Well, I am 3 months out today. Wow the time has really flown by. So far I am down about 52lbs. I really haven’t struggled much with cravings this month, and I have been keeping my calories at 500 and my carbs at 60 or less. I have been working out about 4 times a week doing water aerobics, workout DVDs, Pilates and using weights at the gym. This summer I am hoping to join a gym and start going more often. I also got accepted in my Social Work program which I will be starting in the fall, I plan on using the gym at school a lot too maybe even getting involved with intramural sports. I am pleased thus far with my progress, I try not to be too hard on myself. My Psych suggested I give my scale to a friend and weigh myself only twice a month or so over at their house. The idea of that makes me nervous. I try to weigh myself once a week on Mondays, and sometimes I am tempted to weigh myself more often. I too often let the numbers on the scale dictate my day.  My hair is starting to thin, I have trouble getting enough protein. I am going to start drinking protein shakes and hopefully that will help. I finally got into a size 18 jeans, my younger sister gave me some of her old jeans. In some stores the 18’s don’t fit, however Old Navy jeans fit like a dream. I finally can fit anything in the store….which is nice, before I had to buy shirts there and get my jean elsewhere.  I also had to buy a new swimsuit because my size 24 one was getting to loose. I am now so close to being less than 200lbs I can’t believe it! When I finally reach 199 I am going to be beyond excited. I haven’t been less than 200lbs in over 10 years. This weekend I leave for Orlando. I am super excited. I am just trying to stick to the program and keep plugging along. I plan on continuing to eat well while on vacation and take advantage of the 24 hour gym at the hotel.

Now I am 2 months out, I have lost a total of 41lbs for far. I wear a 14/16 or XL in tops. I am probably about a size 20 in jeans. I still wear my size 22 jeans…which a getting a little loose, but I am too cheap to invest in some new jeans right now.  I guess I am still below average with weight loss. I lost 6lbs after a stall and now I am stalled again. My calorie intake is like 500-600 calories a day, and I eat no more than 40- 60carbs.  I work out 3-4 times a week (Still trying to get to 5 times). I don’t really know what else I could be doing differently. My body is really fighting me on this. Calories in Calories out my left fanny. I find myself at times getting really depressed about the slow weightloss. My mother thinks I am being way to hard on myself. Since when was the last time I managed to lose 41lbs in two months??? Or the last time I wore I size 16 dress?? Ummmm not since I can remember. But she's right I don't really give myself enough credit for the things I have accomplished.

I went home for Spring Break; it was very nice to see my family. My mom kept commented on how different I looked. This was weird because I really hadn’t noticed a difference and neither did anyone back in MI because they see me everyday. So it was a nice confidence booster. My mom had trouble dealing with my portions. She usually gave me waaay too much food, I gave her my Gerber graduate tray as a guide which seemed to help. Other family members kept trying to force me to eat things. Like ohh one little bit of this isn’t going to hurt you. Then they are the family members who still think I made the wrong decision by choosing to have this surgery. But I kept my sanity and managed to stick to my plan while away from home. I didn’t get in as much exercise as I would have liked. I really wanted to be in the 100’s by my Florida trip. I am attending a conference in Orlando which I am totally excited about. But I have like 26lbs to lose by April and at the rate I am going I just don’t see that happening. But I will continue to work hard; one thing this surgery has helped me with has been my compulsive overeating, and food cravings. I went to Cheesecake factory recently and I ordered a slice to go for my sister and never even craved it once. I was able to enjoy my meal and move on. What a difference. Before I would have fell off the wagon, helped myself to cheesecake and then continued the party at home with junk food. The countdown to Disney World continues…….