February 26, 2007
170+ (don't know right now)


Okay ladies, I'm not gonna call it the "WLS Curse!"  Its the "WLS Empowerment Movement" okay!!!!! LOL!!!  I have decided to take a break from DH.  I can't take it anymore!!!  I'm not June Cleaver.  No he's not putting his hands on me, but that doesn't mean shit when it comes to mental & emotionally abuse(NEGLECT, ETC...).  Don't Get It Twisted!  Its just as bad.  YES!  I'M F***ING SETTLING!!!  IT'S F***ING 5:30am in the morning and I have a midterm at 10am and I'm drinking a F***ING Margarita w/added Vodka in it (margaritas don't have Vodka in it, right???-lol).  Don't judge me is all I'm gonna ask right now until you have walked in my shoes!  I can't explain all the details of my "plan" right now.  No, I'm not drunk(LOL!)  I have allowed my DH to stall my weight loss and progress!  I have allowed him to make me feel guilty about my success.  I have not done anything wrong!!!  I have humbly excepted all the goodness that has come to me, but it doesn't seem to matter to him.  He's F*CKING THREATENED!!!!  COUNSELING???  We havent' done it in a while.  And, the way it looks, it would be for the duration of our marriage!  Does one really need a 3rd party to tell them every minute of the day what the RIGHT THING to do is?????  I DON'T THINK SO!!!!!  But, can I really blame EVERYTHING on him?????  HELL TO THE NAW!!!!  It is "my responsiblity" to take care of me!!!  It is an extra added bonus if you have a partner who will put your needs ahead of their own.  Why do (WE) women take so much SH*T???????????   Okay, okay, some men take SH*T too.  Okay, I gotta get my head right to go do this exam this morning.  I just had to vent a little.  I'M F*CKING PISSED!!  I HAVE GIVEN MY ALL AND THEN SOME TO THIS RELATIONSHIP!  I HAVE DONE IT FOR HIM, THEN FOR THE KIDS!!!!  NOW I'M GONNA DO IT FOR ME!  WHICH MEANS, I NEED TO BE BY MYSELF FOR A WHILE! 

Much love to you all,


Smooches!