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Well here I am a year post op and I truly feel like a completely different person inside and out.  I've changed so much on this journey that I hardly recognize myself either in the mirror or in the least physical ways either.  I've lost 144 pounds so far and I'm happy to report that I'm still losing. Good thing too because I really want to take off another 40 pounds lol. 

My only regret at all, and yes I know its a cliche around here, is that I didn't do this 10 years ago!  I'm happy with my results and more importantly I'm happy with the introspection I've gained.  I never thought I had body image problems before... but now I know that I did and do.  It is a tough thing to wrap your head around.  I'm still working on it and I know that I likely will be for a long time to come.

My daughter is a new inductee to the loser's bench.  She had her band last Wednesday.  It feels different to be a cheerleader thats for sure.  I recall how difficult this was in the beginning watching her suffer the hunger, the mood swings, and the regret.  Been there, done that, bought the t-shirt!  I want to comfort her with my experience, but I know as good as the intention is... it is her road to journey and it will be different from my own.

Bless you baby... keep you safe... and work that tool!  I love you and I'm so super proud of you all the time!

I am down 49 pounds this morning... yea it was naked... but I think it counts (even if my surgeon doesn't)... Loaded a new pic in with me as of tonight.  I took a look at the pic and said what?  you're kidding I look just as fat.  I can't see a thing (to my hubby who had taken the pics).  He said your nutz... you look a LOT thinner and off to look at the original pics we went... yea I can see the difference and I feel PROUD!

Just woke up and weighed myself... I'm down to 273!  Finally broke that craptastic stall.  I've taken Miss Dolly's advice and I'm eating a high protein breakfast.  I have watched those carbs hardcore, but I'm not sure I am getting in enough calories and I'm not even sure how to increase them!  I haven't been able to work out much this week due to an awful episode with Kidney Stones that left me in a tremendous amount of pain most of the week.  Thank god for Vicadin (sp?).  It is yummy!

Yesterday was my 6 week post-op visit with my surgeon.  I felt fine when I woke up and had my banana for breakfast on the way to work.  I drank half an Isopure during the morning.  I had some beef jerky for 2nd breakfast and that is when the trouble started.  Shortly after eating it (and not the first time I ate it), I felt not good.  It definately was stuck or something.  I vomitted repeatedly and continued to feel crappy all day... and I mean all day from like 10:30 am to wayyyyy after my doctor's appt.  I rushed through the doc's appointment desperate to get home and lie down or be sick some more.  I said everything was great, reasoning to myself that it had been great up until that morning.  She cleared me to excersize, said see you again in 6 weeks, and that was that.  I got home still feeling ill and climbed in bed.  I must of dozed off and when I woke up about an hour or so later (about 5ish), I finally felt better.  What a crappy day!

Much better today though.  I feel good and I had my first workout at Curves since pre-op.  It felt great, but I confess to feeling a little tired out right now.  I thought to myself on my way back into my office from the parking lot how I have come full circle in what feels like such a short time.  

Oh btw... down to 279... which was my short term goal... get to the 270s... next goal... get to the 260s :p

I haven't done such a spectacular job of posting here.  I am feeling much better, much more like myself.  My cloths are starting to become much looser and I think I could go down a size or so.  My hubby is very proud of me.  I wish I were losing faster though. I am down to 282 and have been going up and down from there over the last few days.  I go for my 6 week check up on Thursday and I so so so much wanted to be in the 270s by then, but I don't think its in the cards.  I am able to get all my protein and water in, but I'm still depending on those Isopure waters for 40 grams of it.  I was hoping to wean off of them by now.  Its harder than I thought it would be to get all my protein from food.  Feeling a bit down tonight.  I know I'll feel better tomorrow.  Gonna go watch some tv and just forget about things.  Here's what I ate today:

Food Name	Servings	Serving Size	Cals	Fat	Carb	Prot
	applesauce		oz lb gram kg	28	0	7	0
	Isopure water		oz lb gram kg	160	0	0	40
	LF String Cheese		oz lb gram kg	140	8	2	16
	Carb Freedom Yogart		liter fl oz cup pint quart gallon tablespoon teaspoon	90	3	5	9
	Pink Salmon		oz lb gram kg	45	2	0	8
	Naturally More Peanut Butter		liter fl oz cup pint quart gallon tablespoon teaspoon	85	6	4	5
	Bread, whole wheat, 100%		large slice regular slice slice, crust not eaten thin slice Quantity not specified	69	1	13	3
Totals				616	19	31	80