Well it's finally happened. I finally got a job and my insurance is going to change, but I may have my surgery before it does, I'll have to wait and see. However, with this new job, there have been alot of changes going on at my house. I'm not following my dietician's advice very well, trying to really, but it's hard trying to do those and get a new routine down for me and the kids. I work afternoon shift (3-1130) and it sucks not being home with the kids in the evenings. I'm having to make dinner at like 1 in the afternoon. Also, I had to call and cancel the appointment I would of had with my primary care doctor for clearance to have my surgery because I had to go into work for an Inservice meeting plus I have a past due balance with him that he is requiring I pay before he'll see me again and I  won't have that money until early next month. I meet with the dietician again next week and that will be my 4th, only 2 more after that. Another worry to add to all the mix is that I haven't said anything to my new employer about me having this surgery and I'm not sure if I'll even be able to have the time off to get the surgery without losing my job. But I've decided not to go down without a fight and will keep plugging away at all the things I have to do before I'll get approved with my insurance company now, so I'll have to wait and see. I may have to wait until next year to have this surgery, which will really break my heart, but come hell or high water I will have this gastric bypass.

Well, my name is Casey, I am 40 years old (still feels weird to say that, just turned 40 on June 23rd) and am still in the process of getting all my pre-op testing done to submit to insurance for approval. This friday will be my 3rd meeting with the Dietician (need 6 total) and I scheduled my psych eval for that same day. I've already done my medical tests (upper GI, gallbladder ultrasound, chest xray, and EKG), still need to get the blood work done and get the medical clearance from my medical doctor, appointments made for both. I'm hoping for an October 2012 surgery date, but won't know until we get the approval from the Insurance company. I am SO excited but nervous, that's normal I would think. I have been battling obesity since puberty, LONG TIME. You name it I've tried it, everything from weight watchers to adkins and even HCG. I've lost alot of weight but am so tired of having to think about my weight all the time. I have 2 beautiul and wonderful children, my daughter is 18 and is worried about the surgery, not only for the risk I'm taking but she is also worried about me getting skinny and she not, I've told her that this is a tool for both of us, she will be my coach and will be with me every step of the way and hopefully next summer we'll be skinny together. She is only slightly over weight and I finally chose to do this surgery for her, so I know what to do to help her. I have thought about this surgery ALOT over that last 10 years and have always managed to talk myself out of scheduling any appointments, I'm determined now. Then there's my son, he is 11 and loves me unconditionally, but I don't think he realizes what risk I'm taking and that's ok with me, he just knows that mommy's having surgery to lose weight and be healthy. I'm doing this surgery for both my children, so that I can teach my daughter healthier ways of eating and to have more energy for my son. I am single, divorced twice, but I feel that after my surgery and recovering that maybe my confidence will come back and maybe I'll be ready to start dating again, but that's not something I'm worried about right now. I am a Nurse, LPN, but currently in pursuit of my BSN, and am currently unemployed and actively seeking employment, my only concery is if I find another job now and my insurance changes is that going to affect me having this surgery or not? Well, any way, I am SUPER EXCITED, but nervous.