Everyone that I have told that I want to have WLS is against it.  My husband is concerned and feels that I can do it on my own.  My family and friends feel that I shouldn't have the surgery.  Even my own doctor thinks I can do it on my own.  Just today I got a report that states 97% of obese people who lose weight gain it back within 3 years and 100% of morbidly obese (me) people gain it back.  Those aren't very good odds.  I know they love me and are all concerned about the risks and the posssibility of death.  I'm not afraid of that. I am going to die if I don't get my weight under control.  What I'm afraid of is missing out on all the wonderful moments that are ahead with my boys.  

I look forward to watching them grow into men.  i want to see them graduate from high school, stand at the alter watching their bride come down the aisle and see their anticipation at the birth of their children.  I want to grow old with my husband and view the changes in the world that we have seen together.  However, none of these dreams are possible if I don't get this weight under control.  It will only get worse if I don't take the steps now to get my health in order.

I don't believe that WLS is a miracle or the "easy way out".  Just like any WL success it will take hard work and dedication on my part.  It's up to me to succeed.  I am responsible for getting up and exercising but I need help with controlling what I put in my mouth.  My brain tells me I'm hungry and it sends a very weak signal when I am full.  This is what I've trained it to do.  I don't blame anyone for my weight problem and I take full responsibility.  I admit it and I am not ashamed to say that I need the help of WLS to re-teach my brain that I can't and don't want to put all of that food into my mouth.

I am asking for help and the support of my family, friends and my doctor.  I can do this and I can't wait to see the person that emerges.  I want to be the best mom, wife and the best me that I possibly can.  I have dreams and I can't wait to fulfill them.

I have been off Diet Coke for 10 days and I am doing well.  I don't think I was addicted but I really liked it.  I thought it would be alot harder than it has been.  That is a blessing!

I've started exercising.  Last week I lost 5 pounds and hopefully 5 more this week.  I'll weigh myself in on Monday when I go to class.  I'm working really hard to lose this weight.  I'm not eating sweets and really working to control my portions.  

I'm ready for surgery!  It's scary but exciting at the same time.  I still have months do go but each day it is getting closer.