So still not feeling well but atleast now I am not crazy they think they know what the issues are or so we hope. I am suppose to have surgery sometime this week just waiting on the call from the doctors office seems it was my gall bladder and my lungs well not really sure what is going on with them but im okay. thats all i can say on the health front will update more once i start to feel better.

Okay so this has been a LONG month but I am okay. I have been in and out of the hospital I have seen more doctors than I have ever wanted too in my entire life. I mean seriously if I see one more white coat I am going to scream. Okay i got that off my chest weigh lost has been slow which scares me and my doctor thinks I am eating things I should not which would be nice if I could eat. But thats another story all in its self, my clothes on the other hand are telling another story. Day I walked into ww I was in a 24 day of surgery I was in a 22 with a little and i do mean a little extra room, but a 20 was WAY too small. Go figure I am in a 16 now 3 months out and a 14 fits too. My shirts at surgery where 3x sometimes 4x. I am in a L to 1x. Are you serious???? So regardless of what the scale says I have been losing. I am happy thanks to the people on here I have been able to stay out of the nut house and jail. There were times when I was seriously about to commit murder or just run my head in the wall. Now I am fine...thank god for small favors. Still having some heath issues but my doctor is awesome and he will  fix them hell he better after that great review I left him..lol.

Okay so I am feelings tons better minus this horrible liquid diet for 2 weeks. But it could be worse I could be in the hospital again so I will take this diet from hell. I have cheated twice but I was REALLY hungry I am not talking about head hunger I mean I was seriously hungry. On a happy note I did not vomit and I ate something so thank god for small favors.  I go back to work this week I was suppose to go to Weightwise today to go get my doctors note so I could return back to work but of course it is like a whole 10 degrees outside and yeah I think I will just pick it up tomorrow and then go to work from there. I need to go back I have been off work since Dec 1st and I am going mad...nutts. I will blog more just been sleeping alot and trying to get back to the old me. I am there minus the chest pain at 2am but I know it will get better.

okay so i feel like crap not really sure what is going on.  Having pains and having trouble eating but I'm working on it, one day at a time. I have to remember that I just had major surgery and right now I do not need to be going a mile a minute, but relaxing is not something I am use to. I seriously slept for about 13 hours today, that is unheard of for me, today I think I am going to go to the hospital visit a friend and do some shopping...YEAH weigh is now 263.5 I'm still in shock I lost 1.5lbs in less than 24hours this is so weird.