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I am blessed today Yall...I know that the Lord is my light and my salvation.  I know that greater is He that is in me than he that is in the world...I know that I am covered by the blood of Jesus...I beleive Isaiah 53:3" But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed." 

YES..we are healed from every disease, discomfort, addiciton and insecurity! We have and will continue to make it through these surgeries that will allow us the capacity to serve our Living God...we will continue to spread the words of His goodness to all who will listen or not..to all that are opposed or not..we know that the word tells us that if we are shame and deny Jesus before men, that He will deny us before His Father who is in Heaven...Matthew 10:33.  So I don't know about you, but I know there is no way to the Father except thru the Son (Jesus)...and I will NOT deny Him.

I'm taking off tomorrow yall!!!I know you are praying for me and I am as well praying for you too. 

Right now in the name of Jesus I lift every person in OH up to you Lord.  Rather they know you or not God, I give them to you.  Lord you have made each one of us in your image, whether we acknowledge you or not God, I know that you love us...I give you the glory and honor as it is due.  You have kept many of us from dangers seen and unseen and for that Lord, I give you praise.  Lord, as I prepare for this journey,  anoint those around me with sweet peace.  Lord calm their minds and hearts.  This is a celebration of life....you still have loads of work for me to do...I declare right now in your son's name that all those who have covered me in prayer be blessed beyond measure.  Touch their lives and their families God as they expose themselves and their stuggles to the masses. Hear our prayers as we lift up family and friends who are having issues in their health.  Let your will be done, Oh God.  Thank you Lord for this day that you have made especially for your children.  Fear is not of you, so we will not be fearful...We are victorious, that's what your word tells us...thank you for sending Jesus to cover our sins..I repent Father for anything that I may have done on purpose or not..I bless you God for Favor over the airline pilot, the drivers, the drs who will be performing surgery on me and anyone soon to have their surgery in the name of Jesus..I pray for peace God...Now Lord, anoint us with your glory....we will continue to do your will God..No more excuses...I pray this prayer in your son Jesus' name....Amen! 

Go in peace and power yall!!!

Good day to all my friends...this is the day the Lord has made I will rejoice and be glad in it...I was glad when they said unto me, let us go into the house of the Lord...

The children of God are vicorious yall!!!!What the devil meant for bad, God has turned it around for our good...

For those of you who did not read the post in the main board yesterday you missed a treat.  I am reminded, that nothing shall separate ME from the love of God..I have had people from all over extending their hands and petitioning me  for prayer as well as lifting me up in prayer as well...To God be the Glory!!! Honestly, I didn't want to do thus said the Lord and that is probably why I used the wrong word but nonetheless, as my aunt consistently tells me...the devil knows no new tricks.  Apparently all the negative comments had been used before, they had just shelfed them for another opportunity.

I am here to tell you that I will not stop, I am not going away....I will continue to profess the name of Jesus no matter where I am..KNOW THAT!!!!  I have 2 more days til take off... and somebody's gonna have to move over cuz Chana is going on the loser's bench!!!LOL

Be encouraged...I love every last one of yall....Remember in the end, WE WIN!! Thank you Jesus!

This morning I woke up crying.  I haven't slept well over the last week and this morning, it all came out!  I just want to publicly thank Paula (cocdrop7) for being in my life right now...we are going to make it thru this thing full circle, girl! I can count on her to be the one that's not going to tell me what I want to hear but what I need to hear..God knew exactly what he was doing with us..to him I give the honor and glory.  I would not be able to make it thru this without her....

Even in the midst of my emotions, I want to encourage all of you who are reading this today, focus on things that matter and not those that dont...

Today, if you don't think that you have an ounce of support from those who love you the most, check yourself.  I had to realize that today.  Everybody around me loves me and wants the best for me and yes, they want me to loose weight.  Rather they say it with their mouths or not, they want me healthy.  I have done an excellent job by creating this wonderful wall around myself not allowing the things I so desire in my life in..that's nobody's fault but my own...

