chimeraboo
Weight Loss Goal #1--reached!
Nov 21, 2014
I am very pleased to say I have finally reached my first goal: getting under 300lbs. I haven't been under 300 lbs in about 3 years. My official weight for week 6 is 299.2 lbs, 60% body fat. I will start working on the body fat this week. I am very eager to start doing weights. I am clear to lift as of today, I just hope busting my incision open 2 weeks ago won't be a setback. I read that building muscle helps the fat burn more...we shall see.
i saw my psych for the first time since surgery. I told her about all the issues I've been venting about since surgery. She says I have a lot of negative thoughts occupying my mind. She calls them ANTs: Automatic Negative Thoughts. Apparently those of you who have told me I beat myself up were right. I thought I was just being real about my feelings..but that's the problem, the negativity has become my perceived reality. So the way to handle this us not to ignore these thoughts, I can't....I just need to learn patience and not give up on myself but instead have a plan on how I'm going to overcome my perceived obstacles and follow it. I have to very regimented and controlled when it comes to food, eating, drinking, and exercise. I need to set myself up for success instead of failure and I need to continuously remind myself that other people's success looks different than mine. We all have different bodies, different things affecting our metabolism, different health issues we're up against, etc. I will make it to a healthy weight, even if it takes 2 years instead of 1, and I will learn a lot about myself in the process. I signed up for a post op bariatric surgery coping seminar that my psych will be doing in January. I think that will help me a lot. On my way out of the doctor's office I was talking with her receptionist who couldn't have been larger than a size 3.. She kept telling me about how much better losing weight will make me feel and how I will gave lots of energy and how I should take it slow..and while she was doing all this talking I was thinking to myself "what the heck do YOU know about being fat?".., turns out she'd had the RNY last year...and I could not ever imagine her overweight....I was completely shocked. Isn't it amazing how some people lose so much weight you don't even believe they were ever fat? I want that to be me someday!