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on October 16, 2007 5:25 pm
12/18/2007- I FUCKIN HATE MY BODY
12/18/2007-The office Christmas party. I really feel like a pig. I ate to much. I have really been eating stupid these last few days anyway. So anyway I ate nachos, meatballs, a chicken wing (fried ofcourse), and a piece of cake. Now although It was only a little of everything I am still mad at myself. I have no idea how many caloriex I consumed, and I still ate past satisfied. I think it is time for a fill, but I am going out of town on sat., so I will have to see about that when I get back. Other than that I have been making bad food choices even though for the most part I have been able to keep track of my calorie intake and I have been working out everyday. I have been able to work harder at the gym then when I started, which I guess is a good thing. I have not been on the scale in a week, and it is all I have been thinking about. I am scared to get on it out of fear that I have gained. But it is driving me crazy not to know. Even though I know that within this week I my calorie intake has been low enough to where I should have atleast shed 3 lbs. But I am soooooo scared to step on the scale. I said I would not weight myself until right before I go to Chicago on sat. but I really think I am gonna mess up and weigh myself today, because this waiting is driving me crazy!!!!
12/11/2007-It has been long while....lol I know sometimes I just get to lazy to type. Surgery has come and gone! It has been 1 1/2 month. I have lost 33lbs. This is cool, but I am rather impatient and I want to lose much more quickly. I have been exercising like everyday. Cardio for 30 minutes everyday and strengths training for 30 minutes 3 times a week. I feel like I am already at a plateau, and I am not happy. I had to force myself to stopp stepping on the scale 4 to 5 times a damn day. I actually had to put my scalle in my car. I told myself that I would not step on it until the day I go visit with my fam in chicago on the 22nd. I wanted to be down to 300lbs b then but it doesn't look like it is gonna happen. My weight seemed to be fluctuating between 322 and 318, wtf, so frustrating. i feel like I may be doing something wrong, what I do not know. Anyway I will keep ya'll updated.
10/12/2007- I started my pre-op diet today! I was feelin pretty hungry. I went out to celebrate my friend getting a new job. I bought a grilled chicken sandwiche and took off the bread. I wanted that bread so badly!!! But I did good. The protein shakes are not great but I can take them. I used to eat popcorn everyday
I miss it already. do that this time.
10/13/2007- Today is really hard. It is sat. and I am sittin at home bored. I usually eat when I am bored. I couldn't though sigh........... I miss popcorn. I was hungry again, hunger headaches all day. I am going to buy some appetite suppressants from GNC tomorrow. I can take the hunger headaches, I fell I might cheat. I drank a shake for breakfast, a cup of grapes for a snack, 1 baked chicken breast for lunch, and one baked chicken breast for dinner.
10/14/2007-I bought my appetite suppressants from GNC today. I bought the truu hoodia complex pills. I was really skeptical about them working, but they did! I had 1 chicken breast for lunch, grapes for a snack, and 2 shakes. I wasn't even hungry to have needed dinner! I am excited now, about no more hunger pains!!! This will still be a long 2 weeks.
10/15/2007I ate my usual which I am kind of tired of chicken breasts. I am gonna try turkey soon. I dont like fish at all, and I am trying to avoid beef because of the high fat content. I may break down though, so I can have some varieety. I don't really like veggies either but I am gonna try to force some broccolli down. I am tryin to count down, so 4 down 10 more to go.
10/16/2007- I didn't have to take the appetite suppressants today and I did not have any real cravings. My co workers brought in donuts and cay and stuff for boss's day and I was not tempted! Gotta do right for this pre-op diet.
1 comment | Click here to leave a comment.12/18/2007-The office Christmas party. I really feel like a pig. I ate to much. I have really been eating stupid these last few days anyway. So anyway I ate nachos, meatballs, a chicken wing (fried ofcourse), and a piece of cake. Now although It was only a little of everything I am still mad at myself. I have no idea how many caloriex I consumed, and I still ate past satisfied. I think it is time for a fill, but I am going out of town on sat., so I will have to see about that when I get back. Other than that I have been making bad food choices even though for the most part I have been able to keep track of my calorie intake and I have been working out everyday. I have been able to work harder at the gym then when I started, which I guess is a good thing. I have not been on the scale in a week, and it is all I have been thinking about. I am scared to get on it out of fear that I have gained. But it is driving me crazy not to know. Even though I know that within this week I my calorie intake has been low enough to where I should have atleast shed 3 lbs. But I am soooooo scared to step on the scale. I said I would not weight myself until right before I go to Chicago on sat. but I really think I am gonna mess up and weigh myself today, because this waiting is driving me crazy!!!!
12/11/2007-It has been long while....lol I know sometimes I just get to lazy to type. Surgery has come and gone! It has been 1 1/2 month. I have lost 33lbs. This is cool, but I am rather impatient and I want to lose much more quickly. I have been exercising like everyday. Cardio for 30 minutes everyday and strengths training for 30 minutes 3 times a week. I feel like I am already at a plateau, and I am not happy. I had to force myself to stopp stepping on the scale 4 to 5 times a damn day. I actually had to put my scalle in my car. I told myself that I would not step on it until the day I go visit with my fam in chicago on the 22nd. I wanted to be down to 300lbs b then but it doesn't look like it is gonna happen. My weight seemed to be fluctuating between 322 and 318, wtf, so frustrating. i feel like I may be doing something wrong, what I do not know. Anyway I will keep ya'll updated.
10/12/2007- I started my pre-op diet today! I was feelin pretty hungry. I went out to celebrate my friend getting a new job. I bought a grilled chicken sandwiche and took off the bread. I wanted that bread so badly!!! But I did good. The protein shakes are not great but I can take them. I used to eat popcorn everyday
I miss it already. do that this time.
10/13/2007- Today is really hard. It is sat. and I am sittin at home bored. I usually eat when I am bored. I couldn't though sigh........... I miss popcorn. I was hungry again, hunger headaches all day. I am going to buy some appetite suppressants from GNC tomorrow. I can take the hunger headaches, I fell I might cheat. I drank a shake for breakfast, a cup of grapes for a snack, 1 baked chicken breast for lunch, and one baked chicken breast for dinner.
10/14/2007-I bought my appetite suppressants from GNC today. I bought the truu hoodia complex pills. I was really skeptical about them working, but they did! I had 1 chicken breast for lunch, grapes for a snack, and 2 shakes. I wasn't even hungry to have needed dinner! I am excited now, about no more hunger pains!!! This will still be a long 2 weeks.
10/15/2007I ate my usual which I am kind of tired of chicken breasts. I am gonna try turkey soon. I dont like fish at all, and I am trying to avoid beef because of the high fat content. I may break down though, so I can have some varieety. I don't really like veggies either but I am gonna try to force some broccolli down. I am tryin to count down, so 4 down 10 more to go.
10/16/2007- I didn't have to take the appetite suppressants today and I did not have any real cravings. My co workers brought in donuts and cay and stuff for boss's day and I was not tempted! Gotta do right for this pre-op diet.