Today I decree, I will be glad in this day that has been created for me by my father in Heaven. His love is matchless and boundless.  I bless him today with my all of my heart rejoicing that he has chosen me for such a journey.  I am honored and pray that he is well pleased with me...I ask for his forgiveness for sins I have committed knowingly and unknowingly.  I stand corrected in my actions towards my husband and I can only pray that while I'm receiving this gastric bypass that God performs a bypass surgery in my heart.  I have been so beat up and abused over the years and the man who God has placed in my life to deal with all of this, I find myself abusing...So I'm praying for a new heart yall...

The only way I know to fix this is to be transparent.  So many of us are pretending to be one thing and we are not.  Yes, I love the Lord!  Yes, I am a servant of the Lords...No, I am not the best wife or mother!  My journey does not only consist of just the shedding of weight as it pertains to my body but it consists of all the weight I have carried as the result of abuse caused by myself and others...My journey has started yall ! I can not wait to get to the promised land...the land of freedom and peace to pull others in...yes is does exsist but we have to die to this flesh!!! It is a must..

Before I close, (I feel like I'm in church)..I want to extend an offer of salvation to those who have not excepted Christ as your personal savior.  If you would just pray and tell God that you know that you are a sinner but you believe in your heart that Jesus was born of a virgin that he gave his life on the cross and one day he is coming back..you will be saved! Know that once you receive Christ as your personal savior there is nothing you could do to make him love you any more and there is nothing you could do to make him love you any less...for we all have sinned and fallen short of His glory...when we know better we do better..

I have a lot of work ahead of me to repair a lot of damage that has been caused thru the years but God has trusted me with the heart to acknowledge now act...Actions speak louder than words...if I don't beleive what it is I say than that only makes me a good speaker and that's not who I want to be!!!!Its up to me to change myself first and others will be compelled to do the same, so follow me as I follow Christ...

There is NOTHING impossible for God...NOTHING!!!

Ok, shopping is done.  Hair is braided and it hurts so bad... Anywho, tomorrow is my baby's birthday and we are having a cookout at my mom's house.  My appitite subsided last week so I know I'm not going to be able to eat too much.  I still haven't quite figured out the arrangements for my daughters. Six days is so long to ask for someone to keep them but my family is cool and everybody is finally understanding that even though this is selfish, its the best decision for my life.    I'm just about there but not quite.  What else?  I realized how much I had neglected my family.  I took 2 of my daughters to the dentist yesterday and both of them have 2 cavities.  I feel like I have so much to make up to them and I will.  After grocery shopping last night I realized I had no idea what was in our fridge.  I could not believe the stuff that needed to be thrown out..I threw everything away and scubbed it and the freezer down before putting the groceries in.  My  Lord, I had to ask for forgiveness because it was at that moment I realized how much I had allowed this depression to consume my life..NO MORE....This place will be spotless before I leave that way the journey begins fresh and the only resemblence of my old life will be the reflection in the mirrow that will soon change for the better...
 

The plane is taking off, 5 days and counting.  I am so greatful to God for the many words of encouragement you all have given to me. Even though I have not met any of you ladies and gentlemen in person, I am delighted to have you all as a part of my journey.  I would have never thought WLS would be my reality and it's almost here.  Yes, I am a ball of emotions.  I'm listening to this song right now that says, "even though your winds blow, I want you to now, you cause me no alarm because I'm safe in His arm, even though your rain falls I can still make this call, let there be peace, now I can say go away I command you to move today, because of faith I have a brand new day..the sun will shine and I will be ok...That's what I told the storm... 

For those of you who have been thru or are currently going thru any storm...you can command it to move..the storm has to cease...no storms last always. As devistating as hurricane Katrina was it still had to cease.  Yes, people lost all they had yet I am reminded that even thru that God is still God.  I'm speaking to myself too. There is nothing too hard for my Father and I am so glad that He loves me so much that He gifted a very special person to create this website so that we can all be impacted by each other's journey.  That brings me to this, I am so ok in my soul that IF anything happens to me on this side of creation that I will live and reside in the presence of the Lord...Whew...of course I know my job down here is nowhere close to being done, I just had to come to grips with that...

