craving Dairy Queen cones,  On the good side - we both have been eating a lot of watermelon!  

 Soooooo, do you think it has to do with not having sugar for nine months and the body is craving what it hasn't had? One of my doctors told me that she finds that people low in iron or anemic will crave peanuts; that sometimes the body craves what it needs.  Well, I don't think my body "needs" sugar products. I think it is a memory imprint - it wants what it used to get on a regular basis.  Maybe it is just my brain crazing - and telling me to graze.  Crazy huh?