Do you ever feel this way?  Like nothing is ever going to go right.  How in the hell am I supposed to stay positive when the world keeps kicking me?  I'm trying  I really, really am!  These last few years have almost been comical they have been so bad.  First I lost my job 5 months after surgery, loved being home but financially couldn't do it.  Then I got a job and things were looking up for about a minute.  Then we just couldn't make our house payment after the initial 3 year plan (crazy loan), hubby and I have been struggling although we love each other very much.  Found out I was pregnant then found that the baby had no heartbeat.  Just found out I am losing my job again because of the Ca budget.  Holy Crap!!!  How are we supposed to do this?  How am I supposed to keep the faith?

I am losing my job, home and lost my baby.  I just don't know how to stay strong!!!