Now for all the fun stuff..this weekend is so full and busy, next Thursday will be here before we know it...I have to go grocery shopping and get a few more things for my trip today.  I have a hair appt in the moring, getting my hair braided (micros) that's gonna take all day and I already know its going to hurt. My baby turns 8 on Sunday.. and I'm having a family get together.  I'm going to try to eat both those days are already over, I have lost my appitite.  What else, oh yea..I have two more test to submit plus my final in my abnormal psychology class.  I was told I need to try to get that done before surgery but I have no idea how that's going to happen.. I stil have laundry and school shopping to do...somebody please me..LOL

All I can say is thank you Jesus, these are all good problems to have!

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I stepped on the scale last night, something  I never do, but to my amazement....4 1/2 lbs gone! WOW, our surgeon doesnt require that 2 week liquid fast thing, maybe because its an open procedure.  I've just puposefull (or not) been watching what I eat.  I know that my favorite foods won't be permitted after surgery so the best thing for me is to part with them now.  The funny thing is, the stuff that is considered my favorite doesnt taste all that great anymore...I think Im greiving, because like most, I'm losing my confidant and my best friend.  What will I do when all is exposed, not more fat to hide behind?  This is big yall! I'm crying tears of JOY because not I have to be accountable.  I can no longer retreat behind the scenes, God has called me to the forefront and I must shine..This is a big responsibility and ready or not, its coming...WOW

Honestly yall, I had no idea that God was going to use me to pray with individual and pray for people.  To be totally transparent, I thought I was going to be able to just have this surgery and go on with my life.  This site has changed my life!  I have transformed even prior to my surgery.  Last evening I was counseling my ex husband (interesting). God revealed to me the reason why I am having an open procedure.  He showed me that the things that have caused me the most pain will be be excised..these things will no longer be able to penetrate me the way they have in my past because He is creating in my a "safe" pouch.  Not much will be able to "get in."  This goes for people, critics, critism, negativity, addiction, insecurities and so on and so on.  Even though this surgery does not require an ectomy (removal of) any organs, meaning I'm still WHOLE, it does however, require a bypass...I'm telling you, I have been a quiet storm for a long time but NOW...God is releasing all the things that have gotten caught up...and to HIM I give ALL the GLORY!!!I have not even had my surgery yet but the things that God has already allowed me to peek into is just fabulous.  I look forward to continually doing HIS work in the lives of people who are fighting no only obesity but all of the spirits that goes along with defeat..We are more the conquerors!

I'm on fire right now! I hope yall can feel it!!!!!!

I talked to my uncle today who said that he was more than willing to go to Mexico with me.  He is retired and said that he's ready to hit the road whenever...and guess what?  He's a photographer so I will have some wonderful pictures to post once I get back..Oh yea, guess what else ?  My mom is going to take care of his ticket...Now isnt that something?  The same mom who didn't want me to have this has come full circle..I'm going to San Diego in style...she has taken care of two first class tickets to San Diego..(kinda sucks because I can't get the free drinks that are offered) just kiddin, the ride is going to be great and I wont be by myself...I was a little afraid even though I've been acting like a big girl..

Isn't that great news?  I'm more excited, I just can't fight it..I'm about to loose control and I think I like it!

Romans 8:35 asks the question, Who shall seperate us from the Love of God? It goes on to name several things, however, in the end...we know, that nothing shall seperate us from the Love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord. 

I am writing this because emotionally, over the past few weeks I have needed some assurance from those who profess to love me.  In the end of it all, I understand that as long as I got King Jesus...I don't need nobody else. 
I am here as an encourager.  That is one of my gifts from God.  I encourage all this day, whoever touches and agrees with me that NOTHING, no one thing, no thing, shall seperate us from the love of God.  I don't know about you guys but I feel better know that. 
We will live and not die..we are the head and not the tail...we will lend and not be borrowers...we are God's chosen.  We are in here to bless one another and to share our testimonies.  This is not done by accident or coincidence, we all have a purpose in this life even if its only 1 person...


Be encouraged today yall!!!!I love you!!!!!!

Remember, the race is not to the swift and the battle is not given to the strong...Ecc 9:11