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I start my liquid diet on Monday and since my hubby is flying to DC tomorrow so we went out on a date night!  Since my husband had bypass surgery almost 6 years ago in Germany, he knows what I'm going through, how I'm feeling.  We talked once I have surgery, how we will share our meal when we go out, there will be no need for us to order two different meal unless...we both want leftovers. We at at Manny's Mexican Canteena and both had seafood, it was amazing.  We did have a drink (something that we don't normally do) and chips and salsa but no dessert.  Next we went to Wal-mart to pick up some protein powder mix and a few other things for the house.  Then we went downtown and saw a movie.  We had a great night!!! Tomorrow is my last day before my liquid diet....besides popcorn, there really isn't anything I want to eat

So, I have 26 more days until my surgery and its amazing how my mind is already starting to change.  Everything I put into my mouth, I think to myself....will I be able to eat this again?   I almost feel like I'm starting to morning food, knowing that in a few short days, I can no longer eat the way that I have for years.  I know the decision to have the lap band is the right one but its not an  easy one.  All I have to do is look into the faces of my 3 beautiful children and know that I'm doing this for them so I can be a healthy mom to them for many, many years.  I'm planning my last supper date with my husband and I plan on having a couple drinks (something that doesn't happen very often) have a wonderful mexican meal and even have dessert.  Then on the 4th of May I start my all liquid diet and I'm a little scared about that but also know I can do it!!  I think the hardest part of the liquid diet is that our family can't go out for mother's day brunch.  Instead, I am making my family a wonderful breakfast, we'll go to church and then we are going to see a movie of Mom's choice!!!  I'm sure the it will be a wonderful day and I won't think too much about the brunch I'll be missing!!

Yesterday I fanially got my approvel letter from BCBS and I am sooo excited.  I called today and made all my pre-op appointments.  I'm hoping to schedule my surgery date during those appointments!!

Okay, so I'm normally up beat person and very little gets me down but right now I'm fighting depression, big time.  So, I completed all of my pre-work for surgery and was denied by my insurance company.  Of course this all happened right in the middle of an out of state move!!  So, I waited until we moved and then I decided to appeal the decision.  I have gone through so much red tape that I feel like hanging from it.  Right now I feel that there is no light at the end of the tunnel and that once again, they are going to find some reason to deny my request.  Today is last day for me to appeal anything and they it will be another two weeks before I hear either yes or no!!  If they say no, I don't know what I'm going to do!  On Saturday, my aunt asked me if I was pregnant....I lost it!!!  I wanted to say, you carry a 12 pound baby and see what it does to your body....But, I just sucked it up and went forward. 
Praying for surgery,
~Callie