Well it has been a while since I have posted I have had my one month follow up and I am now at 423lbs... that is almost 75lbs since the start of my medical management and 50lbs since surgery... actually since my appointment was almost two weeks ago, I am sure that number has gone down even more...

So much to say, I just hope I remember it all... I am finally able to say I am wearing a smaller size. I am into 26/28 as long as they are the stretch or knit materials... my lower body will take forever to get into 28 jeans... but it will happen. I am doing fairly well with my eating and water... though I struggle to get enough water somedays, and need to be better in taking my vitamins. Yesterday the surgery finally hit me... I thought I was doing fine not being able to have some of the foods I use to love. But the school had a special seafood dinner that I thought I would be able to have...but it was a lot of carbs with some seafood...then I went into the school cafeteria and everything was either fried, meat, or carbs... I went back to my office and cried. I was sooo tired of protein drinks, protein bars, and more than anything at that moment I wanted a large pizza and a two liter of soda... Now that the moment has passed, I am so glad I had the surgery! 3 months ago had I been in a similar emotional state, I would have pigged out. So if I haven't said it lately, I am thrilled with the surgery to date.

(Guys beware)   On a personal front, the only major problem since surgery has been bleeding. Being so obese I have so much extra hormones running around in my system... about 2 years ago my doc put me on Provera to counteract all those other ones hanging in the system. I have been fairly regular this last year and never called to get the prescription refilled... Since surgery I have had constant bleeding, heavy at times... the doctor did a biopsy and the tissue in my uterus is pre cancerous... this has me really worried... the doc is optimistic with weight loss and the Provera that I can turn this around... but as he stated to me right now I'm at "defcon 3" or just about 2 steps away from uterine cancer... can we say wake up call? I am sooo up in the air right now... I don't know how to feel, scared? optimistic? dunno... have to think about it for awhile...

Blessings to you all,
Chellie